Sorry about the lack of writing. I've been lazy, and i hope to get one in by tommorow. Thanks for the support, until next time...
"What? Marry you?"
As the words escaped her words she saw everything in a new light. She was in there bed, in their house, sleeping with a woman's husband. I'm a home wrecker, and now he wants to marry me, when he is married himself?
I wrapped the sheet around myself and sat up. I pivoted my body to face him as I contemplated everything in my mind.
"Christian marry you? You are married with someone already. Oh my gosh what are we doing. Christian what about Rosalie? Where is she anyway? Oh my god I can't believe we just did that and in her home, in you guys bed."
I can't believe I just did that. I'm a hypocrite. I talk all this shit about how it's wrong for men to do cheat, and I just did it myself. I start to place my bra and shirt on followed by my jeans.
"Anastasia what are you talking about? I love you I can't lose you not again. This was never really our home; it belonged to you and me. Baby don't do this."
I glance at Christian and shake my head. God I'm a Whore. I place each of my shoes on, and glance at the clock. 3:30. Great I guess it's back to the club, to drink. He needs to fix his situation with Rosalie first like are real man, because she deserves an explanation.
"Christian before anything can actually happen you need to go and talk to her. Because I highly doubt that you were shunning here before this. My guess is you two were still kissing and sleeping in the same bed. She doesn't deserve this, so you need to sort things out with her."
"Oh and where the fuck are you goanna go Ana? Don't you fucking get that if you never died I would of eventually married you anyway? So it doesn't make a difference if I talk to her anyway. Why did you even sleep with me if you are just goanna run off again?"
"Christian I was acting on impulse. I don't regret what happened today but there's still the big elephant In the room that needs to be dealt with. You have to get a divorce In order for us to attempt to be married."
"I get that Ana okay I do, but why the fuck are you leaving? It's three in the fucking morning where are you going?"
"I don't know Christian. I can't stay here this is where she sleeps, I feel dirty. I thought I'd go get a drink and clear my head."
"A drink you mean where you almost fucked that man, what will stop you from doing that again? I don't feel comfortable with that. You're not going Ana."
"Really that's a low blow. I thought things were over between us okay. It's not like you were didn't have no sexual contact at all when I came back. And after what happened with us that is what will stop me from sleeping with another guy Christian. How the fuck can you think like that. How about I go and you call up you wife and talk to her because you guys have a lot to talk about especially if you need to sort things out."
"Fine just fucking go then It's not like your goanna listen to me anyway. I don't understand your infatuation with disobeying me especially when you fucking now about my need for control. You're so fucking frustrating!"
"Fine I will go then."
"Fine Ana."
I place my jacket on and walk out the door making sure to slam loudly. Why is everything an argument? We just made love it was wonderful but I can't feel good about it knowing a woman who did nothing wrong at all gets hurt.
I head outside and can see it is still raining. I call a cab and let the little drops fall on me. I need to refresh myself, and the rain is helping me feel calm and carefree. I'm young dammit why do I need to deal with such shit?
The cab pulls up and I enter. The song "Breathe me by Sia," Is playing lowly in the cab.
"Can you put it louder please?" The lady looks at me a smiles before turning it up. I can see she can tell I've been having a shitty day.
Help I have done it again. I have been here many times before. Hurt myself again today. And the worst part is there's no one else to blame. Be my friend, hold me, wrap me up. Unfold me. I am small. I'm needy, warm me up, and breathe me.
I let the lyrics sink in my brain and let the tears flow. I've done it again ruined us, but I cant help the fact that I feel bad for Rosalie no matter the strong desire I have to be with Christian.
Ouch I have lost myself again. Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found. Yeah I think I might break, lost myself again and I feel unsafe. Be my friend hold me, wrap me up, unfold me, I am small. I'm needy warm me up, and breathe me.
I can feel a strong connection with the song as it plays. Over the last three years I have lost myself. I'm a different person, I'm hurting. I need Christian to fix this for me; I need his touch, but so does Rosalie. It hurts me to just pass my pain on to her. Christian is easy to love so I can only imagine much she loves him. I can imagine how hurt she will be to know that this is how she gets repaid for helping and loving him. And I'm the cause of it.
I quickly get out of the car and enter the club and am immediately hit with the loud lyrics blasting in my ear.
I go straight to the bar and take three shouts of whiskey. There now I feel somewhat better. I head to the dance floor feeling high on the whiskey. I feel light and loopy as I close my eyes and roll my head back dancing to the music. As I open my eyes I can see a man dancing towards me. White button down shirt, first three buttons open. Dark jeans, dark ruffled hair, crystal blue eyes.
His look is darkening and determined, as he comes and starts to dance with me. We start dancing as the music fills us making us live in the moment.
I feel so close to you right now it's like a force field.
I wear my heart upon my sleeve like a big deal.
I continue to close my eyes and dance. I feel the whiskey start to kick in and it feels so good. I open my eyes and start to smile at how drunk I am. The man is just watching me and he takes my hands in his and pulls my arms to wrap around his head, while he runs his hands down my face with his lips slightly parted. I just keep smiling and dancing loosely.
Your love bows down on me surrounds me like a waterfall.
And there's no stopping us right now, I feel so close to you right now. (Beat)
We continue to sway as his hands roam down my body and I just smile, and let my body go. It feels good to have a normal day and act my own age. I caress my hands on his cheek as I let it slide from his cheek to his neck. I lean in and kiss him tasting the lime, and the strongness of his drink.
After the kiss I lean back to look at him and can see his eyes are still watching me intently and his look is even more darkening. Is smile and lick my lips as I continue to dance with my eyes closed reveling in the moment.
I feel so close to you right now it's like a force field.
I wear my heart upon my sleeve like a big deal.
And there's no stopping us right now I feel so close to you right now.(Beat)
He rolls his head back as I kiss his neck and roll my tongue from his neck and back to his mouth to engulf him in a kiss. He quickly wraps my legs around him and we start kissing even more.
The club has its lights off, and there's only a faint strobe light, and other colorful glowing sticks that other people have. My mind is Christian free, and all my desire is into this one guy.
The next song comes on and it makes me feel even better than the last one.
I hear your heart beat to the beat o the drums.
Oh what a shame that you came here with someone.
So while you're here in my arms, let's make the most of the night like we're goanna die young.
He starts to walk slowly into a closet, and trails kisses down my neck as I roll my head back with desire.
CHRISTIANS POV
I stop in front of Rosalie's hotel room and open the door. I felt the conversation needed to be a face to face one; hopefully that's fucking enough remorse for Ana.
"Why are you here Christian?" Rosalie opens the door in her black lace bra and panties with her hair wet. I can tell she just came out of the shower.
"I want to get a divorce Rosalie."
Fuck that felt like a fucking load lifted off my back. I might as well just rip the band-aid off right? But as I see her face she doesn't look sad just like she knew it would happen.
"It's Ana, isn't it?"
I look intently at her and there's no need to bull shit her.
"Yes. I love you Rosalie but it will always be Ana. I just didn't think I would need to hurt you anymore."
She nods her head and her eyes turn a little dark as she finishes clasping her bra on, and walks to me.
"So that's the good bye I get? Shouldn't we make it a little more memorable than that?"
I can hear the music coming from her speakers, speaking words to me.
I feel so close to you right now it's like a force field.
I wear my heart upon my sleeve like a big deal.
Your love bows down on me surrounds me like a waterfall.
And there's no stopping us right now, I feel so close to you're right now. (Beat)
"If you love me than surly you can find it in your heart to give me one last kiss goodbye?"
With the bourbon I drank after Anastasia left, and the amount of clothing covering her I grab her face and start to kiss her.
I lift her and place her on the counter in her hotel room and I kiss her neck and she moans with desire.
Anastasia's POV
I can still hear the music even In the closet, and it gives me a boost of energy. He continues to kiss me and trace my figure with his hands.
Wild Childs looking good, living life just like we should.
Don't Care who's watching when were tearing it up.
The magic that we got no body can touch.
I can hear him unzip himself, and his intense blue eyes look at me with such lust, that at this point all I can do is nod. As his tip enters me all I can do is cry out.
Looking for some trouble tonight.
Take my hand I'll show you the wild side.
Like it's the last night of our lives, we'll keep dancing till we die.
Christian's POV
My hands roam her body, and unclasp her bra as I show attention to her breasts. I start to kiss and suck on them making her back arch and her moan.
Slowly I unzip my bra and stare into her blue eyes, as her lips are parted and her head lifts up to stare at me. She nods, and I enter the head of my penis in her entrance.
I feel so close to you right now it's a force field.
She starts to moan as I pick up the pace and suck her neck.
I wear my heart upon my sleeve like it's a big deal.
Anastasia's POV
He picks up pace as I moan loudly, grabbing on to the walls behind me.
I hear your heart beat to the beat of the drums,
Oh what a shame that you came here with someone.
I grab his back and scratch as I feel myself coming close.
Christians POV
Rosalie grabs hold of the counter and rolls her head back as she moans. I pick up the paste and kiss her breast and stomach.
Your love bows down on me surrounds me like a waterfall.
She lifts her head and grabs my face staring at me intently as she gets higher to her peak. Her lips are parted and she is letting out moans that harmonize with my growls.
And there's no stopping us right now, I feel so close to you right now.
She screams out in ecstasy as her orgasm takes over her, and my head rolls back as mine takes over me as well.
Anastasia's POV
I get closer and let him kiss my cleavage as we reach higher.
So while you're here in my arms, let's make the most of the night like were goanna die young.
I bite down on his ear, as I yell in pleasure, as we both hit our climax.
I lean back against the wall, and smile with my eye's close. The beautiful man lays his head on my chest, and I grab a hold of his hair, and sway to the music.
Let's make the most of the night like were goanna die young.
The song I feel so close to you by Calvin harris is from The vampire diaries. Episode four season four. I mean can you guys blame me though? That scene between damon and elena was fucking hot! You want to see it? Type this in youtube :The Vampire Diaries 4x04, Damon and Elena dancing scene, Calvin Harris - Feel So Close.
For those of you who saw it, i mean dont you guys agree.
As for the other song it is Kesha die young.
Okay now i know this chapter took a completly diffrent turn than what you guys thought but thats the point, to suprise you guys, and shock you guys with new twists. No need to worry, i always have C and A reunite , i just love them. :) Until next time.