A/N So this was the week of school. Week being only Thursday
and Friday. It was really good, but
I'm in the regent's class which means 10 times the work. So I
guess I can only update on the weekends. I'm gonna try and
take the advice of fyrephoenix16 and make this story with
more "action" but with type of theme and story line, that's
going to be hard. But I'll try. IMPORTANT INFO AT THE
BOTTOM!
Jack's P.O.V.
Shattered.
That was the best way to describe my feelings. It's been almost a week since
that night between me and Kim and my thoughts didn't stop buzzing. It was
hard to go more than 5 minutes without Kim running through my endless
thoughts. Life felt empty and without use and we didn't hang out like we
used to after our little feud, honestly, I didn't expect us to. Now, the only
times we come in contact are
when spar at the dojo, other than that, we stayed miles apart. I wanted help, I
needed advice, but I haven't talked to anyone, not even Dawn.
When the school bell rung, ending the period, I walked outside. It was our
free-period, but today I was spending it alone. I walked past the seating area
and saw no other than Kim with John sitting under a tree in our usual spot.
My heart raced with anger and my hands became fists in seconds. For once,
in days, my thoughts cleared with one word left behind. Jealousy. I tried not
to stare but I had no control. I knew it would break me, but I felt like I had
no choice but to watch. I didn't know how long I was standing there for, but
eventually Kim turned and noticed me. She didn't wave or smile and neither
did I. When I looked at her, all that came to my mind were the words she
said when we last talked. Telling me that I should forget that anything ever
happened, and to forget that we ever shared a kiss. It's wasn't like I didn't
want to. I couldn't.
The anger and jealously slipped away and John seemed to disappear as I
looked into her eyes. You would expect to see happiness and joy, but all I
saw was sadness and the sense that she was deprived of something. I looked
at her smile, and it showed it all. But her eyes told a different story. We
stared at each other for what seemed like hours, and then I started to wonder.
What does she see when she looks at me?
The answer came into my mind almost immediately.
Probably pain, anger, depression, loss rejection…
I tried to force a smile to show her that I was the total opposite. Though I
wasn't, I wanted her to see that I still cared. The worst pain is watching
someone else give your best friend the happiness that you used to, but I was
determined not to let her notice. When John came back into view, I finally
got the will power to walk away. I continued walking until I came by the
river. I set my bag down and picked up a few flat rocks. Skipping rocks
always calmed me down. When I found a rock that was suitable, i flicked
my wrist and sent it on it's way.
2 skips.
I sighed and sat down on the grass.
"This is all my fault."
"What's all your fault?" I jumped and turned around half expecting it to be
Kim.
"Oh. It's you." Dawn lost her smile and sat down next to me.
"Well it's nice to see you too." I ran my fingers through my hair.
"Sorry. I'm just a little off today."
"Kim troubles?" I nodded, wondering how she knew.
"Well tell me what happened, maybe I can help." I sighed and lied down on
the grass, not knowing where to start.
"I like Kim." I said softly, I didn't like to admit it, but it was true.
Dawn turned to look at me with a shocked expression, then her lips broke
into a smile.
"So I was right." I shrugged.
"I guess. But now everything is messed up. I lost her again. I just keep
pushing her closer to John and further away from me." Dawn gave me a
sympathetic look.
"Maybe you haven't. Maybe it's all in your head."
"No. No it's not. She said herself that she wants to forget that anything ever
happened, even the kiss."
Now Dawn was frustrated, this was probably the first time I've ever seen her
without an answer to a problem.
"Try and give her some time."
"Dawn it's been a week. The closest we've come in contact is when do
karate and that's it," I turned to face the water. "I don't think I want to go on
that date anymore." This time Dawn answered more quickly.
"No Jack, you have to stick through with it. It's part of the plan. Remember
that? Operation: Bring down John." I smiled.
"Yeah I guess, but Kim-"
"Jack, don't worry. She'll be back. Once we get John out of the picture,
she'll be all yours."
"How do you know I want her to be all mine?" I said, feeling my face grow
hot.
"Jack, it's obvious."
"It is?" she laughed.
"Well it is to me." I glared at her. But then my thoughts of Kim flowed back
to me.
"What am I supposed to do? I don't want to just wait around for her, I feel
like I should be doing something." Dawn nodded and looked down.
"Do you try to talk to her? You can't fix this without talking to her." I shook
my head.
"She doesn't want to talk to me. If she did she would have by now." Dawn
layed a hand on my shoulder.
"Then you need to make the first move." I sighed and turned to face her.
"Let's just get this plan over with." She smiled and helped me up.
"So when did you start liking Kim?" I looked at her.
"I'm not telling you that."
"Alright either that or admit that I'm always right." I didn't want to answer
either of her questions. I didn't want her thinking she was my personal
problem solver. So I did the polite thing and walked away.
"Jack?"
I waved my hand.
"Bye Dawn."
"Jack you can't hide it!"
"Sure I can."
"Just admit it." she called after me.
I smiled, turned around and stuck my tongue out at her.
"In your dreams Dawn!"
A/N Hopefully that was long enough. I don't like how this
ended. Tell me what you think though. Anyway, I thinking of
writing another Kickin' It story but I'm stuck between it being
an on-going story or a series of one-shots. Tell what which one
you want in your review!
-JAY.
