Chan
I just got your email and because I didn't want you to begin with your pace again I will write you back now. Oh you're ill too? I have this bad cough now. You know when you coughing all the time.
You know what? The way Joey acted reminded me really strongly of Rachel. She did the same when I wrote you the last email.
Every time I looked at my laptop checking my emails she pounds me about it.
"Hey Honey, missing your little boyfriend?"
Me: "No, I'm just waiting for the email of our new supplier..." and she goes on with
"Oh, than Chandler is YOUR boyfriend?"
"No, he's not! He's just a friend I am emailing with." than she says
"Yeah, sure and tomorrow is Christmas."
And then I just ran into my bedroom holding my laptop. Oh my god...can't believe that I told you that. It's so embarrassing.
Oh god, that was really you at Thanksgiving? Oh god...don't know what to say. I mean honestly it was the worst Thanksgiving ever. Why? Chandler, you said something to Ross in the kitchen. You said uh... that I'm fat. Why did you say that? You wrote in your last email that you found me beautiful and then you told Ross that I was fat? What does this mean? I'll tell you a secret: I just lost weight because you said that. It really hurts. But don't mind, I'm over it. I mean it's been years since that day.
I was also right with the second meeting? Wow I can't believe this...oh god I just realized there's a lot I can't believe today. This guy in Central Perk was really you? Why ran you away from me? Honestly I thought you were cute and I hoped so much that you would talk to me instead you ran away. By the way the coffee doesn't hurt.
Oh god the thing with the boyfriend. I don't know what that meant...oh wait...maybe I wrote it because I feel something for you. We have been writing to each other for about two months and when I think about you and your emails I begin to smile and there is this feeling that this could be the beginning of something huge in my life. I don't want to scare you or that you run away from me but I think I am beginning to fall in love with you. You can't imagine how close I am to erasing that whole last sentence. Did I scare you? Or did you feel something similar...maybe this is why you went all tingly. Could it be the reason?
Know what? You can never shock me with your answers of my questions. I love to read your answers and get to know you better. Why didn't you answer my second question? Why didn't you give it a try? Maybe I won't laugh even though you already laughed at me...fess up.
Chandler I really can't explain what this is. I'm feeling it too...this little something between us and I tried to talk to another friend of mine, Phoebe. Why? I couldn't talk to Rachel because I know she would just say something like "You're in love with this Chandler. See I said it all the time." and I really needed an objective opinion about this. So I told her about us (sorry for this, I know I broke our little pact) and in the end I'm not even smarter than before. She told me the same Rachel would say if I asked her. So, here I am, sitting on my bed writing to you and still didn't know what we have, where we are and if we're just friends or maybe more. Oh god now I have a really bad headache coming from all this thinking about us. Chandler, no Chan... I'm so afraid I have frightend you. Please write back.
Why didn't you ask your three questions? Is it because you're as confused as I am?
I have to stop before Rachel comes in because if that happens I'll never send this email to you. So I'll just say bye and click on SEND before I think this all over.
Bye, Mon
P.S. Please answer!