A/N I really didn't know what to do for this chapter. I was tied
between if I should have them kiss or not. So I took some of
Ashsmilelove idea with my own into the chapter. This chapter
isn't going to be long, but don't get mad, I'm saving it all for
the other chapter. If any of you have a problem with my stories
being all on the left side, I'm sorry :/ I really don't know why
it's like that.
Jack's P.O.V.
Don't kiss her.
Don't kiss her.
Don't kiss her.
You can't kiss her. She has a boyfriend AND she's your best friend. All it's
going to do is make trouble and make our friendship even more complicated
than it already is.
Don't kiss her.
Don't kiss her.
Don't kiss her.
But the more I told myself that, the more I wanted to.As I leaned in, I
guided her hands to base of my face. Her breathing became short and fast.
My thoughts were racing at high speed and I found that I had almost no
control over myself. She moved one of her hands and ran them through my
hair, the other she used to put on my shoulder to pull me in faster. My heart
raced, knowing that she wanted to kiss me.
Our foreheads touched. Then our noses touched. Then-
"Jack wait. I can't do this. I can't kiss you."
"Why not?" she looked me in the eyes, then looked down and whispered
something that sounded like
"John..." I sighed in exasperation. Anger boiled inside of me as I spoke with
jealousy.
"Kim who do you care about more? Him or me?" She looked at me with
tears in her eyes. It would have broken me if I wasn't so angry.
"Jack, you're my world. You should know you come first, you're my best
friend but-" she stopped and let go of my shoulder, letting her arms dropped
to her side. I waited for her to continue but I got impatient.
"But what?" she shook her head and walked towards the open window. My
anger subsided as I took hold of her arm forcing her to turn around.
"Kim wait. Don't go." She only shook her head like before, but this time she
responded.
"It was a bad idea coming here, thinking everything would go back to
normal. As if I didn't kiss you. Can you please forget that I ever did that?" I
watched a tear roll down her cheek as I let go of her arm and took her hand
in mine.
"I'm sorry, but I can't. Not ever." She looked down at our locked hands, and
started to smile, the moonlight shining in from the window caught her eyes
and they sparkled, only for a moment. Her smile soon left her face. She let
go of my hand and turned around.
"At least try to." She made her way to the window, and this time I didn't
stop her.
I couldn't. My feet felt as though they were glued to the floor. When she
exited, I threw myself on the bed and felt the anger and jealousy surge
through me again, but this time they brought along the feeling of hurt and
loss.
Yes, I had lost my best friend again. Probably forever. I felt that there was
no way to bring her back. Kim was sure of what she wanted and that seemed
to be John. But my subconscious, the part of me that was sure that Kim liked
me began to ring through my ears.
Kim does have feelings for you, she just can't show it. She herself said that
you came first. That should mean something.
It does mean something. It means everything.
Then don't give up. It may not seem like it, but she's still there. She's the
same Kim that you met on the first day of school. She's just blinded by John.
I knew this was right. But I shouldn't interfere with Kim and John because
he seems to be making her happy. As much as I didn't like it, I will do it. I
don't want to lose her even more than I already have.
The mental battle with myself was too tiring, but it felt like the only thing I
could do at this point. My emotions were on overload and I didn't know
what to do. I looked at the clock. It was almost 3 in the morning. I figured if
I didn't get any sleep, I would feel even worse tomorrow.
A/N So like I said before, the chapter is short. It was mostly
Jack trying to find the right thing to do, and he thinks the right
thing to do is to hang back and let Kim have her relationship
with John, even if that meant losing his best friend in the
process. The next chapter is going to be way long. *pinky
promise* so just hang in there. But anyway, review and tell me
what you think is wrong with Kim. Why didn't she kiss Jack?
Why does she care so much about John? Why does she regret
the kiss so much?
-Jayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy