Their embrace was interrupted by the sound of the kettle's whistle. Bella watched as Carlisle began preparing a cup of tea. She was wiping her face furiously. She felt so embarressed, somehow it felt worse than her depression. Maybe not worsebut it came close to it.

She looked around for the first time and realized the house seemed so bare and cavernous, there were no more furnitures or chairs, except for the couch in the living room they had left behind which she caught a quick glimpse of. Somehow the house being this empty made her relapse back into her dark hole. The house was just as empty as she was, her thoughts were interrupted when she felt something warm being placed in between her translucent hands, he stood next to her as he spoke,

" It's chamomile, it can help with your stress and sleep. . " He said with a soft smile,

"I'm not so sure about that. . ." She said quietly,

"Bella I-" She cut him off "I'm sorry about what happened earlier I-" He placed his hands on hers that were warm from holding the large mug, "It's alright. ." Finally she gave a small nod,

"Carlisle, you were on the roof with me last night, I rememered you helping me up and then after that nothing. . .What happened?" She asked, her eyebrows furrowing.

"You passed out, your body is exhausted and overstressed Bella. ." He replied carefully,

"Wait how do you know about my-"

"Charlie has been sending me e-mails, he's extremely worried about you Bella, you don't eat and if you do sleep you wake up strangled by your screams" Carlisle shook his head, "I never should have allowed Edward to leave things the way he did, I should have tried harder." He said as tension washed over his face,

"Don't Carlisle. . .It's okay. . ." She said as she took a sip of the tea.

A few minutes of calm silence passed as she spoke again,

"Wait. .How did I get back in my room last night?"

"Vampire remember?" Carlisle replied as he gave her a smile, she gave a small chuckle. Perhaps the first she's had in months, he watched as light slowly found their way into her eyes once more.

"And my clothes?"

"Bella I'm 300 years old, and a doctor, I think I could manage to change you out of your wet clothes without looking, I wasn't gonna take a chance on you getting pneumonia. "

"Carlilse!" Bella screamed, she was blushing furiously.

"I didn't look, I promise." Carlisle replied earnestly, she was still giving him a look.

"I give you my word as a gentleman." He said as his eyes met hers. She nodded in defeat,

"Alright, fine. What about Charlie? did you wake him up?"

"No, I didn't want to wake him up in the middle of night, with me holding his semi-concious daughter who was soaking wet might I add, he would want an explanation." He replied shaking his head in disapproval,

She felt chastised, she didn't regret that she went up to the roof, she was more concerned that he might be angry with her, she replied in a small voice "Sorry. ." She glanced up slowly, afraid that he's upset but when she looked at him there was only a gentle glint of tease in his eyes.

I watched as Carlisle excused himself from my company momentarily, I watched him exit into the other room. I found a smile form on my lips, I'm still embaressed about what happened earlier but I can't say I regret it. I need closure, Edward never gave me that, he never even gave me a chance to say my goodbyes. Now that I think about it, Carlisle probably won't stay here for long. I don't think I could bear it if he left too. Maybe I should ask how long he's. . .
No I don't wanna know when he's leaving, I just don't wanna know the answer to that. . .
It's better that way, so I can just convince myself that him visiting me was all just a dream.
So I can just tell myself that everything was a dream, even Edward. Maybe it can dull out the sharp pain of my reality.

I watched Carlisle as he entered the room, his face seemed stressed, but his expression changed as he stood next to me once more.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing Bella, don't worry." He replied as he gave her hand a gentle squeeze.

"Carlisle, I've seen that look before, tell me." Bella persisted.

"Alright, but I'll tell you later, okay?"

She couldn't understand the look in his eyes, but she didn't want him distressed so she gave a simple nod.

He took her cup and took it to the sink.

I found myself staring at him as he washed my cup, maybe because I had missed him, I miss all of them in fact, but the way I looked at him was somehow different, I don't know wether the food deprivation was going to my mind. I watched as the gloomy light outside reflected itself into the kitchen window and onto his beautiful face, I caught sight of a vague glimmer somewhere along the side of his cheek but I quickly averted my gaze, before he could see me looking at him like some deranged animal.

I bit my lip. I didn't wanna go back to Charlie's, for some crazy reason, I wanna stay here tonight. Should I ask him if I could stay for the night? I think I'm loosing it, completely loosing it. But I don't wanna be in my room alone, with my own thoughts, staring at the ceiling, waking up screaming, I don't wanna be alone. It's just for one night. This is crazy and stupid. I'm asking my ex-boyfriend's dad if I could sleep over their house. I've definitley reached a whole new level of idiocy.

"Bella? are you alright?" Carlisle asked, a look of concern on his face, shaking her out of her thoughts.

"Yeah. . .um. . ." The words in her mind couldn't seem to come out of her mouth, "Yes?" Carlisle replied patiently, This is it, I'm gonna ask him, he's gonna think I'm clinically insane but pleae don't, please dont.

"Can I stay here tonight? Just for tonight." The words finally came, but she didn't look at him, she didn't want to know the expression on his face, she closed her eyes waiting for his response.

"Of course Bella, your'e always welcome here, but I'm afraid the only thing you can sleep on is the couch."

If he was surprised by her request, his serene features gave no trace of it.

She gave out a silent sigh of relief, "Yeah, one thing by the way, why did you guys leave the couch?"

"Well for some reason Alice insisted on keeping it here, she said it was for emergencies." He replied with a soft chuckle.

Typical Alice.

I quickly drove home. The chevy was killing me today, it kept on stalling halfway there. But it didn't matter, I felt happy, I had almost forgotten what that felt like, I'm happy that I won't be alone anymore, at least for tonight. The thought of Carlisle being there made me feel safe and comforted. I left Charlie a note, I told him that I was going to sleep over at a friend's house, I didn't want him to get worried about me. He's had too much of that with me screaming in the early hours of dawn. I'd call him the next day anyway.

Bella was loading her backpack into the chevy when she heared someone calling her,

"Bella, where are you going?" Jacob asked as he walked towards her,

"Um. . .just out for a bit. . ." She nervously tucked a strand of stray hair behind her ear.

Jacob looked at her, scrutinizing her.

"I know, Carlisle's back Bella, why are you going back there?" There was a chord of anger in his voice.

"Jake. . please I need this" Bella pleaded.

"What do you need from them! theyr'e all cold and heartless, worse of all Edward just left you there remember? what can you possibly get from that?" Jacob grabbed her by the arm, stopping her from entering the car.

"Stop it Jacob. ." Bella was gritting her teeth.

"No. You are not going back to them Bella, theyr'e no good for you. Please." Jacob begged,

"Let me go Jake. ."

"No."

He pulled Bella towards him and kissed her. She pulled back and slapped him hard across the face.

"Just let me go Jacob. . ."

She shook free of his grasp and got into her car. Jacob watched her helplessly as she drove off into the distance.