Keep in mind all of these songs. With or without you by U2, Come away with me by Norah Jones, By your side by Sade, She will be lived by Maroon five, Kiss me by none the richer, Everywhere I go by Amy grant, Arms by Christiana Perry, and lastly Wicked games by Chris issak. PLEASE SEARCH THEM AND LISTEN TO THEM! It would make the story way better. As for Anastasia I always pictured model Miranda kerr, But now I'm more fond of Adriana lima she is really more beautiful. Check out her spain vouge cover. What do you guys think? Christian is always Ian somerhalder in my mind. The other people are not him. You guys are picking gay guys, blonde haired guys, guys with weird voice. Ian acts like christian watch TVD on Thursdays. As for rosalie search up "Helena Christianson in wicked games." She is beautiful, however now she is really old. Search it up tell me what you guys think. Agree or not?
EARLYER THAT DAY CHRISTIAN GOES HOME AFTER ANA AND ROSALIE HAVE MET-
Anastasia it never fails for her to leave me with a raging hard on. I can't believe she is gone. For good. She must know I'm going to do everything in my fucking mind to find her, no matter what. I can't lose her not again, not when I have a chance to get her back this time.
As I enter Escala I see my wife cooking in the kitchen. Fuck, why do I keep forgetting about her? Ever since Anastasia came back, it's like I completely forgot about the fact that I am now married. What am I goanna do about them? I put my briefcase down and hold my wife from the back and just inhale her scent.
She smells of strawberries and cream. Her smell is intoxicating; it consoles me after a long day. She holds my arms and smoothly turns herself around as she grabs hold of my shirt, pulling me down to her and kisses me softly. I can taste the whine on her tongue as she eases it in to my mouth. As I start to suck it she makes a purr like sound that tightens my groin for the second time today. She pulls and burys her face in my chest inhaling.
"I love you so much Christian." I inhale deeply and kiss the top of her head.
"I love you too Ana." I can feel her tense up and my eyes shot open.
Did I just fucking call her Ana? Am I fucking insane? Her face jolts up and she pushes me away. I can see the water pooling in her eyes, fogging her vision. All I can do is stare wide eyed, as she holds on the counter behind her for support and holds her chest. She closes her eyes and tears falls down. While her eyes are still close she breathes deeply and her grip on the counter tightens.
"Did you just call me Ana?" Her eyes now flutter open. I can see how she wishes she was just hearing things. I can't oblige thought. I'm stock still, and blinking trying to find a way to assure her she was hearing it, but I can't.
She nods her head slowly and looks to her feat as she passes her hand to smooth the flyaways. I can see her breathing start to turn erratic as she looks up and rushes past me straight to the door.
"Rosalie!" I yell and start to panic. What the fuck did you do Grey? As if one woman isn't enough to lose tonight I just had to mess up another fucking relationship. Today has not been my day, let alone week. I quickly grab my keys and head down to the garage. Surly I'm goanna have to go crazy looking for her. Why do woman always find the need to run away and leave the men worrying senseless?
As the floor reaches the garage I see that none of my cars are missing and I there is no sign of Rosalie. Great so now she is on foot and ten a clock at night, and she has no coat? Is she trying to kill me, why do I always pick the girls who could give to fucks about their safety?
I get into the SUV and ease of the garage. I head down the street but see no sign of her. I've been close behind her how the fuck did she get farther than a block away? I squint my eyes as I try and search for her. As I turn the corner I can see her walking by the street lights. She is literally fucking speed walking, god dammit she is fast.
I head towards her and am now going at the speed of 2 miles per hour. I lower down the window and see that she is staring straight ahead ignoring me.
"Baby please talks to me." I shift my gaze to her and in front of me. This is a fucking deserted one way street, ending with a dead end. She really doesn't care about her safety.
"You know I will follow you all night if I have to."
"Well then I hope you go flying into the dead end gate, and hopefully there is a cliff." I chuckle, and roll my head back. My woman and there smart mouths.
"Rosalie if it takes going off the cliff for you to talk to me, I will do it." A strong breeze goes by and I see her shiver.
"Oh he remembers my name now? What a shock?" Dam I really fucked up. Its goanna take a lot to fix this mess. Why Grey do you screw up everything in your life.
"Babe I didn't mean it. I just… I saw Ana today." This grabs her attention and she averts her focus to me.
"Well that makes two of us. Did you know she came to see me too, but did I say I love you Ana? No. I see people every day of my life, but I never mistaken there name for you ever." Her eyes are wide and filled with hurt. She is hugging herself and trying to rub the goose bumps that are appearing over her skin.
"It's freezing out here; please can you just get in, and let's go home?" She shakes her head and continues to walk.
Exasperated I turn on the radio and here the song, "Everywhere I go, by Amy Grant," Come on. I turn it up louder and see her eyes grow wider and she comes to a stop. She is still facing in front of her but I can see tears rolling down her face.
"Remember this? Our wedding song," Inspiration comes to me as I get out of the car and sing to her, "I was wasting time. Oh so sure to find somebody who'd never go, how could I know. None I'd found was true, none could be but you the only, one love divine, my heart my mind are yours. Everywhere I go, I see your face through the crowd. Everywhere I go, I hear your voice clear and loud. Everywhere I go, you are the light that I see. Everywhere I go you have found me."
I stop at a halt in front of her as she stares ahead of her. She shakes her head and turns to me as more tears flood down her face.
"No. No Christian, don't do that. Don't try to guilt me, because what you did was wrong. You know how hard it has been for me to know that a woman that you have never stopped loving is back in your life? To know that I only got you by default, and now that she is back you can easily go back to her? It's killing me knowing that I'm not good enough, I was only a rebound, I fell in love with you and I can't find the heart to let you go."
Shit. I don't know what to say. Every day is harder to choose, I try doing the right thing but I can't get Anastasia out of my mind. She is alluring, her touch is lethal, it's fucking mission impossible to forget her. But I don't know what to do about Rosalie, my wife. I owe both of them everything and this situation is fucking hard.
I take her in my hold and hold her tight. But she pushes me off quickly and jumps back.
"No, don't touch me," She starts to wipe away the tears and shakes her head, "No tell me what happened with you and Ana Christian, tell me I have nothing to worry about if you want me to get in that car, and forget everything that happened."
SHIT! Why is my life so fucking complicated? What am I supposed to do? I can't lie to her; it will just hurt her more.
"She… I… I can't tell you that Rosalie."
She hugs herself once more and turns to look to the side of her.
"I'm going to a motel for the night, don't bother calling me Christian." She's not even looking at me, dam I fucked up.
She glances at me once and steps away. I watch her baffled until she pulls out a phone and calls someone. After a couple of minutes I see a cab approach and she steps in.
My feet are still planted and it takes me a while to recover from what just happened. Ana's gone, Rosalie just left to, and it's just me. I know for fucking sure I'm not heading home right now I need a drink, and a maybe some more to forget all this shit.
THE PRESENT ANA"S POV-
As Christian starts to approach me I start to panic. Fuck me! I have to think on my feet, like quickly. Umm, I can say he's my cousin or a friend. Yea that will work. REALLY A FUCKING FRIEND OR COUSIN THAT YOU WERE KISSING AND GRINDING ON. WHAT KIND OF REALTIONSHIPS DO YOU HAVE?
Fuck she is right. Come Ana he is coming towards you and he looks just about ready to kill everyone.
"Umm listen I really have to go, I'll call you thought." I smile quickly and touch his shoulder before dashing off. Shit shit what do I do? Really I'll call you? I don't even have the guys number, let alone his name. My luck with men is not so good lately. Hopefully Christian will follow me, and I can do one good thing and save that man an ass whooping.
I leave the loud noise and can see a hall and an exit sign. After what just happened, I definitely do not want to stay here, maybe I should just head home now. I got drunk, but it didn't make me forget anything now. Now I'm just sobered up and running out of the club into the pouring rain.
Seeing Christian again was too much. All of events from today was put all behind me and buried until I saw him again. My tears start coming down mixing with the loud rain and I just start to walk. I have no destination, and I can't go to get my keys or coat because I left them in the club.
The night is clear except for the heavy rain. There are a minimum amount of street lights on and no one is out here. There are just long trees on either side of the road, and darkness filling between them.
"ANASTASIA!" Who the hell is calling me? I turn to see Christian running towards me his cloths soaked, and his hair stuck to his face. Fuck he is getting close. I turn and start to walk forward pushing my hair out of my face.
"ANASTASIA WAIT!" I can hear him closer I know soon he will just keep following me, so I stop and turn.
"Christian, what do you want. I told you I'm leaving!" We are both yelling over the loud rain. Both soaked with rain falling over our faces.
"NO! Don't go Ana; I don't want to lose you." He is known in front of me, looking so hot and breathing hard.
"Christian we went over this. You have a wife, she is better for you."
"Don't give me that bullshit! Why can't you just accept that we belong together? I love you Ana, I need you." Because of the rain he can't see my tears streaming down my face. I can't take this.
I turn and continue to walk my mouth set in a grim line. I notice he is still standing where he was before, but I can't be around him, it's killing me.
"Why are you fighting it? Because it's the right thing to do? Well guess what Ana it's not. We are supposed to be together and we are just hurting not only ourselves but the people around us because we can't hide our love Ana and we shouldn't fucking have to."
I stop and leave my back facing him.
"Christian you have a wife. I can't put her through that pain."
"PAIN? You won't put her through the pain, but you're going to just gladly endure it yourself? What about me Ana? It's eating me alive knowing that your alive and that you're not mine. Every fucking day for the last three years was hell for me. I couldn't eat, sleep, and think. I couldn't function; I would rather die without you. That's what you do to me Ana, you make me go crazy. But ever since you were back all the pain and suffering is gone, I don't need to go through that any more when I can have you again. Don't you get in Ana, you're the cure. You're the death of me. Your absence is like a cancer, venom, going through my body making me weak, and you're the one person who could make that all disappear."
My heart is yearning for him even more now. His voice is making me crumble. I whip my body around and face him. We are now about two feet apart.
"Why? Why do you still love me? Why couldn't you just forget me?"
He looks at me like I'm stupid, like if the answer is obvious.
"Why? Anastasia how could I not love you? You're unforgettable. Your giggle, your touch your smell. Your ability to love, and care for everyone. The way your brow arches when you challenge me. The way you looked past all my shit, and made me feel normal. You made me feel worthy of love, you didn't care about my money you treated me like any one else, and changed me. What about the fact that I've only ever gave these embarrassing speeches to you, I've only done these spontaneous things for you, to make you realize how much I love you. To make you look pass your insecurities. Or that I've had so many first with you, I've done the stupidest things ever just to hear you laugh, and to see you smile. I know I love you because of the fact that you are only about two feet away and I already miss you, I just want you in my arms. Or the fact that we are going to get Phenomena standing out in this rain, but if you need to know why I love you I'll do it every dam day for the rest of my life."
My heart is breaking with every word, and step he takes as he walks right in front of me. I've missed him so much, my soul mate. I love him more than life itself, when we are apart it's like a disease. I need to be with him.
"You did well enough." I smirk and jump on him as we divulge in to a kiss filled with longing, and need. We put all of our sorrows and hurt in to this kiss.
My legs are around him my back is arched as his arms wrap around me. My hands are on his neck, with the tips of my fingers sprawled in his hair. I kiss him with all my might, as we console each other. We break the kiss and look up as we hear thunder. As we look back at each other, I can feel the love radiating off of him and me as well, creating are bubble that has been alien to us for a while now.
"Can you feel it?" I say regarding the tingly sensation that is there once again stronger than ever, bringing my body alive.
"Yes baby, I've always and only felt it around you." I smile and lay my lips on his forehead.
"I'm still only yours Christian; I want you to know that." I can hear his shock breath and he looks up and stares into my eyes.
"You mean….. You haven't.. Since… It's been three years?"
I nod my head and stare in his eyes.
"I have been taken hostage, and they wouldn't let their men touch me. I've been back for only a week and the only man I want to have sex with has a wife."
As I say her name I feel even more guilty, she won't just go away and fade into thin air, we need to talk about her.
"But that guy today, you were goanna have sex with him weren't you?" He looks hurt as he says each word.
"Yes I was."
He closes his eyes and I can see he is trying to process information.
"Ana, I…. Me and Rosalie…. We've had sex."
I knew they were intimate but to hear him say it hurts even more. I lay my finger on his lip to silence him.
"Christian you thought I was dead. I didn't expect you to become celibate. You have needs, I rather that than you being dead. I forgive you its okay. None of this was our fault."
He places his head between my cleavage and inhales deeply. I can feel his body shudder and can tell he is crying.
"You don't know how it feels to see you, touch you. My life has no meaning without you Ana; I wish we weren't deprived of all that time. Please let me take you home, let us make up for lost time Ana."
I place my lips on his hair kissing the top of his head while my hands are still around his neck. We are still in the middle of the road, being rained on, while he has me around his waist.
"Yes. I want you to make love to me Christian."
After a long session of making love me and Christian lie naked on his bed his face buried in my neck.
"I never want us to be apart again Ana. I need you; I need you to be with me forever."
I continue to rub circles around his back, as he kisses my neck, and inhales my sent.
"Never again. I'll never leave you baby, unless of course I get abducted again."
I giggle lightly, as he lifts his face from my neck and stares in my eyes.
"I've missed that sound so much. It's like music to my ears."
He kisses me and whispers in my ear.
"But don't make jokes like that Ana. I'll do everything in my fucking power to make sure nothing ever happens like that Ana, it will kill me."
"Nothing will happen. I'm your forever; this is where I want to be Christian. Here with you forever."
As he places kisses around my neck, and in my ear he starts to talk.
"And this is where you belong. With me, forever and always Ana. But there is just one thing stopping us."
He stares into my eyes once more, and he flips me on top of him. I start to run my finger through his chest hair, and kissing his scars.
"Yea and what is that Mr. Grey?"
I can see his smile light up and the sound of me saying his name like that. I can see how much he missed me; I've never felt more loved.
"Marry me?"