*Hey Friends and followers of our little story. We have to apologize because we forgot something. Maybe you wondered why Monica's email was so angry (The One With Another Angry Email). That's because we forgot to upload Chandler's email. You all know Chandler would answer to such a confession Monica's made. So we uploaded it and if you want you can now read Chandlers reaction of Monica's "I think I begin to fall in love with you".
So this is the note we wanted to add to let all you guys know that there was one chapter left.
After all this, here's the new chapter, Monica's POV...with all her thoughts after she wrote the angry email and while the whole other stuff happened. We hope you enjoy it.
Bye yours Sophie & Steffi*

Here I sat in front of my laptop and didn't know what to do. Usually I would clean the apartment, but I was to afraid to bump into Rachel, and she was the last one I wanted to see. I didn't want her to know what I was thinking. So the only thing left was to think about all this mess that happened in the last few days. Was it right to write this email to Chandler? It was so angry at the beginning and then I didn't tell him the whole truth...
I knew why I did that. This is something I had known for a while...maybe since the second or third email of him. I never ever wanted him to run away from me or the worst of all, leave me forever. At first it was just the way he wrote his emails but then at the very beginning of our "what-is-this-relationship" he told me about his lifetime dream. The night right after I read his email I dreamed of Chandler. I dreamed of his dream and saw me as a part, an important part of this lifetime dream. Now I knew even then I had a crush on Chandler.
Isn't it weird I didn't think about my feelings till his Goodbye-email?...I can't explain how afraid I was that this was over, that I will never ever read anything from him again...I was so glad he wrote me. That he really wrote this Smiley-email to apologize for his Goodbye.

So now I was sitting on my bed in front of my laptop and waited for this "bling" that showed me I have a new message...hopefully from Chan. I liked this nickname...it had something special, something personal.
"Bling"...oh there it was...the tone I was waiting for, for hours...I looked at my alarm clock...no wait it had just been half an hour since I sent my email.
Okay, see I knew I'd scare him but wait...that can't be true, he wouldn't send me an email if I scared him to hell. Because even if I will scare him he would come back...that was what he wrote. That was not his typical reaction...wasn't it? Did he really thought I could stop loving him...yeah I finally said it. I was in love with Chandler Bing...no, wrong I loved him more than I ever thought I could love somebody in such a short time and through emailing each other...that never happened to me before.
"Googled it" I was smiling...they were back, my laughter's and smiles when I read his emails...now he was serious...very serious. I had to read the last few sentences twice and then once again. Was that true? Was that really true? He loved me? Me, Monica Geller...the former ugly, fat girl (I knew these were just my issues).
Okay NOW I was scared. He knew what to do and I just had to wait? Was he kidding? How can I not be scared? Okay, I was nervous, I was really nervous and every time I am I had to clean up something...anything. So I was going out of my room and I saw that there were dishes to wash...thank god.
I was almost done with the dishes when there were three knocks at the door. Rach came out of her room and wanted to open the door but I was faster with all my nervousness and my curiosity. So I opened the door and I was frozen. There was someone standing in the hall. Then he smiled their incredible smile and I realized who was standing right in front of me. I had just one question:

"Chandler? What are you doing here?" and then he said the most beautiful words in the world

"I came to see the woman I love. What about you?". I just said something really stupid. I was not really realizing what he said so I asked him:

"Wait, what did you just say?" He didn't really answer he just smiled...the most beautiful smile I ever saw...as if he knew something I didn't and then...he kissed me.
Wow that kiss...it was awesome and I absolutely knew I never felt this before. It doesn't felt weird or so. I mean there we stood at the door, two people, almost strangers who were kissing...I never did something like this before...kissing a stranger. Okay Chandler wasn't totally a stranger but we just knew each other through our emails. Than after a while that felt like eternity the kiss ended and it still felt right. I still couldn't even say one word as if I had no voice. Chandler was the first one who said something.

"Well, I think I know what I'm feeling. No need for explanations… Mon, are you alright? You look pale. Monica?" I heard what he was saying but still wasn't able to answer. After this kiss, this amazing kiss I knew what I was feeling for Chandler...for sure. I loved him...more than anyone else in my entire life.
I was staring at him, waiting for my voice to come back. After a while, where Chandler was getting really nervous I found my voice and just said one word: "Wow!" and than all came out, all I felt for him. "I love you too Chandler. I knew it since you said Goodbye to me and I thought I lost you forever. But all the time I couldn't admit it to myself, not until now, until you kissed me."
I heard someone sniffing behind me so I turned around. There was Rachel standing in our living room almost crying but she also smiled and then she was blinking to me and she was gone, gone into her bedroom. In all my nervousness I was taking a speechless Chandler by his hand into the kitchen. I knew we had to talk, talk about a lot of things even though I would rather do other things. So we sat down, starred at each other until Chandler began to speak.