A\N Love the reviewsss. Let's shoot for 20 (: Anyway, here's
your story.
Jack's P.O.V.
I ran all the way home, into my house, and bolted up to my room not
bothering to be quiet while my mom slept. I had bigger problems. I closed
the door and leaned up against it. I was breathless, and even though I could
only say two words at a time. I still had to calm myself down. "Okay Jack,"
*pant pant* "just calm down," *pant pant* "everything is going to be fine. It
was nothing." After I had finally caught my breath, I started pacing my
room. "Okay so I just kissed my best friend. But no, she kissed me. But
there's no difference since I kissed her back." Saying this part out loud made
me stop dead in my tracks. "I kissed her back… but no, I don't think I like
her." I started pacing again. "That's right, I don't like her. I like Dawn." I
stopped again. "Do I really like her? It's only been 3 days. Maybe I'm over
thinking this too much. Maybe Kim kissing me was just a friendly gesture."
I gave myself time to take this in and believe it, but I couldn't. I knew it was
something else. "Since she kissed me, she'll have to explain it to me herself.
It's only fair." I went to change and then lied on my bed and thought some
more. The image of Kim kissing me was glued to my head. I wonder what
she's thinking about right now. Is she thinking about me? I shook the
thought out of my head. I'll just forget about it by asking Dawn out on a
date. Just to clear my mind and see if I can have a relationship with her.
See?
I have it all planned out…
Next morning…
I woke a little earlier than usual, so I stayed in bed I tried to go back to sleep
until I had to get ready for school, but I couldn't, Kim was on my mind. I
sighed and got up, showered, ate, brushed my teeth, and went outside with
my skateboard and skated around the neighborhood until it was time to
leave. I was skating to school, when I saw Dawn ahead of me and her
skateboard; I sped up to catch up with her. "Hey, Dawn wait up!" she
slowed until I reached up to her "Going to school a bit early?" I asked her,
she smiled. "Yeah. I figured I should. Don't want to be late again." I laughed
and we skated in silence for a while. "Where's Kim?" Dawn asked. "I don't
know… I didn't see her this morning." That wasn't a lie. I really didn't see
her. "Oh." By this time we were at school. "Well, I'll see you at lunch."
Dawn said as she walked off. I walked to my locker. Didn't see Kim. I
walked to my class. No Kim. I sat at my desk, the bell rang, and the teacher
started teaching. Still no Kim. I put my head down. This is confusing, I want
to see her, but then again I don't.
"Sorry I was late." Some said as they rushed in. I looked up. Kim! I waved
as she sat down at the desk next to me. She just gave me a little smile and
turned back around. I sighed at put my head back down. This is going to be
so awkward.
Without Kim and I talking, class went by fast. Before lunch she had
cheerleading practice and I had music. But I wasn't any use because I
couldn't concentrate at all. No matter how hard I tried. I kept asking myself
the same questions:
Do I like Kim?
Does she like me?
Why did she kiss me?
Why is she avoiding me?
Am I avoiding her?
Should I give her space to figure this out?
That's certainly what I need.
Since Kim and I weren't talking the day was going fast, but that also made
the day go by slow and made it boring. And before I knew it, it was time for
lunch. I sat with the usual: Jerry, Eddie, Milton, and Dawn. Kim went to sit
with her cheerleading buddies. I figured she would. She just wants her
space. I assured myself. "You okay?" Milton asked me. "Ah yeah. Totally."
I said faking a smile. The guys seemed to buy it but not Dawn. She gave me
one of those 'we'll-talk-later' glares. Lunch was fine, the guys really did
make me forget about the problem I had with Kim. But when it was over the
thoughts came back for the rest of the day. I was in all of my classes,
physically. But mentally I was looking for Kim hoping she would answer.
When school was over, I was glad that there wasn't any practice at the dojo
today, and I told the guys I would walk home alone. They didn't suspect
anything so that was good. When I got inside my house I saw that my mom
wasn't home as yet. I watched some t.v. then just went to bed before my
mom came home. I didn't want her asking questions that I didn't know the
answers to.
Next morning, it was Saturday. She came in my room to check on me. But I
acted like I was still asleep. I wanted to talk to her about it. I just didn't
really know how. After she had left I realized that I didn't want to be alone
because I would only think about Kim, so I called Dawn and invited her
over. We would have fun together, and she would clear my mind of things.
When she got here, we walked around town a bit, until she got hungry. We
went to the mall to get her something to eat. I was hungry, but I didn't want
anything. For once today, I was actually having fun. That's when I realized
it would be better to just keep Dawn as a friend. But then I saw her. Yes Kim
in the same place we were eating. Laughing and talking with none other than
John Johnson. Today is Saturday. Her date was today. It had totally skipped
my mind. After a few minutes I couldn't stand to look anymore. "Dawn,
let's just go back to my house." "Why?" she asked. Always curious, that's
what I liked about her, but not today. "Because I'm tired and you're done
with your food. Let's just get going." I said angrily. On the way home,
Dawn asked what was wrong, but I ignored her. Not to be mean, I just didn't
feel like analyzing my feelings right now. When we got inside my house,
that's when she grabbed me and asked me what was wrong. "I'm just a little
stressed out. That's all." "A little," then she brought my hands up to my
face. "Look, you've had your hands clenched in a fist the whole walk
home." I looked at them, I hadn't even noticed.
I then looked at her. If I didn't tell this to someone I was going to break.
Who could be better than her? "The day before yesterday, Kim kissed me."
Her eyes got wide as soon as I told her, "Did you kiss her back?" she said
slowly "Yeah, kind of. But then I pushed her away. It didn't feel right
kissing her. She's like one of the guys, now she's gone, not talking to me at
all," I found myself babbling, but I didn't care. "When we were just at the
mall, Kim was there with her date. And I just couldn't stand to see that. First
she kisses me and doesn't talk to me after it and then she goes on a date and
forgets all about it." I sat down on the couch, while Dawn walked around
soaking in everything that I just said. Then she sat down next to me. "Why
don't you go talk to her about it?" I shrugged my shoulders. "I needed the
space to think and I'm guessing she did too." Dawn nodded her head while I
continued. "After that kiss I can't get her out of my head, now I see her
differently. It's so distracting." Dawn took a while to answer, but eventually
did. "Maybe your starting to like her." She said softly "NO. I don't. I can't. I
won't." "Then you just need something to get your mind off her." "Like
what?" I said. It took a while for Dawn to answer, but then she turned to me
and said.
"Come on a date with me."