Okay well i had two choices for this chapter and i had no idea what one to pick, they were both completely different but the wonderful Em helped me choose and i think we did good :) so anyway on with the story...
WEDNESDAY 6TH JUNE 2013 LEA'S HOUSE
Chris had been up thinking about what had happened the previous week. He hadn't really thought about it, he kept putting it off because he couldn't stand to think about what he had done but after that next, it just got him thinking and he couldn't stop 'what have I done? He was the best thing that had happened to me. I wanted it for ages and then I just let it slip out of my hands. Why am I so stupid? He must feel terrible. I'm such a horrible person. Did I have a good enough reason? Was I too harsh? I shouldn't have pushed him. Why did I push him so hard?' Chris had been trying to come up with these answers for the past 7 hours but he couldn't, there just weren't any logical answered. He did love Darren, there was no other reason he would care this much. He sat in bed thinking for hours about what he would do. He needed Darren back. But what if he wouldn't take Chris back? What if he hated Chris? Chris didn't want to think about it but he knew he had to make a plan, fast.
WEDNESDAY 6TH JUNE 2013 DARREN'S HOUSE
Darren stared blankly at the wall, focusing on one spot, trying to push the images of Chris out of his mind. The way he smelt, the way he tasted, the way his body pressed against him, the sound of him breaths, the words he would speak, the way he would say I love you then kiss Darren on the nose, the way he made Darren feel inside. NO, he couldn't think like that anymore. Chris had gone and nothing would bring him back, except fate and Darren wasn't sure he believed in that anymore. He had been waiting for Chris for 2 years; if it took longer to get him back he was willing to do it. He could never love anyone the way he loved Chris . He continued staring at that same spot on the wall for hours, but it didn't seem like it, it felt like minutes. But he had time to waste. He wasn't expecting anything to happen, except time to pass and the pain to stop and that didn't look like it was happening anytime soon.
WEDNESDAY 6TH JUNE 2013 LEA'S HOUSE
"Where are you going at this time in the morning?" Lea groaned from where she was sitting on the couch with her coffee cup in between her hands watching re-runs of Glee
"I'm going to get him back, I need him, and I was so stupid!" he quickly said as he was rushing around trying to put his shoes on and find his phone
"Finally you have come to your senses. I knew you loved him. You were always meant to be. You have to text me and tell me what happens!"
"Of course I will and Lea?"
"Yes Chris?"
"Why are you watching Glee?"
"I miss it, I'm having withdrawal symptoms"
Chris laughed at her ridiculousness even if he didn't feel much like laughing. "Whatever, I will see you later" he shouted, running towards the front door
"Only if you don't stay the night at Darren's" she shouted after him with a smirk on her face, once she heard the door click shut she let her wide grin cover her face. She was so happy for her two best friends, she knew they would be fine and they would get over all of this
Chris ran 14 blocks to get to Darren's apartment. People kept trying to stop him to get a picture or an autograph but he told them he couldn't right now and he was really sorry, he may of even pushed a few people out of the way because they wouldn't move quick enough. He was in a rush, they couldn't blame him. When he got to the doors of the apartment building he quickly ran in and frantically made his way up the stairs. He got to Darren's door and stood still to check he looked okay, he looked a mess like he had just been in the shower in his clothes and well who could blame him, he just ran 14 blocks in the pouring rain with tears running down his face so he could apologise to the man he loved, the man he would always love. He eagerly rapped his fist on Darren's door
Darren was still sitting on the couch staring at the same wall when he heard someone at his door; he slowly got up to go answer it. As he got closer to the door the person ferociously knocked again, Darren didn't bother looking through the peephole, like he normally did, to see who it was. He figured it would either be Lea or his mother to come check on him as he hadn't answered his calls with the whole 'situation.' He briskly opened the door and stood in shock at the sight standing in front of him. It was Chris, he was soaking wet from the rain outside, his hair was plastered to his forehead, his eyes were bloodshot and he was trembling, he was wearing black skinny jeans and a random old t-shirt that must of been thrown on last minute. Darren's breath caught in his throat. Damn Chris and his ability to look perfect when any normal person would look terrible.
"Chris..." Darren whispered as he stood there shocked at the image in front of him
"Darren, I'm so sorry, I should never off left you, I shouldn't have made you pick. I was being selfish. I haven't slept at all since last night since you sent me that text. I've been sitting up thinking about how horrible I was, how stupid I was, how badly I want you back and how terrible I must have made you feel. I'm such an asshole for doing that to you. I've waited for this for so long and I just let it slip through my grasp. Honestly I think I thought it was too good to be true, I thought that you would meet someone better and leave me for them and I couldn't stand being hurt like that so I left first, but truth is, leaving you last week hurt more than anything could ever hurt me, I came to the conclusion that it's better to have you for a while than not at all, at least I could have you until you find someone else, you would be mine until then, and I would be yours, I'm rambling, but basically what I'm trying to say it, I was wrong, and stupid, I shouldn't of ran when I got scared, I love you. I love you so freaking much." he said, when he finished he finally let more tears fall. Darren's heart broke as he saw the tears fall.
"There isn't anyone else, there never will be anyone else, and I want you, no one else, just you. You're not stupid or an asshole, you were scared, I'm not going to pretend that it didn't hurt because it did, but I believe you didn't mean to hurt me as bad as you did and that you're truly sorry. I love you so, so much Chris, more than I have ever loved anyone else. That text last night, I'm sorry but I couldn't stop myself. I had to find out an answer. I had to know why you left, now I know and we can work through this, I want you back Chris, and I want you to be mine, but if that's too hard and you're going to be paranoid every time I speak to someone else I'm not sure it's a good thing for either of us, but I need you to know, I would never leave you for someone else, your all I need and all I want and I want you to know that" Darren said, staying still at his place in the doorway
"I can try not to be paranoid but it will be hard. I want to be yours and only yours" Chris took a step closer to where Darren was standing
"Always and forever?" Darren reached a hand to wipe the falling tears down Chris' cheek
"Always and forever" Chris closed the gap between both of them and lightly pressed his lips against Darren's, it wasn't forced, and it was slow, light and sweet. This felt like home where they were both meant to be, in each other's arms. Darren pulled away from the kiss gently.
"Come on let's get you changed, you're going to catch a cold" Darren led Chris into the apartment by his hand, Chris got changed into a pair of Darren's sweats. He loved wearing Darren's clothes. They were so soft and comfy and more importantly they smelt like the man he loved. Darren had put his favourite film on, Mulan and they snuggled on the couch with the duvet. Chris' had was resting against Darren's chest so he could hear his heart beat. Darren had his head resting on Chris' head just inhaling everything that was Chris. They were both so content. Chris texted Lea telling her he wouldn't be home tonight and she replied saying that she truly happy for them and that to be good which made Chris giggle to himself.
"Hey... can I sing you something?" Darren asked Chris slowly not knowing what the answer would be
"Yeah sure" Chris replied dubious about what Darren was going to sing, Darren got up and collected his guitar from his office and sat on the coffee table in front of Chris
"I didn't write it, but it just seems perfect for this moment. I love you Chris. Always have, always will." Darren said as he started strumming on his guitar, Chris just smiled at the man that he hoped was now his.
I'm gonna pick up the pieces,
And build a Lego house
If things go wrong we can knock it down
My three words have two meanings,
There's one thing on my mind
It's all for you
And it's dark in a cold December, but I've got you to keep me warm
And if you're broken I'll mend you and keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on now
I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind
I'll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm gonna paint you by numbers
And colour you in
If things go right we can frame it, and put you on a wall
And it's so hard to say it but I've been here before
And I'll surrender up my heart
And swap it for yours
I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind
I'll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
Don't hold me down
I think my braces are breaking and it's more than I can take
And it's dark in a cold December, but I've got you to keep me warm
And if you're broken I'll mend you and keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on now
I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind
I'll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind
I'll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down
And out of all these things I've done I will love you better now
And with that Chris leaned it and closed the gap between. They still had to talk but for now, at least, they were happy just being.
A/N Thankyou for reading, please R+R the song in here is Lego House by Ed Sheeran, he is amazing, i think you should go check him out :) i will probably update within the next week and yes i know i said i had 3 chapters done but that was for the other option and this literally came to me this morning so there may be a bit of a delay, but I'm sorry :) thankyou so much Em, you have helped me so much so this isnt my story any more, its ours :)
love you all
C xoxo