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DPOV

I sat there on the ground for what felt like a very long time, staring at the path in the trees that Rose had taken, Where was she going? What was she doing? Was she really an evil, emotionless monster now? I couldnt bare to think of Roza living her days as an evil strigoi... I couldnt imagine MY Roza taking pleasure in killing... it wasnt her... She was a beautiful caring soul, always putting others before her... she put me before her own life when she took on both strigoi that held me... she was protecting us all... she left Alex to help us...

Alexavier...thinking of him helped me pull myself together, just barely, and help Eddie to the hospital to get checked out, and after leaving him with the nurses I walked solemly back to Alexs room. Halfway down the corridor I could hear a child wailing, I didnt even realise it was him untill I rounded the corner and saw a guard outside the door, standing with his hands behind his back and looking in through the window with a slightly annoyed, pained expression on his face.

He looked up as I came around the corner and his expression changed to one of relief. "Thank goodness youre back Guardian Belikov, he's been like this for almost a half hour straight. Adrian looks like hes having a real hard time trying to calm him..." He started to say more before trailing off as he took in the look on my face, I knew I had let my guardian mask slip but I couldnt find the strength in me to try and stop or hide my emotions. I had pushed open the doors and walked straight over to where Adrian sat holding Alex in his arms, bouncing him slightly, he looked just as relieved as the guard was when he handed Alex over to me. The second he was in my arms he quietened his wailing to just a soft whimper.

"looks like he just wanted mum and dad..." Adrian started to say, then as if just noticing I was alone, he looked at my face and drew in a sharp breath, "Where is Rose?" he asked quietly.

I closed my eyes, feeling the tears building up in them again as I fought the pain that ripped through my heart every time I thought about todays events. I shook my head as if it would wipe the memories away, make them not hurt as much...make them that much less true... but it didnt work. I opened my eyes and glanced at Adrian, he was shaking his head slightly, his mouth open and his eyes wide in horror as the possibilities of what could have happened raced through his mind.

"Shes... shes..." I tried to choke out, but speaking just made the pain worse, it was as though if I said it out loud then it would become all the more real... I didnt want it to be real... I wanted so badly to just wake up in bed with my Roza wrapped in my arms. Being able to hold her, and kiss her and just BE with her...very un-guardian like, I dropped to my knees for the second time today as the grief washed over me. I clutched my son to my chest and I could hear Adrian whispering, "no..no..no..no it cant be... it just cant be..." It was too much for me and I couldnt hold them back anymore, I just let the tears fall.

He stood up off the bed, "Dimitri it cant be true. Rose isnt dead. She just cant be. Tell me its not true." He shouted at me.

I just shook my head, looking up at him with tears still falling from my eyes I whispered "Its not... shes not dead...its worse... Adrian shes... shes strigoi..."

He stared at me with wide horror filled eyes for a moment, and then without a word he ran from the room, bursting through the doors and I listened as his footsteps retreated down the corridor.

I sat on the floor holding Alex for who knows how long. I just rocked back and forth whispering in Russian to him, "im so sorry son... its my fault... im so sorry... its all my fault" the tears never stopped falling. At one point a nurse came in, but as soon as she saw me she stopped and quickly murmured, "His discharge papers have been signed, you may take him home whenever you wish." And then she turned and left just as fast.

So he was ready to come home... to start his new life with us... I almost laughed at the irony. almost.
Where was his home now? He had no mother, his father was a sorry excuse for a guardian not even being able to protect the love of his life. If I couldnt protect her then how was I supposed to protect him?
"What am I going to do.." I whispered pulling him up and resting my tear stained cheek against his.

"You're going to get up off that floor, stop feeling sorry for yourself, look after your son like the amazing father I know you are. AND help us find Rose."

I whipped my head around to the door to see Lissa standing in the doorway with a scowl on her face and her hands on her hips. The minute she saw my face she dropped the scowl and her face softened. She ran over and threw her arms around me and Alex.
"Dimitri... im so sorry... I cant believe its happened either...but i cant, and I wont believe that shes gone... I dont know how yet but we have to save her... we have to atleast try to save her." She said quietly. Save her? What was she talking about? did she mean we had to kill her? no... I dont think I could do that, I dont think I could kill the love of my life... but I'd have to... for my Roza, I remember the silent promise we had made on the trip to the mall... we would not let the other live a souless life as stigoi...

She saw the puzzled expression on my face and the tiniest hint of a smile twitched at one corner of her mouth. "Shes not dead... not completely... Dimitri if she was dead, if she was fully strigoi I would feel it. Our bond is still alive, that means somewhere, deep inside, part of her is too. If there is anyway of saving her... of bringing her back, then we have to find it. I wont rest untill we do."

wait... she couldnt mean... Its impossible...once a strigoi is turned, thats it, theyre basically dead, souless blood sucking creatures... theres no way of changing them back, is there?

I forgot how to breathe, if it wasnt for the fact that she still held me im pretty certain I would have fallen on my face on the floor. She believed it was possible to bring Roza back... to turn her back into a dhampir... I was at a loss for words, so I just sat there staring at her.

"Come on, lets get you two home..." she trailed off for a second as a confused look crossed her features. "Would you both like to stay with us? Christian and I can help look after Alex... I know he will be hard work the first little while..." She murmured placing a comforting hand on my shoulder. I just nodded to her, I couldnt take him back to Rozas.. it would be too painful, too much of a reminder of her...

*TWO MONTHS LATER*

"Dimitri! you'll never guess what we've found!" Lissa practically screamed at me as I walked in the door pushing a finally sleeping Alex. I immediately put my finger to my lips and told her to shush. Id learnt that my son definitely had a pair of lungs on him and he wasnt afraid to use it when someone woke him up, he loved his sleep just like his mom had.

"ohh sorry." she smiled sheepishly as she peered into the pushchair Alexavier was fast asleep in. I just shook my head in amusement and took him into the room that both he and I were staying in.

Lissa had done well to transform one of her spare rooms into a half nursery, baby blue wallpaper, white dressing tables, my single bed against one wall and a beautiful wooden cot sitting underneath the large window, photos were lined up on the wall so that Alex could always see those that love him, the biggest photo was one of Roza smiling widely at the camera, holding up a large slice of pizza in one hand and a chocolate donut on the other. It always tore at my heart when I saw it, but I needed Alex to know his mothers face, he needed to know her...

I placed a soft kiss on his forhead, smoothing the tuft of brown hair off his forehead, he was getting so much bigger everyday. Looking more and more like Roza, with his plump olive cheeks and those beautiful brown eyes. His hair was getting darker everyday so that it was looking alot like hers, but when he was in the sun it would lighten so that it looked closer in colour to mine. "I love you my darling son." I whispered in Russian to him before quietly stepping out of the room and making my way to the living room.

Lissa was now sitting on the couch, her legs tucked under her and a laptop sitting on her lap. Christian was in his usual position on the beanbag playing some game on the playstation. I would never understand his love of video games...

"So as I was going to say, Dimitri we found another spirit user!" She clapped her hands together with a huge triumphant smile on her face.
"ok... " I said, I hadnt even realised we were looking for other spirit users, I thought we were looking for Roza, and a way to help her... I must have looked as confused as I felt because she carried on.

"Well her names Oksana, and she has apparently heard of someone who knew someone who knew how to turn strigoi back..." Her eyes were shining with this news. I couldnt help the smile that lit up my face, any thing new was incredible since for the last 2 months we had come up with nothing at all. We didnt have a clue where Roza could be or who would be able to help. So Lissa, Christian, Adrian and I had been using books and the internet to research whatever information we could but everytime we thought we had found a lead on how to change her back it would come to a dead end.

"Wait... what did you say her name was?" I asked.. Oksana... that sounded vaguely familiar...

"Oksana. She lives in Russia with her husband." Lissa said raising one eyebrow at me.

"I think I know them...Mark and Oksana, they live in Baia, my hometown. They have been there since I was a child...if its really the same people Im thinking of" I smiled as I thought back to the times as a child I would see them around town, they knew my family quite well but I didnt have much to do with them.

"What? you knew a spirit user and you never mentioned it?!" Lissa scowled slightly at me, crossing her arms dramatically as she did.

"No, I know the couple, I didnt know that Oksana was a spirit user, come on Lissa, the first I heard of spirit, other than legends, was when you found out its what you specialised in. " I replied defensively. I usually wouldnt speak to her like that, but she had convinced me to just be myself around them when we were at home.

"Well... how would you feel about a trip home?" She asked me with a grin on her pale angelic face. I stared at her for a moment, was she serious? we were going to go to Baia? I havent been there for almost 5 years... I can see my family again... Mama can meet her grandson... I nodded my head at Lissa who was still watching me expectantly.

"Great, Ill book the tickets now." The grin never left her face as she turned back to the laptop.

We sat in silence, I was thinking about home, about my sisters and mama, and babushka... I hadnt even told them I had a son, how would they react? what would they think? Babushka probably already knew, I smiled slightly thinking about my 'crazy' grandmother.

Christian rustled around in his beanbag turning to face me, "Anything new from the guardians about Roses whereabouts?" He asked.

I looked down at my hands, "no, nothing new exactly, they said there had been a report or two of someone similar to her in Texas... but they werent even sure if it was true...why would she go there anyway? It doesnt make sense... they're still going to follow the lead though." I responded automatically, it was exactly what Eddie had told me when I had seen him earlier today.

"Texas?" Christian said, his face scrunching up slightly. "Shes never mentioned anything about Texas... I dont even think she knew it was a real place." He laughed. I had to chuckle in response, geography was never one of Rozas strong points. Remembering Roza from our time back at the academy would always put a smile on my face, remembering her sarcastic attitude, the way she was always so confident and sure of herself. 2 months ago I never would have believed I could smile again, but I had to be strong and to carry on for the sake of Alexavier and everyone else.

"Alright, we leave first thing tomorrow morning." Lissa smiled shutting her laptop, pulling herself up off the couch and stretching her arms up. "Im going to go and inform Adrian, hes coming too, and I was thinking Eddie would want to come along as well?" She looked to me as she spoke, she knew I didnt like Adrian very much, he openly blamed me for what happened to Rose, he said if she hadnt loved me so damn much then she wouldnt have thrown herself into the fight and been so distracted. I had to agree with him, but I wouldnt let him know that or see how much his blame truely affected me. And Eddie was like the protective brother to Rose, he wanted to help with everything in order to get her back. I was greatful for his help and his brotherly affection for her.

I just nodded at her as she walked out of the room with Christian in tow, leaving me alone in the living room with my thoughts.

I was amazed at how strong Lissa was being, how strong she had been since she found out that day... Not once have I seen her cry... Ive heard her sobbing occasionally in her bedroom, but she has never openly cried infront of me. I could only imagine the pain she is in, her best friend in the whole entire world was currently the creature that sought to kill and destroy but she didnt let it affect her in public... I admired Lissas strength, the fact that she believed with everything she was that there would be a way to turn Rose back, and if anyone could do it, I truely believed without a doubt it was Lissa.

A little while later there was a light knock at the door. I pulled myself up and went over to open it.

"Dimka." Tasha smiled, "How are you?"
"Im doing good Tasha, how are you?" I replied politely. Ever since I stopped being her guardian and she had heard about Rose she comes around almost everyday, she says its because she wants to make sure everyone is ok, but Im not sure. I think shes still holding out hope that I will forget about Rose and move on... That would never happen though, My Roza is my one and only, she always will be.

"What can I do for you Tasha?" I asked her, stepping out of the door and inviting her inside.
"I came to see if you needed any help with Alex? Or with anything really." She said turning her gaze on me, concern written all over her features.
"We're fine, hes sleeping at the moment, and Lissa and Christian are a great help to me when he gets to be too much." I replied heading into the living room to sit down.

She followed slowly behind and sat across from me on the sofa.
She stared at me for a minute before reaching foreward and taking one of my hands, "Im always here for you, you know that right Dimka. I want you to be happy and to stop moping around the house. You need to get out and move on with your life..." She spoke with so much certainty.

I couldnt help it, I just got angry. I was always so good with selfcontrol but this... the way she was talking... the way she was always talking nowdays, it just made me loose it. My control snapped.

"No. I will NOT move on Tasha, I will NOT rest untill I have my Roza back. Im sorry if you think I could ever move on, I could NEVER love someone like I love her, I will never love anyone else, EVER! We WILL get her back" I had jumped up off the chair and was practically yelling. I honestly dont know what happened, It was like something literally snapped inside me, I wasnt just mad I was furious, not just at Tasha but at everything. Every single thing that had happened to lead to this moment. Me leaving, Roza being taken... I picked up the first thing I saw, the phone that was sitting on the coffee table and threw it as hard as I could against the wall opposite me, watching as it shattered into hundreds of pieces.

Tasha stood up slowly, a look of terror and shock on her face as she backed slowly away. "Im... im sorry Dimka..." She stuttered out, her bottom lip was trembling and I could see tears building in her eyes.

My anger disappeared as I looked at her scared expression. "Tasha... im sorry... I didnt mean to..." I started to apologise but just then Alex started crying down the hall and I glanced in that direction before looking back to where Tasha had turned and was walking out the front door as fast as she could.

I took a couple of deep breathes to calm myself down, before walking down to check on my son.

I know this is just a sort of filler chapter, I will get to the next one and put in some drama :D

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