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CHAPTER THREE
WHAT IS THIS FEELING?
Before I got in the cockpit I looked back at the elevator by the entrance of the hanger. "DON'T LET LOVE GET IN THE WAY CONCENTRATE ON THE BATTLE AHEAD OF YOU". That voice, all the time I hear it, it gives me a sickening feeling on my stomach. As I waited for the solar reactor to start up I saw Feldt leave the hanger and go back to the bridge. The solar reactor started up and the screen on the control panel read 00 QAN [T] in white bold letters and then the blinking words QUANTUM SYSTEMS OFFLINE came on the screen.
"Setsuna, are you sure you want to do this?" Feldt question as her face came up on the monitor; her face seemed concerned and upset.
"No, not really", I responded
"00 QAN [T] to the catapult deck, raising catapult power to 825, switching launch timer to Setsuna F. Seiei"
"Thank you Feldt, Setsuna F Seiei, GUNDAM - GNT-0000- 00 QAN [T], Launching"
The controls loosened and the sudden burst of speed overwhelmed me. The rush of particles from the GN DRIVE can be felt from the cockpit of the mobile suit. I maintained a tight grip on the controls, circling the Ptolemy many times. I felt the message was a joke, probably terrorist group. "EVADE". That voice again. After a few seconds there was a blast from afar and it hit my cockpit. "LISTEN NEXT TIME".
"So you came"
"Ali, it is you"
"Of course it is you idiot"
"I never told you how much I really disliked your stupid, bitchy attitude"
"The feeling is merely mutual you little brat"
"Lockon killed you two years ago he shot you twice and he saw your body still and dead"
"You don't get it do you? I am an innovator", my head was in total disarray."All of the innovators and I have uploaded our consciousnesses into our copy of VEDA, our terminal"
"What do you mean?"
"I cannot be killed you idiot."
"I am kind of glad at the news now I can finally get revenge on my parent's death, you twisted freak", I blurted out angrily.
I felt something poking my skin. "PAN LEFT". I had no time to think, the next thing I know I take another blow to the cockpit area. "I SAID LISTEN. BARREL ROLL RIGHT". I barrel rolled and evaded a blast that could have been fatal. "BOOST FORWARD, PAN LEFT, MELEE, THEN EVADE BLAST". I followed these instructions and as I was about to melee I sensed something, and it told me to boost back. "DON'T BOOST MELEE". I melee and it was a direct hit. Then afterwards I evaded and the blast from a hyper canon was close to a direct hit. I pulled back a bit and pulled out my beam saber. The projector in the cockpit gave me a rundown of the mobile suit. HEAVILY ARMORED GN-XIV ~ HYPER BURST CANON [HBC] x 2 ~ MIRAGE COLOIDE ~ GENUIN GN DRIVE ~ BEAM SABER x 4~ BEAM RIFLE x 2~ SHIELD AND RIFLE BITS x 12 ~ SNIPER [HBC] x 2 ~ TRANS AM ~ BOOST AMPLIFIERS x 6~RADAR JAMMER ~ RADIO JAMMER
So the innovators have access to the GENUINE GN DRIVE, this is a problem. "YOU BET IT IS. ACTIVATE QUANTUM SYSTEM, RELEASE SHIELD AND RIFILE BITS, ACTIVATE TRANS AM, ROTATE 24 DEGREES AND MELEE, SPIN AROUND 36 DEGREES, EVADE AND THROW GN SWORD VI".
"Release shield and rifle bits, and activate TRANS AM"
I messed up with the coordinates and my melee was a bit scattered. I didn't evade and we had a beam saber clash. His face was on my monitor and he had the stupid little grin he always had. His mobile suit was overpowering my QUANTA. I could barely handle his strength when he started dual wielding beam sabers. I raised the mobile suits legs to kick him off. The speed of his beam saber was quick. Then his mobile suit started glowing pink showing he had activated TRANS AM. I pulled down on the thruster gauge for the left leg and went in for a spin kick he evaded and I had to quickly reverse the polarity to maintain stability and go in for an uppercut he easily retained his stance. I pulled out my beam saber and started swinging trying to cut something important. He was fast and I couldn't get a hit on him. .my sword bits were still flying around him trying to impale but they missed every chance they got. He quickly pulled out a beam rifle and shot me twice in the cockpit area. I closed my eyes thinking I was dead, I opened my eyes and looked around and there was a hole in the side of the cockpit then I looked at the side of my stomach and there was a huge shard of E-CARBON sticking out. The pain was excruciating but I couldn't stall for too long, I had to get back in the fight. I could not have had my eyes closed for twenty seconds and in that time he destroyed all of rifle bits. There was a lot of blood and if I took too long I could die here. For the time being I tried evading, seeing if I could maneuver myself to the back of him. I pushed both of the boost gauges forward then pulled them both down and swung the legs forward to use his suit as a brake and if I use fine maneuverability I could make this deadly. As I boosted back I was reaching up for the button for the GN RIFLE VI and I felt something rip. I pulled back again and looked at the shard on the side of my stomach it was starting to make my blood sting. If I wanted to finish this I had to rip it out. I asserted a firm grip and tried to pull. I started seeing black closing in so I put both hands on it and pulled. It felt like someone was ripping my stomach out and the more I pulled the worse it got. My fingers were beginning to get numb and my whole mobile suit shook as I was thrown backwards. Had he kicked me? My eyes turned to the monitor; a beam saber was swinging down on its way to kill me. My TRANS AM was starting to deplete as I pushed the particle output to max quantizing me into nothing. I reformed behind him as I swung forward but his movements were quick. He blocked my attack with his own beam saber. He flew back as I kicked him off. Again I put my hands on the shard and tugged. I coughed and all that came out was blood. I was out of strength but I might as well die trying I straitened my leg and got another grip on it. I pulled and pulled but then I felt it shift a bit and then I pushed hard and away from my stomach, then it came loose and when the tip of that shard came out blood splattered around the cockpit, obscuring the projector. I coughed up more blood. Using all my will power I grabbed the controls and focused on this battle. Then called in the shield bits. The bits formed together and created a sword. Using it as a decoy I threw it and I took another beam saber and tried to go for a stab. It was a direct hit to the cockpit. "QUANTIZE". I quantized and that helped me evade a stab from Ali. If I didn't I could be in the same condition as him. He quickly grabbed my mobile suit trying to go for a suicide attempt. I used the controls t grab the GN-XIV's head and tried to rip it off. He pushed me off and this was the perfect time to advance. I boosted behind him and stole his HYPER BAZOOKA. He swung his beam saber and tried to spin around to hit me. My strength was almost gone so I had to work quickly. I flew back and charged up the BAZOOKA to firing strength. He responded quickly and pulled his BEAM RIFLE out and shot the weapon out of my hand. I pulled my last and final beam saber to fight him off. He charged forward as I slashed off his leg and spun behind him stabbing another sword through his torso unit. The particle output was as low as it had ever been. Ali grabbed the beam saber stabbed though him and pulled it out swiftly. I dashed for the BAZOOKA and aimed it at once. It was fully charged and once it fired it had a huge back lash and pushed my mobile suit back. When the smoke cleared, his mobile suit was still there just missing a right arm, and the right side of the upper body. However it seemed like I was able to hit the SOLAR REACTOR.
"Ali it is over, there is no point in fighting", I said in a straining voice.
"Fool, my body is but a mere vessel, I'll be back I swear I…"
His mobile suit exploded and I was a bit confused. I drifted through space for a while before I noticed I had to get back to Ptolemy. I had lost a lot of blood and I was woozy. I was weak and the controls felt hard, but I had to get back. If I didn't I would die anyways. I used the tiny last bit of energy I had to grab the thrust gauges and pushed them to maximum. I couldn't read the coordinates on the top of the projector and I was flying all over the place. Finally I had sights on the Ptolemy. My hands finally released the controls and I let the drift do the rest.
I arrived at the Ptolemy and made an effort to open the cockpit but I didn't have enough strength. I kept trying but each time I tried I only lost more and more blood, and as a last attempt, I punched the button and the cockpit finally opened. I quickly unstrapped myself but even in space I didn't have enough strength to get myself off the seat. I looked at my hands, they had a metallic shine to them, I am hallucinating I thought. It was about five minutes then my eyesight started getting blurry and the pain was no longer bearable I couldn't scream, I was so weak. It was another three minutes before I saw something come in front of the cockpit but I couldn't tell what.
"Setsuna", i heard.
I was lost and unable to see clearly. Slim hands gripped mine and pulled me out of the Quanta slowley. Bright lights consumed my vision, leaving me blinded. the pain only worsend as we entered the elevator. "LET GO" a voice echoed in my head. the darkness closed in and left me motionless.
Again I was in the small town. This time when I opened the door I was alone and there were broken items everywhere, there were signs of struggles and there were clothes on the floor. Next thing I know I'm in a hotel hallway and I looked to my left. There was a hotel door that was numbered 142. When I opened the door, there men discussing how to go through with their plan, I couldn't understand there accent but they said something about blackmail and about getting a mobile suit. Outside the window there was a sign that said Vegas. "LEAVE HER!" That voice, who are you? "THAT'S WHAT YOU NEED TO FIND OUT. LOOK TO YOUR LEFT". I had to fight myself to wakeup but when I did I was out of breath and I could see water droplets floating around the room and Feldt's head was on my chest. She was sobbing. I put my hand on her head and ran it down her soft pink hair. She quickly got up and looked at me. Her eyes were watery, her face was pink, and she seemed scared. By the time she noticed I was conscious again I had already seen she was crying. Trying to hide it, Feldt quickly turned the other way to clean herself up quickly pretending nothing happened. Her body was shaking and I knew something wasn't right. What do I do? Should I comfort her? I sat up, grabbed her softly, and pulled her in slowly to comfort her. She was warm and I could tell she had been here for a while.
"Feldt it's okay to cry"
She leaned her head closer to me and broke out in tears. I ran my hand through her hair a couple of times to calm her down. She soon shifted a bit and then the pain on the side of my stomach was antagonizing but I didn't want to tell Feldt as she might over react. She was shaking so I held her tighter and she relaxed a bit. I turned slightly so my legs were hanging off the bed and I could hold her better. After a couple of minutes I noticed she was asleep. I slowly grabbed the needle that was connected to the blood bag and on my wrist and ripped it out. It stung my entire arm and I felt like screaming. A little bit of blood dripped out of my wrist and I cleaned it off on the bed. I kicked off the floor toward the door and repeated this and carried her to her room. The door opened quickly and without hesitation she was slowly placed on her bed. When I looked at the side of my stomach there were blood spots on my shirt that weren't there before. I realized I couldn't be doing much strength for a while. Going to sleep and actually relaxing would help. My stomach was bleading heavily and it is only bandaged. The shard of E-Carbon was covered in PSUEDO PARTICLES. I was about to leave the room when she woke up.
"Setsuna, y-you are out of the med bay"
"Yeah, I had to bring you here"
"Are you any better?" she questioned.
"Yes", I was silent for a couple of seconds. "Thank you", I said as I continued to the door.
I went to my left and went to a closed door. Inside was the star room; a large room with a big window giving a great view of the stars. I leaned on the rail next to the glass and looked out.
Memories of my past flashed through my head. My father, my mother, and the child she held in her hands. That child was my brother. These were all memories that shall never leave me.
"This is where you prove your worthiness to GOD", Ali Al told us.
I was merely five when I met him, he was in his twenties. He found my friends and I and convinced us to joining the KPSA.
"If you want to succeed in proving your worthiness, you must do a small task. Go now and kill you parents in the name of GOD!" he told us this when I was seven.
I was against doing it for I loved my mother. She always had a smile on her face and loved me. It was in the name of GOD I told myself. Ali supplied us with guns and knives.
"Don't do this Soran", my mother cried the second I shot my father and aimed the gun at her holding my brother.
"I am doing this for GOD"
My finger wrapped around the trigger as I pulled it. The hammer swung forward and left me breathless as it was the first time I used a gun. Other gun shots could be heard as the other kids did the same to their parents. I walked emotionless out of my house and met with Ali and the other children.
"Good. Now I know you can be trusted. Now we can start our rebellion against the UNION!" He said.
At the age of ten, I realized what he made me do; he forced me to kill my parents for a GOD that doesn't exist. My mother haunts my dreams asking me WHY. I stopped having those night tremors the day Lockon informed me if Ali's so called 'death'.
"Setsuna? Are you okay?"
I looked at the person's reflection in the glass. A pink haired figure stood there looking at me.
"Why wouldn't I be?"
"You seem more distant than usual"
Am I really distant? "I was having a dream", I finally spoke.
"Oh I am sorry, I shouldn't have interrupted then", I could sense the nervousness she had.
"Ah"
"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, but, may I ask about your dream?" she asked quietly.
I didn't speak, unsure if I should say any more. She was about to turn away and leave knowing I don't usually open up to anyone. "It was about my past", she stopped in her tracks and looked back at my reflection coming closer. "The dream was about my past. When I was a child, I met a man named Ali Al Saachez. He told me about something called GOD, and to prove myself to him I must do him a small favor", she starting intently now focused on my story. "GOD asked one thing of us and that was to kill our parents to show our strength"
"What did you do?"
I hesitated fearing the result if I told her. "I did what he asked of me", I said emotionless. "I did so to find out that there is no GOD in this world, and I had been used for a blood thirsty mans' amusement", I was beginning to get angry and my hands were starting to get a metallic shine. "I was his little puppet. I used to have nightmares of my mother until I thought he died three years ago. But recently I have found out, he can't be killed. Feldt Grace, that is why I don't trust anyone, if I get to attached to someone, it will be that much more painful when they die on the battlefield", I awaited her response for my story.
I expect two outcomes; A: she could call me a stupid monster, or B: she could say it's okay or it's not your fault, lie. She took another step closer and I closed my eyes to look down. I felt her put her arms around my stomach. I hated when people interfered with my personal space, but with her silence, I felt comforted and better. I was quite happy she didn't say anything. I was silent as well. She finally let go of me and I turned around to look at her.
"Thank you", I said softly.
She gave a small smile and looked into my eyes; she had tears flowing through them.
"You never told me Setsuna"
"I couldnt tell anyone"
"I understand"
The moment slowly became awkward. I turned my back to her and she left. I have begun changing I thought as I closed my eyes.
When I woke up I was alone in the room. I got up and made my way to the door. After it opened I pushed myself toward the direction of the mess hall. I didn't even think of what I was doing on my way there. I was exhausted when I arrived and I still wasn't back to my normal self. There were blood stains on this uniform. I grabbed the food sat down and started eating. Looking at the clock I wondered if that time was right, I had slept for over fourteen hours. I needed to calm down and take everything slowly so I don't harm myself any more.