Chapter 19
(A.N: Oh you didn't think I was going to leave you with just that one piece of DouWata smex, now did you? Don't worry, you're not dreaming...I'm really double-posting. I'm giving you some drama in this chapter...And some fluff...And more smex...(KuroFai this time, nomnomnom!) I think you guys are kind of spoiled, XD! But I love you guys...You review my work, and motivate me to continue...And there's definitely more to come for this story! TT means time passing, or scene changes – you know the drill. R&R? I love you for it!)
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He had finally finished his chapter, and now he was lying on his stomach on their bed.
It wasn't that he was tired really. He was just waiting for Fuuma to come back out of the bathroom. So, while he waited, he closed his eyes, and allowed his mind to carry him through his thoughts.
He didn't like all of what he saw.
He'd argued with Fai and Subaru, because they had been off cliff jumping. Subaru had deserved Kamui's panic, so the younger male had taken it with stride. But Fai...
The blonde hadn't looked hurt, really. Just afraid – though Kamui didn't blame him. He knew that without that morning cup of coffee...He was cranky. Murderous. But Fai had taken the yelling easily. When Fuuma had showed up, he'd seemed to calm down – probably reassured by the fact that someone who dealt with the raging raven on a regular basis, was there.
He'd bit Fuuma's finger...Made him bleed...
He really needed to work on controlling his morning rage.
Everyone had been good to him all morning – despite his rage. Fai had even cooked him breakfast. A very filling omelette. He suspected Fuuma must have had something to do with that – telling the blonde what his boyfriend would like.
He felt fingers in his hair, but he didn't move.
Why was everyone else so good to him, when he was being a jerk? He couldn't handle mornings, but for whatever reason – Fuuma put up with him. Dealt with him having a fit. Made him some coffee, and sat with him until he was calm.
"Kamui?" That gentle voice was so comforting...
"Hm?" He kept his eyes closed. He was hurting deep down, because he was so cruel in the morning...But people still dealt with him...Fuuma still dealt with him...
"Hey, are you alright?" He sounded concerned. The shorter male wanted to answer, but his voice had escaped him. He opened his eyes, and located his boyfriends face.
"Kamui...Look, if you're thinking about this morning...Then, don't. No one is mad at you..." Fuuma stroked his fingers through his boyfriends hair once more, before he pulled his hand away. Kamui saw the bandaged finger, and looked away.
"What? This?" He looked to the finger,
"Doesn't hurt anymore. I'd even bet money on it being basically closed by tomorrow."
"..." Kamui didn't know what to say. He felt guilty, for hurting Fuuma. He hated himself, for being so...
He looked to his boyfriend. Fuuma was shirtless – which just gave Kamui full visual access to the scar that he'd created.
He looked away again.
"Alright," Fuuma – hating the idea of his boyfriend being in pain – carefully scooped Kamui up into his arms, and set him in his lap – craddling him against his body.
"..."
"You, have got to stop blaming yourself. No one is perfect. You get angry in the morning, you can't help it."
"..." He was listening, but he couldn't force himself to respond.
"Aren't you the one who said that couples are bound to fight?"
"..."
"Kamui, really, I'm not hurt..."
"Not hurt? Then I suppose that huge scar across your chest didn't hurt either. I suppose the glass hitting you with enough force to cut you open, didn't hurt you! And I suppose you were in the hospital because it didn't hurt you! Because I didn't hurt you? Dammit Fuuma! I don't know how you stay so calm, all the time! I've hurt you, more than once! And all I ever do is hurt you when I'm with you-!"
"—Stop it." His arms tightened around Kamui. He held him as close as he could, without hurting him.
"...Even now, you're being cautious of causing me any pain..." He covered his face with his hands,
"What's wrong with me, Fuuma? Why can't I just be normal?"
Fuuma chuckled at this, and nuzzled Kamui's hair,
"Are any of us normal in this group?"
"The others aren't half as bad as I am."
"You think you're the worst off? Think about it...Kurogane was much worse than you." His voice was light and teasing.
"Yeah, and then Fai showed up, and fixed him..." He trailed, thinking about the blonde once again. He uncovered his face.
"Ahh, your expression tells me that you're catching on. Out of all of us, you're not the worst off. Fai's got the bad luck...I think Kurogane might be the only thing holding that guy together. And even then, he's not on solid ground. He focuses on his friends and their issues, so that he doesn't have to worry about his. Whenever he thinks he's gotten his footing – he loses it all over again. We've witnessed it first hand, haven't we? It's like he's trying to walk on water, or on a tightrope. He dangles a lot, or even falls down...But he's convinced that he can make it through life, without depending on anyone...At least until something has the nerve to kill him."
"But he depends on Kurogane."
"Unintentionally. He doesn't realize that he's doing it."
"...He doesn't hit Kurogane..."
"He's hit him once...But mainly his power lies in his words. He gets away with saying anything that he feels...And Kurogane is still right there, trying to keep him."
"...Does Fai ever piss him off?"
"Sometimes - when they fight. Fai will get out of hand, and freak out...And Kurogane will get mad, but he'll keep near him, or chase him down and make him calm again..."
"...Fuuma?"
"Sounds familiar, doesn't it? I think that's why you get along so well with Fai. The way he gets when he's nervous, or angry...Is the same way you feel when you first wake up. Unstable. Of course, he always feels that way – subconsciously. He has separation anxiety too...From Kurogane. If he's too far away, for too long...Fai snaps. He gets nervous, and scared..."
"He's a wreck inside...But he plays it off so well..." Kamui looked away,
"He's still nicer than I am, and he's had it much worse than I have..."
"Now, I don't think you should call him nicer. He's definitely more gentle..." Fuuma teased, but Kamui didn't look his way.
"Kamui." His voice was low, and the shorter male couldn't help but to answer to his name. He looked.
Fuuma gripped his chin, and pressed him into a kiss. Kamui's first instinct was to melt into the males embrace. But for some reason, he couldn't move.
When Fuuma pulled back out of the kiss, he studied his boyfriends face,
"You know that I'm only teasing you. You're actually very gentle...You only go after me when I do something that I shouldn't do."
"Fuuma this..." He traced a finger along the scar,
"Is not a punishment for what you did...It shouldn't be there at all...I hate myself more and more whenever I see it..."
"Kamui...Don't be so hard on yourself..."
Even as he spoke the words, his boyfriend detached himself from him, and got off of the bed. Kamui went directly to the glass balcony doors, and stared outside, at the stars. He didn't dare to open the doors...It was chilly out.
"People were only able to draw the constellations, because the stars had already found their place in the sky...Side by side. They were where they were meant to be," Fuuma spoke quietly, having joined his boyfriend at the balcony doors.
"Stars huh?" Kamui mused quietly,
"Sometimes I feel like a falling star. I'm hurtling my way through the sky too fast, and I can't see where I'm going, or where I'll land."
"A shooting star? If I remember correctly, you make wishes on shooting stars, don't you?"
Kamui didn't answer.
"So can I make a wish on you?"
Kamui still didn't answer, but the fingers of Fuuma's right hand, laced themselves together with the fingers of Kamui's right hand,
"Come back to bed, and lie down with me? It feels emptier when you're not with me, you know."
Kamui unlaced their fingers, only so that he could turn around and face his boyfriend. He buried his face in the males chest – his hair covering his eyes at the sides...
One hand traced the scar, while the other hand held onto one of Fuuma's hands. It didn't take the male long to realize that it was his bandaged finger.
It also didn't take him long to realize that Kamui was crying.
"Kamui..."
"I'm like a path of destruction! I hurt everyone I get too close to...Whether it's verbally or physically..."
"Kamui, that's not true. You yelled at two people, because it was early and you were worried. Subaru was missing, and he's basically your only family."
"Subaru is like a brother to me...I call his Mom and Dad my Aunt and Uncle...The three of them are all that I have..."
"You're wrong," Fuuma sighed, kissing the top of his boyfriends head.
"..."
"You've got me too, don't you?"
"...You don't qualify as family...You're my boyfriend...That's different..."
Fuuma wasn't offended. He knew that Kamui was very honest and open – he spoke his mind, and Fuuma respected him for it.
"Kamui? Can I ask you something?" After asking the question, he kissed the top of his boyfriends head again.
"What?" Kamui still had his face buried in his boyfriends chest.
"Do you love me?"
"...Of course I love you..."
"Then, will you do something for me?"
"What?"
"...Will you marry me?"
Kamui froze. He pulled his head back, to look at his boyfriend through his tears. Fuuma was smiling slightly, but his eyes...His eyes were serious.
"...Fuuma..."
The taller raven ran his thumbs under Kamui's eyes – wiping away tears.
"Should I take that as a yes?"
Kamui nodded slightly, unable to find his voice.
"...Good...Because I can't live without you, Kamui...I need you in my life, forever..."
"...Fuuma..." The tears came back tenfold, as the taller male kissed his new fiancée.
Just when Kamui felt that his whole world was crumbling out beneath his feet...Fuuma was right there, pulling him back up to sturdier ground, and holding on to him as tightly as he could...
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"He was listening to the entire conversation you know."
"I know. Why do you think I let him pour his heart out in front of me like that? I knew Doumeki was listening." Fai smiled as he discarded his t-shirt, and hopped into bed.
"Sneaky devil..." The raven murmured, shaking his head from side to side in disbelief.
"I love you too," Fai told him, laughing a bit,
"Sometimes I feel like I'm playing matchmaker or something. Watanuki was having boyfriend problems, so I helped him. Kamui was having problems, so I tried helping him too..."
"And what about your problems?"
Fai rolled onto his side, and locked his gaze with that of his boyfriend,
"If I don't focus on my problems, then I'm happier. If I'm happier, then my friends are happier...And you too..."
Kurogane sighed and crossed the room, sitting himself on the edge of the bed.
"And what about you?" Fai questioned, eyeing his boyfriend.
"What about me?" The raven shrugged.
"You have problems too...Who do you turn to?"
"...I don't turn to anyone. I have a history Fai, and I'm not going to put it on your shoulders. You carry the weight of too many issues as it is."
"I told you about what happened to my twin...Why can't you tell me about what's bothering you?" He'd told him about his twins death...However, he hadn't told him about his true name. He couldn't do that...
"Because it doesn't bother me until I start thinking about it."
"But it's always there, subconsciously. Why don't you tell me? It's easier to bear something when you've spoken to someone else about it. Why not let it out to someone you trust?"
"Who says I trust you?" Kurogane's voice was teasing, and he wore a small smile. Fai grinned, knowing that the raven was just kidding, and wormed his way over to him, sprawling himself out on his stomach – in Kurogane's lap.
"I know you trust me," the blonde told him simply.
"I do. I just don't think that I should add onto the burdens you're carrying," as he spoke, he traced some of the tattoo lines on his boyfriends back – remembering what they were covering.
"I wouldn't consider it a burden," Fai murmured, turning himself to look at the raven,
"And what those guys did to me isn't a burden. They hurt me, they attempted murder...But it's not a burden. It's just a crappy piece to my history."
"I don't want to be a bad part of your life."
"You're not, Kergs. You're the best part of my life." The blonde grinned, and then turned himself over fully so that he could lean up to kiss his boyfriend.
Kurogane kissed him back for a moment, before he pulled back. He repositioned the blonde, so that he was sitting in his lap.
"I'll tell you...On one condition..."
"Which would be...?"
"You explain the scars on your thighs."
"..." He'd hoped that he wouldn't notice those. But Kurogane had caught a glimpse of them the other day, and apparently, he'd been wondering about them ever since.
"...Remember how I said I'd been cutting for two years, but that it didn't look like it, because of the scars on my arms? There aren't a full two years worth of scars on my arms...But that's because not all of the scars are on my arms..."
"..."
"I used to stab my thighs...It hurt, but it also felt good...It was a sick addiction that I didn't want to drop...Just like cutting..."
Kurogane pressed his lips against Fai's, and kissed him deeply. The blonde was scarred along his entire body...Minus his head...But that was where all of his troubling thoughts happened. So he was just as scarred there as he was anywhere else.
"Why doesn't any of this bother you?"
"It does bother me...It doesn't bother me to see you...But what does bother me, is knowing that you're covered in scars, because people have hurt you."
"Some were self-inflicted..." Fai trailed.
"Because people were hurting you, and because you lost most of your family."
"...Hyuu~" He curled himself closer to the raven, loving his warmth.
"...So now you're expecting answers?"
"You promised." Fai reminded him gently.
"...I know. I just...I don't know where to start..." It bothered him. He didn't want to share his history with Fai...
He lifted him out of his lap, and set him on the bed. When he'd stood himself back up, he went to the closet, and riffled through things on the top shelf, before he finally found what he was looking for. He came back with the box in his hands, and set it on the bed, before he sat back down himself.
"Feel free to go through that. I can't tell you what happened myself...I don't know how..."
Fai positioned himself up against the headboard, resting amongst the pillows. Then, he tugged the box towards himself, and pulled off the lid. Occupying most of the room within the box was a photo album. Besides that there was a cd case with a cd inside, it had Kurogane's familiar scrawl on it: One track: Monster. There were also a few notes – also written in Kurogane's scrawl.
"You can go through it. Take things out..."
Fai nodded, and pulled out the cd case,
"What's monster?"
"It's a song."
"A song by who?"
Kurogane looked away. Fai set down the cd case, and pulled out the papers that he was seeing. Originally, he'd thought that they were notes...But now...Now he could see that they were something else entirely...
Drummers notes, guitarist notes, and lyrics...
MONSTER, was written at the top of the page containing the lyrics. Off to the side it read:
Drummer: Syaoran.
Guitar # 1: Shogo.
Guitar # 2: Kurogane.
Vocals: Kurogane.
"...You play guitar?" Fai paused,
"More importantly...You sing?"
"Used to," the raven mumbled, not meeting his gaze.
Fai read over the lyrics in silence, liking the way they flowed. It made him think of his Father...
"Who wrote the lyrics?"
Kurogane didn't answer.
"You write your own music? This is good...I like it..."
"You haven't even heard the song."
"I know. But I like the way the lyrics flow." There were more songs, but Fai set the papers down, and set the cd case on top of them. Next, he pulled out the photo album.
When he flipped it open, he found an ultrasound, and – strung in through the binder locks – there was a silver locket. Fai's fingers traced it gently – as though it were fragile.
"May I, uhm...?"
Kurogane didn't look, but he knew what Fai was looking at.
"Yeah, go ahead."
Fai unclipped it from the confines of the book, and then clipped it back together. He held the heart shaped locket in his hands, and opened it.
At first, he thought that he was seeing Tomoyo and Kurogane – which confused him. But as he stared at the pictures, he realized that he was seeing Kurogane's parents. He closed the locket, and set it down on the cd case.
When he flipped the page of the photo album, he found a birth certificate.
"...You-oh?"
"...Please, don't say that name." Kurogane's hands had formed tight fists.
"...That's your birth name...Isn't it?" Fai was surprised that he wasn't the only one lying about his name.
"...Yeah..."
The blonde murmured that he wouldn't say it anymore, and looked back to the photo album, flipping to the next page. This was where the photos began.
Photos of Kurogane as a baby, at the hospital, in his Mother's arms...She looked so much like Tomoyo...And in his Father's arms...Kurogane looked like his Father – basically identical. Fai shook away the thought.
There were also pictures of Kurogane in the arms of what appeared to be his Mother...But something was different...She looked like she was three months pregnant – which wasn't possible, obviously.
His understanding came when he flipped the page again, and found Kurogane in his Mother's arms, with the other woman sitting beside them.
"...Tomoyo's Mom...And your Mom...They were...?"
"Twins...Yeah...Ironic, isn't it?"
"Mm." He returned to the pictures. He got to see a bunch of his boyfriends ridiculous baby pictures, and some made him giggle. When he came across a naked one, showing off the ravens backside, Fai laughed,
"Nice ass."
Kurogane facepalmed.
The blonde liked seeing the young Kurogane, being his cute little self...Loving his Mother, as well as his Father...He watched him grow up, to have big red eyes, and the same spiky hair that he had now.
He looked so happy...
But then, sometime after Kurogane's seventh birthday, the pictures ended. Instead, there was a newspaper clipping.
Seven Year Old Survives Murder Attempt ; Attacker & Victim's Family Found Dead.
Fai looked to his boyfriend, before he pulled the clipping out carefully. There was a picture of seven year old Kurogane, with his face half-pressed against his Aunt – who was holding onto him. Beaneath the picture, it explained who was in the picture.
Kurogane was in tears in the image.
Fai read in silence – not really noticing when the tears started rolling down his cheeks. All he knew was that he was reading a big moment in his boyfriends history. He was reading about the very thing that had upset him the other night...
Kurogane had been in the living room, underneath the coffee table – playing – when a man barged in. Kurogane's Father had recognized him as one Fei Wong Reed – whom he began to confront. Fei Wong Reed shot Kurogane's Father twice in the chest. Kurogane's Mother then rushed into the room – having heard the shots. She was shot once –in the leg. The coffee table was flipped over, and Kurogane had sat up – terrified. Fei Wong Reed dropped the gun, and pulled out a knife, which he used to stab Kurogane's Mother in the heart.
Kurogane had grabbed the discarded gun – knowing that there were three bullets left. (He'd known because his Father was a police officer, and had taught him about the dangers of guns). When Fei Wong Reed tried to come after him, Kurogane fired all three shots...
He called his Aunt in a panic, and called for help...And then he curled up with his Mother and spoke to her until she died...
His Aunt had showed up with her husband, and they had pried him off of his dead Mother. The ambulance had showed up, and so had some police. When the story had been explained, Kurogane had gone to his Aunt's house to stay with her family.
Fai put the clipping back in its place. He put the locket back in the binder, and set everything back into the box. When he set the box on the floor, he crawled over to his boyfriend, and into his lap.
The blonde had thought that he'd been hurt, when his Mother had died...Or when his twin went peacefully in his sleep...But Kurogane had gone through much worse...Watching his Mother and Father die...Becoming a killer himself, at the age of seven...Though he wasn't put in any sort of cell, because it was clearly self defense...
Fai cried against his boyfriend – who held him close, and tried to calm him. It seemed so backwards that it was Fai who needed the comforting, when it was Kurogane's past that had hurt him.
"Shh...Fai...Just breathe..."
"You should be the one crying right now," Fai murmured,
"You were only seven...It's not fair..."
"Life's not fair..." He pressed a kiss to the blondes lips, and then pulled back, murmuring more words of comfort.
Fai clung to him as Kurogane shifted their position, so that they were lying down. The raven pulled the sheets up around them, holding his boyfriend close.
Fai cried himself to sleep in the ravens arms.
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The blonde was up early the next morning. He could hear someone downstairs – again – and assumed that it was Subaru. He figured the male might want some company, so he carefully detached himself from his boyfriend – who woke up, still drowsy.
"Where are you going?"
"Sorry for waking you. I'm wide awake already, and I think I hear Subaru downstairs...I was going to keep him company until you were more awake...Is that okay?"
"Yeah, you just scared me."
"Sorry," Fai brushed a hand through the raven locks, and kissed the males forehead. Kurogane murmured that it was alright, and soon enough, he'd gone back to sleep.
Smiling, Fai got out of bed, and grabbed one of his t-shirts – throwing it on. He crept downstairs as quietly as he could – not wanting to wake the others.
However, upon entering the kitchen, he found Kamui. The male was trying to get the coffee machine brewing, while also attempting to cook. He had a nearly empty cup sitting on the counter, and by seeing the higher rim of the inside of it – Fai could tell that the male had had some coffee already. Which meant that he must have made himself a cup, and was now making more, for when the others started to wake up.
One machine was brewing away already, and now he was fumbling with the second machine.
He set down the kettle, and picked up his cup – drinking the remainder of his coffee. Then he seemed to realize that the food was burning, as it was sizzling...So he tried to move it with his right hand – as that was the hand that was free. He managed to burn himself in the process, and wound up knocking the food onto the floor. His glass shattered when it fell from his hand.
"Dammit!" He hissed, sinking to the floor.
Fai didn't speak and Kamui covered his face. The blonde simply plucked the half-cooked food into the garbage, and placed the pan in the sink. He then began picking up the broken glass.
"Just leave it, I'll clean it up," Kamui still had his face buried in his knees.
Fai didn't listen. He carefully picked up the pieces, and placed them into the trash. Then, he grabbed the first aid kit, and applied polysporin to Kamui's burn. The raven hissed at the contact, and Fai wrapped up his hand carefully. He put away the kit without speaking.
"So...What do you think the others would like for breakfast?"
"..."
"We can go shopping to pick up more bacon and eggs...And we'll buy breakfast today...Well, I'll buy it."
"Fai, that's too expensive..."
"I won a bet, remember? I have plenty of money to spend on breakfast! So, what do you think the others would like?"
"..."
"What's going on in here?" Subaru questioned, stepping into the room.
"Ah, Subaru, please don't step any further. Let me sweep the floor quickly first, to make sure I got all of the glass." Fai grabbed the broom, and began sweeping as he spoke.
"Glass, did something happen down here?"
"Kamui dropped a cup by accident. And burnt his hand a little bit." Fai finished sweeping, and swept his findings into the dustpan, and then into the garbage.
"Kamui! Are you okay?" Subaru rushed forwards, and hugged the male he considered a brother.
"I'm fine..." He kept his wrapped up hand tucked between his chest and his knees. His other hand was resting across the top of his right knee.
"Kamui...What's this?" Subaru gestured to the silver ring on Kamui's finger.
"...It's uh...Uhm..." His ears lit up, as did his cheeks.
Fai crouched down now, to see what all the fuss was about.
"...You're engaged?"
Kamui's blush deepened.
"Really?" Subaru was excited,
"CONGRATULATIONS!"
He wrapped his arms around Kamui's neck, and hugged him tightly. In his excitement however, he managed to accidentally bump his head on one of the cupboards.
"...Ow..."
"Are you okay Subaru?" Kamui sounded worried.
The younger male pulled back and rubbed the small pink spot on his head,
"I got so excited that I bumped my head..."
Fai and Kamui both laughed.
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The day was filled with laughter all throughout the house...Whenever Kurogane entered a room – people laughed. They couldn't help it.
He was wearing a dress.
"How's your pride?" Fuuma questioned, trying his hardest not to laugh.
"What pride?" The raven grumbled, looking away.
"Aww, poor guy. Lost his pride!"
"Maybe I can earn some of it back by kicking your ass."
"Very intimidating coming from a man in a dress."
Fai held onto his boyfriend, to keep him calm. It didn't help that he was laughing away himself. Tomoyo had been taking pictures and videos all day.
So, when nightfall hit, Kurogane stormed into his shared room, and pulled the dress off. He stashed it in the closet, and slammed the closet door – not wanting to see the damned thing.
Fai came in after him, and locked their door. He turned off the light – because the bedside table light was on. Kurogane had gone into their private bathroom, so Fai decided that now was as good a time as any. He tore off his shirt and went through the closet – looking for one of Kurogane's dress shirts. When he found one, he put it on – liking the way it dangled all around him – covering the areas that his boxers currently covered.
He was changing that too.
When all of the clothes were discarded – minus the dress shirt, he hurried into the bed. He pulled the blankets up all around him – covering himself.
When Kurogane stepped out of the bathroom in only his boxers, Fai tried his hardest not to picture what lay beneath the material. Not because the idea disturbed him...But because his nerves were rattling through him like crazy.
"There's my manly man," the blonde teased.
Kurogane glared. He turned off the bedside lamp, and climbed into bed.
"Remind me to never bet against you again."
"Aww Kergs, don't be mad."
The raven didn't answer at first, but then he sighed and turned to face his boyfriend. His eyes adjusted to the scant amount of moonlight that came in through the balcony doors. It illuminated Fai's features, and the fact that the male was wrapped up in blankets...
"Fai...C'mere. If you're cold, then you should already know that you don't have to wrap yourself up in a blanket cocoon..."
"I'm not cold."
"Then, why are you wrapped up like that?"
Fai pulled his arms free of his cocoon, and touched his boyfriends face. He rolled onto his stomach – to hide what was building up beneath the sheets, and leaned over to kiss his boyfriend.
When the raven pulled back out of the kiss, he was watching the blonde in confusion.
"Fai? What are you wearing?"
"One of your dress shirts."
"With boxers? Sounds like a weird combo."
"...No boxers. Just the dress shirt."
"..."
"...I thought you might want to restore some of your pride..." Fai's voice was flirtacious, and in the moonlight – he looked like an angel.
An angel with lustful eyes.
"...Fai..." Kurogane murmured the name – before he took over the kiss.
Fai wound up on his back, with the raven on top of him. Kurogane's member hardened slightly when he felt Fai's growing arousal against his stomach. He kissed him deeper, rolling his hips – just to test things out.
"Ahh..." Fai's moan was quiet, but it was still loud enough to catch the ravens attention. And the attention of his own growing erection...
He swept his kisses over to Fai's neck – leaving his lips parted with moans of anticipation. Kurogane undid the dress shirt with his teeth – which just increased the volume of the moans.
He tested his kisses on the way back up Fai's stomach and chest...He made mental notes of the places that made him go absolutely crazy...
When he'd recaptured his boyfriends lips, he allowed one of his hands to trace the exposed flesh of the blondes body.
The part of his brain that wasn't focused on Fai's moans, or his smooth skin, and sweet kisses...Was wondering what the hell they were going to use...
"Enough," Fai finally murmured, forcing Kurogane to sit back, so that he could sit himself up. The blonde pulled the dress shirt off and chucked it – not caring where it landed.
"Lose the boxers already," he managed to say it just loud enough for Kurogane to hear. As the raven did as he was instructed, Fai dug underneath his pillow, and emerged victoriously with a bottle.
Blushing like crazy, he handed it to Kurogane.
"...How long have you...?"
"Please don't ask. Just...Just do it..."
Kurogane's arousal gave a throb of agreement, and he accepted the bottle. He poured some of the lubrication onto his fingers, and motioned for Fai to come closer. When he had him in a good enough position, he pressed one digit into the males entrance, and the blonde winced – tightening.
"You have to ease up, or it's going to hurt more."
"I don't see you with a finger in your ass. So, shut-up."
Kurogane chuckled, leaning forward to tease one of Fai's nipples with his tongue.
"Ahh..." His body eased up slightly. The more the raven attacked his upper half, the more his body relaxed.
Kurogane began working him...Adding the other digits with timed precision...
Fai reached the point where he needed to be taken completely. And he let his boyfriend know it...
"Kurogane Suwa...If you do not take me, right now...I swear, there will be consequences."
The raven removed his fingers from the blondes entrance – chuckling a bit.
"Don't laugh at m-"
His sentence was cut off by Kurogane's lips. Fai moaned as the raven eased him into lying down.
When the raven relinquished the blondes swollen lips from his hold...The familiar blue eyes narrowed.
"Ass."
"Getting there," came the teasing murmur, as Kurogane took Fai into a kiss once more.
Fai felt the pressure at his entrance. When had Kurogane applied lubrication to more than just his fingers? He hadn't noticed. He'd been too busy being caught in the high of being touched...
One thrust had the raven buried inside of him, and Fai gasped. He whimpered. It hurt...Of course it hurt...He was a virgin, it was bound to hurt...
"Are you alright?"
"Mmhm," it was a whimper. He was okay...But it hurt like hell.
"...Fai?"
"Hm?" He had his eyes screwed shut tightly.
"...You're a virgin...Aren't you?"
"...I...I don't think the term applies at this point..."
Kurogane sighed, leaning in to kiss his boyfriend. When they parted, Fai swallowed hard,
"Kergs...Move..."
"...You sure?"
"Yes." He was sure enough to know that if they didn't get moving, then it would hurt longer...
The raven complied with the order, and pulled out, and then pushed back in. Fai was delighted to discover that – although it still hurt – the pain was subsiding.
"...Don't stop..."
Kurogane's arousal throbbed its agreement yet again, as the raven began moving with a consistent movement. Fai's moans filled the air as the raven took him through a series of things that he could barely understand through his haze...
The pounding thrusts, his boyfriend buried deep inside of him...His lips, his taste...Everything was Kurogane, and nothing else mattered...
"Ahh...Kergs..."
Fai moved with him, and against him, his body heating up to Kurogane. His moans filled the air, and he knew it drove the raven onward, motivated him to keep pushing, to keep making him absolutely senseless...
"Kergs...Nnh..."
As the male moved in and out, Fai gasped, and moaned...Every movement was precise, and yet spontaneous...And nothing else mattered.
Just the two of them, locked up in their own little world.
Kurogane's body was powerful against Fai's, and the blonde clung to him with slender arms, loving every second of this madness that had taken over them.
"Ahh...Kergs..." He felt a new tingling...It started to pool into his stomach, and he understood what was happening. His body was reaching a breaking point.
He gave the raven a warning, and Kurogane's reaction was to reach down with one hand, to pump Fai in rhythm to his thrusts.
"Ahh...Oh god Kergs...Ahh..." All Fai could feel were his boyfriends thrusts, and his warm hand wrapped around his erection – pumping him. His skin was soft, but strong, and he pulled him dangerously close to the edge.
It was within a few more thrusts that they both found their release.
Kurogane collapsed next to Fai – not wanting to crush him. Both of them were panting, and the blonde groaned.
"What's wrong?"
"My ass...Jeeze, that's going to take some getting used to." He curled up to his boyfriend.
"...Sorry..."
"Don't be. I knew it would hurt. It's going to hurt for a while. But eventually you get to the point where the pain doesn't last as long..."
"You know, the way you were acting earlier, I thought that maybe you were..."
"...Used to it? Well, I'm not. I was a virgin until tonight – thank you for curing me of that," Fai chuckled, and then squirmed,
"Not used to this either...Maybe it comes from being a clean freak, but could we, uh...?"
"You go to the washroom, and throw on some boxers while you're at it...I'll change the sheets. It's okay – I know how you feel."
Fai carefully removed himself from the bed, and rushed to the washroom. Kurogane wasn't really dirty...So he grabbed his boxers and tugged them on. Then he changed the sheets.
Fai emerged from the bathroom, wearing a pair of the ravens boxers. He also put the males dress shirt back on, before he climbed into bed.
Kurogane opened the doors to the balcony slightly.
Fai was asleep as soon as he was in the ravens arms.
TT
(A.N: So, did anyone cry at Fuuma's proposal? I felt like it should be simple, and sweet...I hope it worked. –Crosses her fingers- And GAH. I have so much trouble writing sex scenes – please forgive me. XD It's not that it bothers me (I love me some boy love), it's just that I get flustered trying to write it down...Oh well, I hope you liked it anyways...R&R? Appreciate the love you guys!
P.S: Songs I listened to while writing the last two chapters:
What If by Safety Suit.
I Dare You To Move by Switchfoot.
Pictures Of You by The Last Goodnight.
Cry by Mandy Moore.
Yours To Hold / Monster – both of which are by Skillet.)