Past Secrets

Chapter 11 - Dropping Bombs On Souls

It was 2:30 when I finally reached my house; school was a exhausting day. The whole day I couldn't stop thinking about Amy and if she's still in love with Sonic. But now's the time for me to ask Amy that question. I left my house under a lot of stress. God if I get there and Amy tells me it's over and she's going to be dating Sonic for now on; I will be crushed. But its not the first time my hopes have been stepped on. As I walked I notice Silver and Tails in front of Silver's house playing basketball, and of course Silver's cheating by using his powers on the ball, poor Tails he's so short. I would help him but I have more important things to deal with right now. I continued along the sidewalk until I came to Amy's house. I stopped at the front steps and took a deep breath.

"Ahhh…. Here we go." I said to myself quietly. I then walked up the stairs and knocked on the door.

"Knock! Knock! Knock!" I waited until I heard the door unlock. Then it opened and she stood before me with the same face I had; I face that said "I don't know how to put this." I looked into her green eyes while she stared into mine. We both took a deep breath then I started the show.

Hi Amy.

"Ahhh hi Shadow; I was going to call your cell and tell you to come over but, I guess I don't have to any more." Said Amy.

"Why did you want me to come over?" I asked her.

"I needed to talk to you about something." Said Amy while putting her head to the side.

"What?" I asked curiously.

"Ahhhh. This would probably be better if you came inside and took a seat." Said Amy as she moved aside so I could come in.

"Ummm….ok." I said to her as I walked towards her living room.

"Just sit on the couch." Said Amy as she shut the front door.

I sat down on the couch and after Amy was done with the door, she came over and sat next to me. It was weird sitting there waiting for her to say something. I was growing nervous by how long it took her to begin. But when she did it started off on the bad side.

"Ahhh…Shadow.." Amy stopped.

"What is it Amy?" I asked her.

Amy began to cry. I watched in shock. Now I knew something was seriously wrong. I put my hand on her shoulder and guided it until I reached her soft cheek. I moved her face so that she was looking at me and not the floor. If what she was going to say to me was true then I would want her to say it to my face. Amy wiped the tears off her cheeks and started over.

"Shadow…I…. Do you love me?" Asked Amy.

That one word "LOVE" threw me off so bad. I didn't know what to say. She was the first girl I meet in a long time that I can talk to about anything, she's a girl that I can trust with anything. So to cut my feelings short I said what any hedgehog would say in that situation.

"If I didn't then I wouldn't be here now."

Amy smiled and continued.

"So you would trust me in the choices I make, no matter how bad or wrong they are?" Asked Amy.

"Of course." I replied.

Amy took a deep breath.

"Do you remember what Sonic said today in homeroom about how much he loves and cares for me and about how he wishes he could take everything he ever did to hurt me back?"

I nodded at her.

"Well…. After he said all that I was getting really nervous." Said Amy

"Nervous? About what?" I asked her while beginning to get upset.

"Nervous that I might still have feelings for him; feelings that he can change. Feelings that this time he really meant what he said" Said Amy while getting upset again.

I looked away and I knew how this was going to play out now. Amy put her hand on my leg and I looked back at her. I had a few tears in my face. She knew I figured out what she was going to say.

You think he can change? I asked her in a serious tone.

"I do Shadow. I remember the first time I fell in love with him. He was the nicest guys I ever meet, until you. I saw what he was truly like back then and even now; I still believe he's that guy I first fell in love with. He was my first true love Shadow." Said Amy sincerely.

A tear rolled down my cheek. I felt my heart breaking in two. I finally found the courage to ask the question.

"Do you want to be with him?"

Amy put her head down and said in a quiet voice.

"I still love Sonic Shadow. I think he'll be that guy I once loved again. I'm so sorry Shadow." Said Amy beginning to cry once again.

I took her hand off my leg and rested it on hers. Amy looked at me curiously.

I stood up off the couch and I swear when I did, my broken heart hit the bottom of my stomach. I wiped the tears off my eyes and looked at the little pink hedgehog.

"So it's over between us Amy?" I asked her while trying to hold back my tears.

Amy stood up and tried to take my hand but I pulled it away. Amy knew how I felt so she didn't attempt to take it after that.

"I'm… sorry Shad but…." I cut her off.

"I understand Amy. But wow, one day is all it took for you to dump me."

"I'm not dumping you!" Shouted Amy.

"Ohhh my bad let me rephrase that. It took you only one day to leave me to go back to that abusive blue hedgehog." I said.

"Sonics not an abusive hedgehog; he just needs someone in his life who can help him." Said Amy.

"So you called him a abusive blue asshole in homeroom, but now he's a misunderstood hedgehog that needs someone in his life who can help him. Let me guess Amy; when you leave after this conversation to go back to Sonic, and he hits you for dating me and for all the stuff you said to him in homeroom; are those punches now considered "love taps" to you? Or is he just still a innocent hedgehog who is misunderstood for the way he treats women?" I asked her in a small rage.

"Shadow he's not like that anymore. He loves me and he'll never hurt me again. I don't care what you think about Sonic, your not my boyfriend anymore, Sonic is." Amy covered her mouth, she couldn't believe she let herself say that.

I turned away and headed for the door with a caravan of tears ready to pour. I opened the front door and before I could leave Amy grabbed my arm.

"Shadow I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to say that." Pleaded Amy.

I ripped her grip from my arm and made my way down stairs toward the side walk. Silver and Tails were still playing basketball but stopped when they saw me exit Amy's house. Behind me I heard Amy shout.

"Shadow! Where are you going?"

I looked back at her and said.

"Somewhere I can go to cry in private."

I didn't look back after saying that to her, I just made my way down the road; crying and hoping that someone would destroy what was left of any hope I had for loving anyone again in this sad world.