Alex closed the book and looked down at Olivia, who was smiling up at her. They had started the nightly ritual of Alex reading to the baby before the weekend they'd consummated their relationship. Olivia would sit in the v of Alex's legs and relax against her while she read to the baby.
After she'd finished reading for the night, Alex would place her hands on top of Olivia's which were on top of her belly, and they'd send 'happy' thoughts to their little boy. Neither was sure this was a valid practice, but it seemed to bring them closer.
Tonight however, Olivia had another type of closeness in mind. It was the first night in over week that she had extra energy and she wanted Alex.
"Sweetie?"
"Yes?"
"I'm not tired at all Alex and it has been 10 days since we were last together." She sifted against Alex's center.
"Well now, let's not waste all this energy!"
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Alex came out of the bathroom and smiled at the sight of her wife sprawled out on their bed. She was naked and the sheets were thrown around her haphazardly. Alex took in her body and felt a new flush of arousal.
Olivia rolled her head to the side and gave Alex a lazy smile. "See something you like?"
Alex walked back over to the bed and climbed in. "Definitely."
Olivia sighed. "I'm still not very tired Alex." She waggled her eye brows. "Can we…would you…use it? Please?"
Confused, Alex gave a slight shake of her head. "Use what?"
Olivia motioned in the direction of the night stand. "It."
Alex smiled at her and reached into the drawer and pulled out the thigh harness. Alex began preparing the harness and Olivia rolled onto her side.
Alex slid in behind Olivia and began fondling her breasts and whispering to her. "You really do love this, don't you?" Olivia nodded against her and wiggled her butt in anticipation. Finding her wife more than a little wet, Alex eased the dildo into her wife and smiled at the contented sigh that escaped her wife.
It wasn't long before Olivia was falling over the edge and Alex was holding her. The blonde went to move and Olivia stopped her by holding her in place.
"Stay."
Alex stopped moving and nuzzled Olivia's neck. "You really like using this, don't you?" Olivia nodded. Alex held her for another minute, trying to sort out how she was going to ask the next question. "What is it about the dildo and harness that you like Olivia?"
"What?"
"Why do you like this way of making love so much?" What Alex really wanted to know was if the dildo was just a substitute for dick, but was unsure of how to ask Olivia without upsetting her.
Olivia considered her answer carefully, unsure of how to express herself. She pulled Alex's arm more tightly around her and sighed.
It's not about dick Alex."
"I never…"
"Yes you did Alex, and that's ok, but that's not why I like using the harness and dildo."
"Ok, then why do you? I don't particularly care Olivia, I'm just curious."
"Alex I clip on my badge and gun every morning and go to work in a male dominated field. I have had to be strong and seemingly made of steel around those same men in order to gain respect. With the exception of you Alex, all of my lovers have wanted that same tough woman in bed. And because I work sex crimes, they all think I want to try out some of the stuff I've seen. And because of that, I've never felt secure enough to just let go. To be me in bed." She took a deep breath and finished. "I like to lose control Alex. I like to know I can give you control and you won't hurt me or humiliate me. Knowing you're driving the car, so to speak, arouses me in a way I've never been aroused before. When you're in me with that, you have complete power and control Alex. You! And that excites me." She turned her head so she could see Alex's eyes. "I trust you."
Alex captured her lips and smiled at her. "Oh Liv! I love you."
Olivia pulled back. "And now I want to taste you! Sit on my face Alex."
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Later that day
"Benson."
"I thought you married a hot, blonde assistant DA?"
"I did, but have you seen the line at the DMV to change your name? Anyway, to what do I owe this call?"
Alex smiled. She loved the banter she and Olivia often engaged in. "You're hot, blonde ADA of a wife just had the Lamaze mat delivered, so we are good to go tonight."
"Are you sure you're still up for this Miss Cabot?"
"As long as they don't show that damn birthing film again! Are you sure you don't want drugs?"
Olivia laughed. "I think I'm still good with doing this the natural way." She looked over at the carnations sitting on her desk. "I got my flowers, thank you very much."
"Just wanted to let you know how loved you are."
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"Stabler."
"Elliot, it's Alex. Can you talk?"
"Yeah, Liv is in the bathroom. Again."
Alex smiled at the vision of her wife waddling to the bathroom. The frequency with which she now had to go to the bathroom seemed to be every five minutes, at least according to Olivia. The good news was that it was taking her longer and longer to finish and get back each time she went.
"How many times today?"
"More than you want to know about. So, what's on your mind?"
"Elliot, do you know a good PI? Or can you pull some strings and get Kurt Moss' phones dumped?"
"Maybe, why?"
"Something Liv said to me last week. It's been bothering me." She looked around the street afraid some passerby might be listening. "Elliot, I think he has some sort of twisted sexual thing going on. If my hunch is right, this might just give us the bargaining chip we need to get him out of Gunnar's life."
"Gunnar? Damn, can't she decide on a name?"
"Hey, yesterday it was Friedrich! Can you imagine? Anyway, can you set something up? I'm on my way inside to get her. We have Lamaze tonight."
Seeing his partner waddling toward him he smiled and affirmed that he'd see what he could do. His smile was short lived as he saw Kurt Moss moving toward Olivia. Swearing, he began moving toward her as well.
"Olivia!" They both called at the same time.
Surprised to hear her name in stereo, Olivia turned to see first Kurt and then Elliot approaching her.
"Kurt?"
"Olivia. Can we talk?"
She sighed and waddled over to a bench in the hall and sat down, knowing this was not going to be a quick conversation. She also noted that Elliot was now hovering and waved him away.
"It's fine Elliot."
Remembering that Alex said she was right outside the building, he went to try and intercept her.
"What do you want Kurt?"
He sat down beside her. "How are you Olivia?" He patted her belly and smiled at her. "I don't even know what you're having."
She removed his hand from her belly. "It's a boy Kurt. Again, what do you want?"
"A son. We're having a son."
"'We' aren't having anything Kurt. Alex and I are having a son. You? You just donated sperm to the cause!"
"Olivia…"
"Back off Moss!" A very angry Alex Cabot was glaring at him with Elliot Stabler bringing up the rear.
"Miss Cabot isn't it?"
"Mrs. Cabot-Benson." She took Olivia's hand and held it up for him to see. "We've been married almost a month."
"It's not legal."
She advanced on him and in a low, deadly calm voice she said, "It is in Canada , Massachusetts , New Jersey and now California . I'll marry her in every state it's legal in and some that it's not if I have to." She pushed her finger into his chest. "Stay the hell away from my wife."
She turned back to Olivia and smiled. "Baby, you ok?" Not waiting for an answer she gave Moss a dirty look and then turned back to Olivia. "Let's go before we're late for Lamaze."
Olivia took her hand and smirked at Kurt as they made their way out of the station. She gave a small smile to Elliot and then joined Alex in the elevator.
Kurt watched them go and then turned back to Elliot. "When did all of this happen?"
"While you were sleeping."
He left a very bewildered Kurt Moss behind.
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LaMaze Class
"Breath in and breathe out."
Alex was supporting Olivia in the V of her legs, running her hands over the burgeoning belly of her wife in a soothing manner. They watched the instructor for more instructions and began the focusing exercises. The class ended with a discussion on how to limit tearing in the mother.
Olivia smiled as Alex looked a little queasy at the description and took her wife's hand. "It'll be ok Alex." The blonde managed a weak nod. "Besides, imagine the fun we can have doing the daily massages to my vulva!"
Alex leaned in and whispered, "Maybe we should massage my vulva too?"
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Alex had insisted on stopping at the store and picking up all the supplies they'd need for their 'homework.' She had told Olivia that as a child she'd been one of those who always did her homework on Friday after school instead of Sunday night. She had no intentions of falling behind as an adult.
After they'd done their homework and then some that night, Olivia asked Alex about the Kurt situation.
"Olivia, he is this baby's biological father and I'm trying to respect your desire for the baby, Harold, which is a really bad name by the way, to at least know who he is." She stopped and considered her next words very carefully. "I just…well he's a prick Olivia. He rejected you and the baby the minute he found out. And then he decided he did want to be a part of all this. And now? Now he's running around hiring attorney's and the what not." She took her wife's hands. "Is it fair to any child to have a wishy-washy parent? Is that what you want for Harry?"
"What I want Alex is for this child to have two parents who love him and want him." She took the blonde's hand. "I have that with you." She considered her words and pressed ahead. "I also want for this baby to know who his father his. Who makes up the other half of his genes? It's important Alex, trust me. Do you know how many times I wondered where my dark skin comes from? If I looked anything at all like my father? What medical issues might be awaiting me?" She swallowed hard. "I would never choose that for my child. I guess what I want is to have my cake and eat it too. I want you and me to raise him and be his parents, but I also want to know that when he asks questions about his origins, I can tell him and maybe even show him one day if he wants."
Alex considered her words and nodded. "Ok then. We'll do whatever it takes to make that happen."
Olivia reached for her. "I want you so badly right now, but sweetie I'm just too tired!"
Alex cuddled up to her. "It's ok baby. I know you're mine."
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Law Office of Casey Novak
"Alex, please, come in."
"Thanks for seeing me Casey." The blonde looked around the office and decided it was decorated in typical Casey style, which meant, no real style at all.
"I assume this about Olivia and Kurt?" Alex nodded. "You know I can't discuss this with you."
Alex pinned her with a look. "Cut the crap Casey. Put aside the fact that you were a mediocre ADA and your pent up lust for Olivia and focus on what's important. And that Casey is this baby." She took out a sheet of paper and handed it to Casey. "I want you to hire this guy and spare no expense. Here's a blank check. Just let me know how much it is." Calming down a bit she leaned back in and looked at Casey. "This is important to me Casey. I'm sorry about what I said. I know you love Serena." She looked down and then back up. "She's never seemed happier. She's my best friend."
Neither woman mentioned the fact that Alex hadn't apologized for the mediocre ADA slam.
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Alex found Olivia sitting in the nursery that night and took a moment to admire her wife. She was fairly large and sitting in the rocking chair they'd bought for the room. She was rocking back and forth and humming.
"You look beautiful."
"Hey. I didn't hear you come in." She motioned for the blonde to join her.
Alex sat before her on her knees. "How are you feeling today?"
"Tired." She played with Alex's hair. "I swung by the doctor's office this afternoon. She wants to see me for a full check-up in the morning. Can you come?"
"Yes. Is something wrong?"
"Nope. I'm just so tired these days Alex. I never thought I'd say this, but I'm ready for maternity leave!"
Alex raised an eyebrow. "Really?" The brunette nodded. "Wait. Listen? Is that the end of the world as we know it I hear?"
"Ha ha. If you were ever this pregnant you wouldn't be joking!" She cocked her head and studied Alex.
"What?"
"Do you want to have a baby?"
Alex carefully responded, "I think I want to see how I do with this one before jumping into being pregnant." She rubbed Olivia's 'Buddha belly' as she'd come to think of it. "Would that bother you? If I were?"
Olivia shook her head. "No. In fact, I think you'd look incredibly sexy with a belly as big as mine."
"Come on Mama, let's get you in bed."
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The Next Day
Alex had dropped Olivia off at home as the doctor had ordered her to take maternity leave effective immediately. Surprisingly the brunette hadn't uttered a word in protest and Alex was mildly concerned about that.
She made her way to the station, intent on finding Elliot and hoping he or the PI had found something, anything to give them some leverage against Kurt Moss. Just as she was pulling into the garage her phone rang.
"Cabot."
"It's Elliot. I think we may have something, Where are you?"
"In the garage. I'll be right up."
Elliot and the PI he'd recommended for the job were waiting for her as she exited the elevator. They pulled her into an interrogation room.
"What?"
The PI shoved a sheaf of papers at Alex and pointed to several highlighted areas. As she read he took out a folder and produced several black and white photos which he also shoved at her.
"Oh my God." She examined the photo more closely. "Is she Asian? She can't be any older than 15 or 16."