Alex let herself into the apartment and took a moment to compose herself. She relaxed back against the door and let out a deep breath.

"Alex? Is that you?"

She smiled at the sound of her lover's voice. Pushing away from the door she worked her way through the darkened apartment and found Olivia in the nursery.

"Baby?"

Olivia smiled at her and returned to putting away the freshly washed baby clothes. "I think I am now officially nesting." She grinned at Alex, causing the blonde to drop everything and pull her into a heated kiss. When they broke apart, Olivia grinned at her. "What was that for?"

"I love you."

Olivia took a closer look at Alex and softly smiled at her. "Alex, I love you too."

The blonde took her by the hand. "Baby, I need to tell you something and I hope you aren't going to be mad." She tugged at her, and led her not into the bedroom, but the living room.

"Alex?"

Alex took her lover's hands and kissed her knuckles. "I saw Kurt tonight."

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Alex rolled over and realized she was in bed alone. Sitting up she listened to see if Olivia was in the bathroom. Not hearing anything and becoming concerned she rolled out of bed and walked down the hall stopping at the nursery, hoping she was in the midst of some mad nesting. She wasn't and Alex continued on down the hall to the living room and found Olivia sitting on the couch with the TV on, but the sound muted.

"Liv?"

Without looking at her wife she mumbled, "Yes?"

Alex walked over to the couch and sat down beside her. "Baby? Baby, I'm sorry. I was only doing what I thought was right, best for you and the baby." And me she thought.

"I know."

"But you're angry."

"What?" Olivia looked at her and frowned. "No, I'm not angry about Kurt. It just is what it is. He's really not a bad guy and unlike my own father, he's not a rapist. So…" She shrugged.

"So what's got you up, sitting on our couch in the middle of the night, watching an infomercial?"

She worried with the sleeve of her robe before looking at Alex.

"Do you believe I love you? Really believe?" Alex hesitated and Olivia saw it. "Alex?"

"You love me." Alex was nodding, more to convince herself than Olivia. "I know you do."

Olivia grabbed her hand. "Yes, I love you! I think I've loved you for years; I just didn't realize what the feeling was. I knew, I knew long before you went away that I had very special feelings for you, I just never associated them with love!"

Alex tried to pull away, hoping that what was happening wasn't happening, but trying to keep her bearings. Her fight or flight mechanism had kicked in and she wanted to run like Forrest Gump. However, she forced herself to stay grounded.

"Then how can you associate them with love now?"

Olivia sighed. "Alex…this is going to sound like a bad romance novel, but I never knew love until you. Everybody else was just a dress rehearsal before you." She looked away. "And I lied." She gave Alex a weak, half smile. "I used to have dreams about you sometimes. Before Velez. And after you left I had dreams; bad, good and…erotic." She blushed slightly at the memory of her dreams. "That night you first kissed me…I knew Alex, I finally knew what that feeling I had every time I was around you was; love." She took Alex's hand and placed it over her heart. "I. LOVE. YOU."

Alex pulled Olivia to her and kissed her hard. "Thank you for telling me." She looked ashamed. "I…I've had some…not doubts really, but…I just…I'm just afraid sometimes that I sprang all of this on you and that we're moving so quickly and you'll wake up one day and you'll realize that you don't want me or this or…." She was babbling and while Olivia thought it was cute, she also knew she had to calm her lover down.

She grabbed Alex and pulled her to her and kissed her long and hard. When they finally needed air, Alex was the first to pull back. They smiled at each other.

"Baby…I need you, if possible. Can you?"

Olivia grinned. "You'll have to do all the work. I'm about as mobile as a beached whale." She knew Alex needed this, needed affirmation of her love for her and needed physical, tangible proof of her love.

Alex slid off the couch and settled between Olivia's legs after helping her wife shed her robe and sleep wear.

Alex took her time, running her hands over Olivia's belly and stroking her inner thighs, all the while holding Olivia's gaze. She leaned up and in and flicked her tongue over the brunette's nipple, drawing a moan from her. She took the nipple fully into her mouth and gave a gentle suck. She pulled back abruptly and looked at Olivia.

"What?"

She smiled. "You're milk's come in." She nodded at her nipple. Swiping her thumb across the peak, she showed the drop of milk to her wife and sucked her thumb clean. "It won't be long Liv." She smiled at her wife and placed her hand in the center of her belly. She leaned in and kissed her wife again and then again, far less chastely.

They made love with Olivia doing what she could for Alex, which wasn't much, but Alex didn't care; Olivia had put her fears to rest.

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"Jim, I don't care! You are not taking this to trial." The blonde and her infuriating protégé stood staring at each other until he was the first to blink. Satisfied she'd won, she waved him out of her office. Her smile got even bigger as she saw Olivia approaching her with a large brown bag.

"Baby!"
Olivia kissed her on the cheek and waggled the bag at her. "I brought you some lunch."

Alex ushered her in and shut the door behind her before kissing her. She eagerly peered into the bag Olivia was holding and squealed when she realized it was her favorite deli sandwich from Nate & Al's Deli.

"Baby! What made you do this?"

Olivia held up a manila envelope and handed it to Alex. She watched as the blonde opened it and read over the documents it contained. Alex held her arms open and Olivia stepped into them. They hugged and whispered to each other.

"When?"

"He sent them by messenger this morning." She lowered herself into a chair and motioned for Alex to eat. She wanted to laugh at the way Alex was moaning with every bite she took. When she'd finished her pickle, she smiled at Olivia and wiped her mouth.

"Good?"

"The best. What made you think of bringing me food?"

Olivia shrugged. "You've taken such good care of me during my pregnancy and I wanted to pamper you for a change."

"Well I'm glad you did." She took a swig of her soda. "So, what's on your agenda for the rest of the day?"

Olivia held Alex's gaze as she leaned in. "Well…I thought we could have a baby."

Alex laughed. "We are having a baby!"

"No Alex, I meant right now."

Alex felt her heart skip a beat. "Right now?"

Olivia nodded. "I started having contractions last night, but wasn't sure if they were the real thing or not. They started getting stronger after I sgned the papers and just before I left to get your lunch, my water broke."

"Your water broke?!"

"Calm down sweetie. My contractions are still at about 15 minutes. We have quite q ways to go."

Alex looked at her watch and did a quick calculation. "Baby, you've been here at least 25 minutes!"

Olivia nodded. "Yep. They aren't that strong, but you were lost in your corn beef bliss when it hit. And I do have a high tolerance for pain."

Alex stood up and started clearing her desk, calling for her secretary and generally panicking.

"We have to go!" She took Olivia's hand and helped her up. "Can you walk? Do we need an ambulance?"

Olivia giggled. "Yes and no."

"What about your bag? Our focus item? And…and…and…what else?" She looked adorably helpless to Olivia.

"In the car."

"You drove?" Alex swore. "Jesus Liv! You could have wrecked!"

Olivia gripped her hand harder and swore. "Alex, could we finish this at the hospital because I just had another contraction which means they are getting closer and it really hurt."

8 Hours Later

Alex was holding Olivia's hand, talking her through a contraction. They were coming fairly quickly now and Alex was trying to stay calm for her wife, but she couldn't help but think that the brunette was the toughest woman she knew.

"Focus baby." She did the breathing exercises with her and winced as Olivia squeezed her hand harder. "That's it. Breathe." She was relieved when the hand holding hers began to loosen. She smoothed the sweat soaked hair from her lover's forehead and kissed her temple. "You're doing great baby."

"It hurts Alex. I don't know if I can keep doing this."

Alex again kissed her forehead and gave her wife's hand a squeeze. "Yes you can baby. You can do this. You can bring our baby into the world."

Olivia was looking at Alex with a sense of desperation, and seeking confirmation of her ability to deliver their child Alex saw her fear and anxiety and kissed her on the mouth. She nodded at her wife and whispered, "Yes, you can." Olivia began to nod as well and prepared for the next contraction.

With a guttural scream, she bared down as hard as she could and gave one last push, forcing their son out into the world. She collapsed back against the pillows and managed to look up at Alex who had tears in her eyes.

"He's here Liv! He's here!"

Olivia was exhausted but wanted to see her son. "Is he ok? Is everything alright?" She noticed Alex was staring and she was beginning to get alarmed. "Alex? What's wrong?"

The blonde looked down at her. "Nothing. He's…he's beautiful." She tore her attention from Olivia at the sound of the doctor asking her if she wanted to cut the cord. Without hesitating she took the scissors and cut where they told her. She then watched as they took him off to get cleaned up and to do his APGAR.

"What does he look like?"

"It looks like he has dark hair; lots of it."

The doctor was telling Alex to go check on the baby while Olivia delivered the placenta. She was reluctant to leave her wife's side but Olivia nodded at her and she ventured over to where the newest member of the family was currently being poked and prodded.

"Is he ok?"

The nurse smiled at Alex and placed her hand on his tiny belly. "His APGAR is a 9 out of 10, which is normal. We're just about done cleaning him up, so you can take him over to meet mom in just a minute."

Alex glanced back in time to see something come sliding out of her wife. She suddenly felt queasy, but held it together for fear of tossing her cookies in the delivery room. Soon the nurse was handing her a tiny bundle of a baby boy who was wearing a newborn cap and blue blanket. She took a minute to look him over before slowly making her way over to Olivia.

She was now sitting up, somewhat, and held her arms out for her son. Alex placed him in her arms and leaned down and kissed her wife. They both looked down into his tiny face and quickly fell in love.

"Hey there. I'm your mommy." Olivia looked at Alex. "And this is your other mommy. Welcome to the world baby."

1 Hour later

Olivia was nursing the baby while Alex was out in the waiting room letting Elliot, Munch and Fin know what was going on. Cragen had been called away, so Elliot was going to call him and let him know everything was fine. She had also gone to call Simon and let him know he was an uncle.

Since visiting hours were over and the baby was going to be staying in the room with Olivia and Alex, the guys left with promises to come back the next morning.

Alex stood in the doorway and watched Olivia nurse the baby and then she watched as her wife began talking to their son.

"You are going to be the luckiest little baby in the world. You have not one, but two mommies who love you beyond belief and who love each other very much. Yes you do."

Alex stepped into the room and sat on the edge of the bed. "Yes, but does he have a name?"

Olivia nodded. "Yes he does."

"Well?" Alex tried to remember the last name Olivia had been 'trying out.' Remembering, she grimaced. "Liv, you can't name him Linus."

Olivia laughed. "Don't worry, I'm not." She studied him again. "Alex, I want him to have all the things I didn't growing up; not monetarily, but history. He will never have to wonder who his parents are and I want him to be the start of our family history." She looked up at Alex. "His name is Simon Alexander Benson-Cabot. And we're going to call him Xander." She looked to Alex to see her reaction.

"Xander." Alex smiled at her. "It fits. But what about…Kurt?"

Olivia nodded. "We should call him and let him know. He's welcome to come visit; before we get home."

"I'll call him, but he's not welcome here until tomorrow. You've had an exhausting day and this little guy got pushed from the safety of your belly into the cold cruel world."

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The Next Morning

The squad was eagerly waiting outside Olivia's room the next morning and practically ran over Alex when she finally told them they could go in and visit her family. She watched from the door as each one of the guys took turns holding Xander and taking photos. They'd all brought gifts for the baby and flowers for Olivia. Elliot caught Alex's eye and they stepped outside the room.

"Creepy man shown his face yet?"

"He's coming after lunch."

"You ok with that?"

Alex considered his question. "Yes, I am. I can't change biology Elliot. And whether or not he knows it, Kurt Moss has given both of us the most precious gift; family. Because of him, we are a family and nothing is ever going to change that."

3 Hours later

Kurt Moss entered the room and found Olivia asleep and Alex nowhere to be found. He walked over to the crib and looked down at his son. He was surprised to find brown eyes staring back at him.

"Well hello." He fingered the baby's wristband. "Simon Alexander."

"We're calling him Xander."

He turned to see Olivia watching him.

"I'm sorry if I woke you."

"It's ok. What do you think?"

Kurt looked back at Xander. "I think he's probably the most beautiful thing I've ever seen." He suddenly found his feet very interesting. "Olivia, I'm sorry. I screwed up, didn't I?"

"Yeah Kurt you did. In a way."

"Huh?"

"You screwed up by not wanting anything to do with him Kurt, but you never really had me. I think I've always been in love with Alex, I just never realized it."

"She loves you. Not many women would do what she did you know?" Olivia nodded. He took a deep breath. "I think…I think she'll do a wonderful job raising my son." He nodded at her and handed her a package. "These are copies of photos of me through my childhood, a savings bond, and this year's child support check. Now that I know his name, I'll open up an account for him. If that's ok?"

"If you're sure." He nodded. She looked in the package. "Thank you for this."

He crossed the room and kissed her on the cheek. "I love you."

"I know."

He nodded at her and said good bye before turning and running right into Alex. He hurried by her.

Alex checked on Xander and then settled on the bed with her wife.

"You ok?"

"Perfect."