Chapter 14
(A.N: I don't know why I keep updating this for you guys. Jeeze. My other fanfics are so neglected. OOC WARNING. TT means scene changes, or time passing. 'Italics are a flashback sequence.' R&R? Appreciate it!)
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"Where are we going?" It was his third time asking the raven this question. Fai knew that repeating the same question again and again, wouldn't get him an answer. But he was willing to try.
"You'll see." It was the same answer. They'd only been in the car for ten minutes, but the blonde was anxious. He'd woken up to a nearly empty apartment.
He felt it coming on. Kurogane was going to take him to a new apartment, tell the blonde he got him set up in a new one – a nicer one...
...And then he'd disappear from Fai's life.
He'd be stuck in a new apartment – alone, and the raven would be off on his own again. Probably with a girl. That was where he'd been lately, wasn't it? With a woman?
He sighed now, hating the silence. Hating that he knew the truth without the raven saying a word. Hated himself for not being good enough to keep the male in his life.
Kurogane was probably bringing him over to the girls house, just so that he could introduce him to her first, and explain what had happened. Explain that they had fallen in love, and blah, blah, blah.
He refused the urge to cry, as he watched the scene change before them. He watched the house appear before him, and briefly wondered why the raven had chosen this girl over him.
Was she pretty? Was she different than he was?
...Was it because she was female?
His blood turned to ice at the thought. He'd somehow managed to overlook this scenario. Kurogane moving on – with a female.
"Fai? I said; lets go." Kurogane watched his blue eyed boyfriend come back to Earth. The blonde was clearly confused as he turned his head to face the raven.
"Kergs?"
The male in question sighed, and got out of the car. He walked around to the other side as Fai undid his seatbelt.
When the door opened, the raven helped his boyfriend out of the car, and lead him to the house. Fai trailed behind him, feeling both angry and sad at the same time. This was the end.
The exterior of the house was nice enough – this girl had good taste. White house, black door, black shutters...A swing on the porch...
Kurogane didn't hesitate in unlocking the door himself. So, they were past the knocking stage? The blonde turned around quietly, and started to walk away. He didn't want this. He didn't know this girl...He didn't want to know this girl. He'd never planned on losing his boyfriend this way...But apparently, he was going to.
But dammit, he wasn't going to watch it happen.
The raven had turned around to find him walking away, so he set off after him.
"Fai!" He was behind him in no time,
"Fai, wait."
"Look, Kergs, if you want to start some new life with some girl, then that's fine by me. Just don't make me watch you do it, okay?"
"Wow..." He hadn't realized that surprises were this big of an issue,
"You have it wrong, alright? It's not like that. Just, come inside."
The blonde looked irritated, but he followed his boyfriend back to the house. The raven signalled for him to go ahead into the house once they were on the porch. Fai hesitated, but he followed the instructions, and stepped beyond the threshold.
He took off his shoes before he wandered into the main room – the living room. Behind him, Kurogane removed his shoes as well, but he stayed in the doorway.
Fai was bewildered. Green walls – a little more vibrant than the faded ones of the ravens old apartment. A black L-shaped sofa, a large television, a glass coffee table...All of it was new. There were decorations – little things that made a home, a home. One of the things that he caught onto rather quickly, were the pictures. On the wall, he found pictures from New Years, his birthday, and various occasions. And when he looked to the side table, he found a picture of the two of them.
He turned around, understanding sweeping over him. Kurogane was standing in the doorway, staring at nothing.
"...Kergs?" He took a few steps towards him.
"...It was meant to be a surprise," the raven explained quietly, still not looking at him.
"Kergs..."
"It seemed like a good idea at the time." The answer was mumbled, and the male looked away as he said it.
"Kergs...I—"
"—Just go check out the house."
Fai wanted to apologize, but it appeared that the male didn't want to speak. He swallowed his fears, and resisted his urges to cry. He wouldn't cry. He would be okay. They would be okay...
He wandered from one room to another. The kitchen, the bathroom...But he wouldn't go upstairs. Not without his boyfriend.
He found his way back to the raven, and outstretched a hand, to brush it against the ravens cheek...Only to have him turn away.
"Kergs..." He felt hopeless. The raven had spent so much time away from him – perfecting their new home. And he'd accused him...
Why couldn't he just, trust him?
The raven took his hand then, and lead him up the stairs. He stopped in front of one of the doors, and gestured for him to go and check things out. Fai investigated the guest rooms, but he ended up back in front of his boyfriend.
Kurogane didn't speak. He simply opened the door to the room he was standing in front of.
Fai stepped into the room, bewildered. The walls...Were purple. It was common knowledge that the blonde loved purple. He loved it because it was the colour you got when you mixed the colour of his eyes, with the colour of his boyfriends eyes. Purple.
There was a queen size bed sitting in the room as well, with black sheets. The walls and side tables had pictures of the two of them from various occasions...And there was a door. The blonde turned questioning eyes to the raven – who didn't answer, but instead, opened the door for him.
Fai was bewildered.
The room contained a large black couch, and the walls were blue. His instruments were already in the room. His guitar, and his violin...There were amps, and speakers of all sorts...Microphones, and microphone stands...
"Kergs...What is this?"
"...Your new studio."
Fai turned around – his eyes wide.
"It's connected to our room – it's easy for you to access...It's soundproofed...All of the rooms are soundproofed. This whole damned house is soundproofed. We can blast our music as loud as we want, and the neighbours won't hear a damned thing. I did this, because I know you. You sing...You love to sing. So, I thought I'd make it easier for you to do so..."
"...Kergs..." He didn't know what to say.
"This is where your sister, and all of our friends have been. They helped me put this place together...I chose the colours for the walls, and picked out the furniture, drew out the arrangement...Tomoyo picked out the frames and did the picture set up for me, but the rest was my original design. They helped me to put everything into place."
The blonde felt his heart swimming. There was a sea of emotion raging through him, and he wrapped his arms around his boyfriends neck. He loved him. Sometimes he forgot just how much he loved him.
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Fai had been too drained – from the shock, and the change in his emotions – to wander around the house for too long. When the sun was just touching down on the horizon, he changed, and climbed under the covers. He couldn't manage to get himself to fall asleep, but he was reminded of his childhood.
Once upon a time, he'd had purple walls in his room. He'd loved the colour as a child, and he'd never really been sure as to why. But the point was...He'd loved it. And now, he loved it again.
Closing his eyes, he allowed himself to return to his childhood years.
"I don't know Chiharu...I just think that at the age of twelve...He shouldn't have his walls..."
"It's just a colour, Taijo. There's nothing wrong with purple." She didn't look bothered in the slightest. Neither of them seemed to be aware of the fact that he was standing just beyond the door.
"I don't know...It just, seems odd. Kids treat him differently already. Kids think he's weird..."
"Our son doesn't care about what other people think of him." She was so calm, and collected.
It was as though she was never going to fade away.
"Chiharu. He may not care, but I do. Ever since he told us that he likes boys...He's too young to know what he wants!"
"That has nothing to do with his room."
"Alright, the colour I can handle. It would be a waste to paint over it now anyway. But the stars? Really, does he need those damned stars all over his room?"
"He likes the stars." She had given up on reading, and was instead occupying her hands with sewing. Some of her childrens clothes needed a little bit of patching up.
"He's twelve years old! He doesn't need stars all over his room. Chi wasn't like that at his age." The male was so frustrated.
He could see them through the crack of the door. It was open just a sliver.
"Our children will not be the same as one another." She kept her eyes trained on what she was working on.
"Still. The stars really need to go. He's twelve years old. He needs to grow up a little bit."
"He's just a kid..."
The argument had gone along for a while. His twin had joined him in the doorway, eavesdropping. Two little blondes both listening to a conversation that they didn't want to hear. They listened until Chi – eighteen at the time – came home, and directed them away from the door.
He'd gone to bed that night, and woken up to a dark room. A room that kept on getting darker. And all he could hear was the shuffling of feet, and the consistent ripping of the stars coming off of his wall.
He didn't bother with sitting up. He just stayed in his darkness, until his Father finally left his room. And – when the sun rose – he could see the damage. His room was starless.
"Fai?"
He blinked his eyes back open, and turned his gaze to the voice. But as he turned, he realized something. The sun had set already, but that wasn't what had caught his attention. He sat up – his eyes wide.
He squeezed his eyes shut tightly, and then opened them once again. But it was still there.
"Fai?"
The voice sounded a little concerned as the blonde seemed to be lost in his thoughts.
"Kuro-rin?" He sounded as though he needed verification.
"It's me...What's wrong?"
Fai didn't answer him. He would have been a little more concerned, if he hadn't remembered the conversation that he'd had with Chi. She'd told him about Fai's old room, and how he'd been miserable after his stars had been taken away, and how he'd been even worse after his room had been painted white.
"...Your sister told me about it. I decided to see what I could find, and...I wasn't sure how you'd feel..."
"..." He couldn't find his voice. He simply turned to the raven, and watched the male climb into bed next to him. His boyfriend wrapped an arm around him, and he felt his walls cascading down all around him.
Forget not being close to him. Forget the distance.
Forget his goddamn Father.
He wrapped his arms around Kurogane's neck, and buried his face there as well. The raven didn't ask questions. He simply wrapped his arms around the blonde, and cradled him against his body.
They fell asleep in a room covered in stars.
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(A.N: Some fluff, and angst and blah, blah, blah! Another chapter is underway already. I spoil you people. R&R?)