Mon,
I'm sorry, okay? I freaked out. I told you, I do that. You have no idea how much courage this took to write. I'm shaking right now. And no, i'm not being a jerk by not replying, I thought this was over okay? We had a fight. That's bad. But I thought since you emailed twice you deserved a confession. I'm a coward, okay?
I didn't lie about the moth thing, you took that wrong. I am not terrified of them, but I am terrified of dogs. That's what I was trying to say. I'm not going to lie, the fact that you told me something that you have not even told your bestfriend made me smile, even though I am sad right now.
Of course I trust you! Don't be dissapointed because of me.
I'll answer your questions now.
1) Do you have a favourite word? Any word that sounds like a funny noise, like 'nibble'. That's a good word.
2) Do you have siblings? Nope, I'm a loner. I figured my parents thought "There is no point scarring another innocent mind." and plus by that time my dad was convinced he was a woman.
3) Are you afraid of me or my reactions? Do you want the truth? Yeah. I always freak out a little when I have sent my email, like
Did I reply to fast?
Did I sound desperate?
and then if you don't reply the next day as soon as we wake up I always think I have done something wrong, or said something to tick you off. You see what I mean when I say I'm a coward. I can't help it. So yeah, you kinda scare me in some ways. Maybe that's why I ran away..?
I only have one question for you.
1) Why do you still put up with me? I mean, you are mad. Why did you email back?
So, I just wanted you to have an explanation. I guess this is goodbye.
Chandler Bing