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"How the hell did that happen?" At Olivia's alarmed look she waved off the comment. "I'm aware of biology. I just wasn't aware that you were still sleeping with," she almost said creepy guy but thought better of it, "…Kurt after you broke up with him." And were…doing what with me?

Olivia, who was now sitting on the couch murmured, "I wasn't."

"Then who's the father Olivia because it's been 5 weeks since you broke it off with him." Not that she'd been counting.

Olivia collapsed back against the couch cushions and rubbed her eyes. "I lost track of time during this last case. The other day I realized I was late and on a whim I took the test. Two blue lines."

Alex nodded and schooled her expression to one of neutrality. "So, are you and Kurt getting back together? Is that why he was with you the other night?"

Olivia laughed a bitter, nasty laugh. "Kurt and I won't be doing anything together ever again. I thought he had a right to know so I called him and that's why he was with me the other night, not because I wanted him or was sleeping with him. He said he needed time to think about it." She shook her head. "Not exactly the reaction I was hoping for."

"Oh? What were you hoping would happen?"

"Not what did! He called me and wanted to meet me for coffee today, said he'd come to a decision."

"And?"

"He wants absolutely nothing to do with this child. He's offered whatever monetary help I need, but other than that he wants no contact with the child. He first asked me if I planned on having 'it' and then said he'd write a monthly check, but nothing more."

Alex felt her blood begin to boil. "Did you not discuss your desire to have a child with him during your time together? Doesn't he know this is what you want?"

"Yes and yes. Alex, it's not like I expect him to marry me or even want to be with him. Just never having had a father myself, I thought….well I don't know what I thought."

"I'll go fix some coffee and we can talk."

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"Here. It's decafe."

Olivia scowled and looked at Alex as if she were offended. "Decafe?"

Alex sighed. "You shouldn't drink caffeine while pregnant." At Olivia's raised eyebrow she shrugged her shoulders. "I told you I wanted children. I seriously considered having one while I was in WP. I bought books, did research. I even looked into some sperm banks." She took a good look at Olivia. "Haven't you done any research on pregnancy?"

"No. I never considered getting pregnant. I never wanted to pass on my genes." She gave Alex a sad smile. "That's why I wanted to adopt. An older child who needed a home was just fine by me, but they still turned me down."

"Olivia! You were having sex and obviously NOT using birth control. What the hell did you think would happen?"

"I did use birth control! Well, until the last time." She glared at Alex. "This is all your fault! You kissed me and freaked me out and I ran screaming into his arms trying to deny what you made me feel!" She stood up and turned her back to Alex. "Why did you kiss me Alex?"

Alex squelched the desire to run into her bedroom and hide. Instead she decided to suck it up and be honest. She had promised herself after breaking it off with Robert that she would never lie to herself again.

"Olivia. Olivia look at me." Getting her attention she took Olivia by the shoulders. "I kissed you because no matter how much you want to deny it, there was something between us all those years ago. That night in the bar when I looked at you I felt all the things I was supposed to feel for Robert." She shrugged.

They both went back to the couch and sat down. They sat in silence for a long time and finally Olivia spoke.

"How did you know?"

"How did I know what?"

"That you were attracted to girls?"

"First of all, I am not attracted to girls; women. Second….I had a crush on a girl in my second grade class. It eventually faded and while I fooled around with some women in college, I never took it seriously. The thought of being with a woman, well, it just didn't register fully." She looked at Olivia. "And then I met you and, well…." She shrugged. "After I entered the program I found myself drawn more and more to women. One night I was feeling particularly lonely and went to a lesbian bar." She smiled. "Let's just say it opened up a whole new world for me."

"You found somebody?"

Alex chuckled. "Yes, I found somebody. A couple of somebody's actually. It took a while before I realized what exactly I was looking for. Once I figured out that I crave control…well, I was much happier."

"Control?"

"Liv, I had been ripped away from my home, family, friends…you. All of which was out of my control. Maybe that's the cause of my dominate side or maybe…hell, I don't know and you know what? I don't care. Yes, I've had some very god relationships with men and the sex wasn't half bad either, but once I was with a woman, I just knew that emotionally I was more in tune with the feminine element." She turned and faced Olivia again.

"I've answered your question, now I want you to answer mine. What exactly did I make you feel when I kissed you? Was it so bad, so scary that it sent you out to get knocked up?"

"Yes."

Alex was trying to keep her anger in check. "Because I'm a woman?"

"Yes. No. Sort of."

"Could you please speak in English?"

"I wasn't freaked out at first by the realization that a woman was kissing me. I got freaked out because I've never felt anything like that with just a kiss before. With anybody. Hell, even in a full blown relationship. So it freaked me out first because of what I felt and then because it was a woman…you. I reacted badly and…oh who am I kidding? I wanted you and that really freaked me out. I am attracted to you and it nearly killed me when I thought you were dead. I lied to myself even after I knew you were alive and pretended my feelings for you were friendship only." She looked into blue eyes and felt that familiar little tingle between her legs.

"When I heard you were coming back I was happy. And then you came back but you didn't come back and see us." She shrugged. "So I just pushed my feelings away and finally went on with my life."

"Finally went on with your life?"

Olivia sighed. "Alex, I'm really tired and I need to get home. It's been a hard day."

"You're not going anywhere; you're dead on your feet. You'll stay here tonight and then in the morning we'll figure out what we're going to do about the baby and protecting you against Kurt in the future." She pulled Olivia up and led her down the hallway to her second bedroom. "I'll get you something to sleep in."

Olivia stopped her. "Thank you Alex. I just really needed…."

"You needed a friend Olivia, and if nothing else, that's what I am." She pulled Olivia to her in a hug and then kissed her on the forehead. "You're not alone."

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That night two women under one roof, mere feet apart physically, were miles apart emotionally.

One had new responsibilities as a tiny life was growing inside her and newly acknowledged feelings that she wanted to act on, but which terrified her.

The other was battling a sense of responsibility that was warring against the need for self preservation and an intense love.

By morning, each had made a decision that would effect the other.