2 Weeks Later
Alex Cabot slammed down the phone and cursed, not for the first time, Olivia Benson. The brunette had been avoiding Alex ever since their kiss. She had not returned any of Alex's calls, emails or notes. Grabbing her coat, Alex Cabot took off in the direction of the 16th precinct.
"Elliot, where's Olivia?"
As if on cue Olivia and an older man came walking through the doors, laughing. Alex felt the hairs on the back of her neck stand up as she watched the creepy old guy as her brain had immediately thought of him, wrap himself around Olivia. She watched as Olivia planted a kiss on his lips. She took some satisfaction at the look of surprise and guilt that passed over Olivia's face upon seeing the blonde.
"A-Alex. What are you doing here?"
Running her tongue across her upper lip she glanced between the two. "I need to speak with you." She looked at creepy guy and then back at Olivia. "If that's ok with your 'friend.'" She smiled sweetly at both of them before turning in the direction of the interrogation room.
Olivia found her sitting on the table, legs crossed at the knee and arms crossed. She refused to look at Alex and stood silently for a good three minutes. Alex sighed, got off the table and walked over to Olivia. She tilted the shorter woman's chin up.
"Olivia, I am sorry if I made you uncomfortable the other night. I value your friendship and hope to have you in my life as a friend if nothing else." She waited for Olivia to acknowledge what she'd just said.
"Alex, I'm sorry but I'm just not…that way. I didn't realize you were and I'm sorry if I gave you any mixed signals."
Alex laughed which brought Olivia's head up.
"I'm assuming that by 'that way' you mean gay?" She didn't give Olivia a chance to acknowledge what she'd just said. "First of all Liv it's just a word. A word has no meaning until we as humans give it one. Second, and not that this makes any difference, but I do not consider myself gay." She thought for a minute. "Or straight for that matter." She wanted to say she was just 'Olivia' but thought that might send the already panicked looking woman to the alter with creepy man.
"So….?"
Alex placed her hand on Olivia's forearm. "I'm just Alex Cabot. Blonde, blue eyed, gorgeous and a kick ass attorney." Seeing Olivia's shocked expression, she winked and gave her a smile.
"Seriously Olivia, will you go out to dinner with me tonight as a way to make this up to you?"
"I'd love to!" She suddenly remembered Kurt. "Oh, wait, I have plans with Kurt tonight."
"Oh, ok."
Alex turned to leave when Olivia stopped her. "Wait! I can, I can change my plans." She gave Alex a crooked smile. "I've been spending a lot of time with him recently. He'll understand."
"Pick you up at 7 at your place."
Alex left the station smiling and left behind an inexplicably giddy detective.
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Alex arrived promptly at 7 to pick Olivia up and was delighted when she saw the detective in low riding, tight fitting chinos and a low cut skin tight blouse. She had to avert her eyes to keep from ogling Olivia's cleavage.
As they had dinner at a Mexican restaurant Alex had chosen, Olivia brought up the subject of Alex's sexuality again.
"Alex, um, so…this uh…."
Deciding to let the detective off the hook, Alex stopped her. "You want to know if this is an active part of my lifestyle and if so why I was engaged to Robert, blah, blah, blah?"
"Yeah."
Alex decided to lay all of her cards out on the table and see where it might lead. She was not at all convinced that Olivia was a straight arrow.
"I kissed a few girls during college and law school. However, I knew I had political ambitions and that girl love just wasn't going to play to the masses. And that was ok because by the time I graduated from law school I was in a serious relationship with a guy. We ended up going our separate ways when I started with the D.A.'s office."
She paused while the waiter served them dinner.
"Then I started with SVU and I didn't have time for a social life." She shrugged and took a drink of her margarita. She hesitated before she continued. "And then I started getting to know you and all those old feelings started to bubble up." At Olivia's confused expression she explained, "Feelings for another woman." She shrugged.
"Oh."
"It's ok Liv. I just thought I was getting signals from you but after the other night I get that you are just an incredibly empathic woman and I mistook your care and concern where I've been concerned as something more." She shrugged.
"I'm sorry, but I don't understand. What did I do?"
Alex smiled at her and shook her head. "Don't worry about it Olivia."
Intrigued, Olivia just had to know more about the ADA 's sex life. "So you've never actually…." She was gesturing with her hands.
"Made love to a woman?" Olivia nodded. "Oh heaven's yes. That was the only good thing to come out of witness protection. I got to start over and be whoever I wanted to be. I didn't have to worry about political ramifications, voters or job security."
Olivia was confused. "But you had a 'good man' in Wisconsin !"
Alex gave her an indulgent smile. "My good man was actually a good woman. Wisconsin was my second location. My first was in Portland , Oregon . Hello! Lesbians galore!"
Olivia felt a surge of…something at the thought of Alex in a lesbian Mecca . She laughed nervously. "So I guess you were uh, pretty popular?"
"Not as popular as I could have been, but I knew a woman or two." She shrugged again. " Hammond thought it was a perfect cover as well. As far as Velez and his cartel knew I was the poster child for breeders."
"Breeders?"
"The gay slang for heterosexuals. You know those who wish to propagate the planet with their genes."
Olivia smiled and then became very quiet. "I want a child." When she looked back up at Alex she had tears in her eyes.
"Liv?" The other woman shrugged. "Why are you so upset?"
Olivia proceeded to tell Alex about her disastrous meeting with the adoption agency. She gave Alex a weak smile and said, "I guess you don't want kids, huh?"
"Actually, I do. Robert didn't. He has a son from a previous relationship and made it very clear that he didn't want any more."
"Is that why you broke up with him?"
Alex considered her answer. "No. It was certainly a reason, but deep down I just never felt that connection with him. That feeling I've always thought I should have when I finally find the person I'm supposed to be with." That feeling I have with you.
Olivia looked away and then back. "I know what you mean. I enjoy being with Kurt, but I just don't feel all excited at the thought of being with him. At first I thought maybe I was still trying to put a youthful slant on my relationship with him. And then I thought that I could settle for the stability he offered." She shrugged.
"And now?"
"I…I don't know." She blushed as she admitted, "I only got back together with him after…you…you know."
"Kissed you?" Olivia nodded. "Detective, you are aware that you did in deed kiss me back, right?"
Her blush became more pronounced. "Well…it was your fault!"
Alex decided to let her off the hook and steered the conversation into more neutral waters.
Once again she walked Olivia to her door and gave her a hug and peck on the cheek. She pretended not to notice that Olivia's nipples responded quiet nicely to their close proximity.
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That night Olivia Benson made a decision. Picking up the phone she called Kurt and for the second time in as many weeks she broke up with him. That night she had a very erotic dream featuring Alex Cabot. She woke up with her panties soaked and her heart racing.
Blocks away in a luxury apartment Alex Cabot had satisfied herself to thoughts of Olivia Benson and was now in a dreamless sleep. She had placed on online order for flowers to be delivered to the detective the next day and put her plan to woo the brunette into full swing.