Sooooo heres the next chaper. Its a little different than the others.

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Maria's POV-

I have done a lot of horrible things that I regret. I have killed many unmercifully, I have demolished lives, and I have stolen many things. But the thing that I hate the most that I have done is taking advantage of Jasper and using his amazing skills even though I could see how much pain and misery it caused him.

I bet you didn't think that I would admit these things to you. And I pretty sure your all thinking that I am the world's most hideous and uncaring person. I could tell you that what you're thinking is a huge lie; that I'm actually a really nice person inside. But that would be a total lie. I am a horrendous person.

You see, before I changed Jasper he was kind and very charismatic. He cared about other people and would do anything in his power to make sure others were happy. But I ruined everything. I ruined him, I ruined Nettie and Lucy, and I've ruined my own life. Everything I touch just bursts into unmanageable flames. And the worst part is that I can't take back a single ounce of horrible that I have done.

I can't remove every scar, both physical and emotional, from Jaspers body and mind. I can't take away the hate and disgust that I know he feels every time he thinks about me. I can't change the past. And as much as I wish it weren't true, I can't bring back the man that I loved.

Yes, you heard me right. Love. I loved Jasper so much. But I was too stupid to notice how I felt when he was around. I didn't care about love at the time. I only cared about power and thirst. I only wanted to win the war and I didn't care who I would have to destroy to win my prize of everlasting blood.

But if I knew then what I know now, I would have stopped the torrential downpour of murder and focus on him. Jasper, as much as he hates to admit it, is still a caring and sensitive southern gentleman. I am glad that that part of him hasn't disappeared.

I have hurt Jasper in so many ways. I have made him kill, fight, train and entertain. I turned him into my own personal puppet that would do anything that I asked of him. Jasper was always a woman pleaser. He would do anything to earn your approval and make you happy. And I took advantage of that.

He never found out about this, but I've stopped by the Cullen's house a few times in last few decades. I just wanted to make sure I didn't completely destroy his soul. I was almost positive that I would find him curled up in a corner, or maybe even fighting and jumping at everything he saw. But I was shocked by what I actually saw.

Jasper was sitting on a large white couch and on his lap sat a small woman with black hair. She was carefully running her hand over his bare chest, delicately tracing the crescent marks that I have caused. He occasionally would flinch or move away. He would then look up as if to apologize, but the girl would just wave it away. He was reading a book, well at least trying. He seemed to be quite distracted by what the petite woman was doing. After a few minutes of attempting to read, he put the book down on the table and focused his eyes on her. She whispered something into his ear and his let loose a terrific laugh. I had never heard his laugh before and I was shocked by the depth of happiness I heard in it. Jasper then turned to the girl and said, "I love you Alice".

I stayed only a minute longer, just long enough to see the start of a kiss. His and Alice's kiss looked so much more real than Jaspers and I. Now that I look back on it our kisses always seemed to be forced. Not happy and loving like the couple. But Jasper didn't look right. He seemed shy and timid. I don't know if Alice noticed it or not, but Jasper was in a protective stance. And that protectiveness only grew when the rest of the Cullen clan came down stairs. He didn't seem to trust them.

I have been back to the Cullen's house over a dozen times since that day. I wanted to make sure he was entirely happy there. I was convinced that at the first sign of unhappiness I would drag him out and we would live happily ever after.

Well that didn't exactly happen. I went there a few weeks ago and everything changed. Jasper was different. He no longer looked timid. For the first time in my long life I saw Jasper relax. He wasn't in one of his fighting stances. He just sat on the couch with Alice on his lap. The rest of the family sat around the room looking at a small girl. The family had certainly grown since I had last been there. The little girl ran up to Jasper and yelled, "Pick me up, uncle Jazz".

Jaspers eyes sparkled and light up like a full moon. I could tell that he loved that little girl. He looked like he would do anything he could to keep her safe and happy. Does that mean I didn't completely ruin him? I hope so. Even though I know he will never forgive me for the evil I have casted upon him.

I stayed a lot longer than I expected to that night. I watched Jasper tuck his niece into bed. He played her a sweet song on the guitar and kissed her forehead. After he was done with that he went and played a video game with Emmett. Jasper had a huge laughing fit when he beat Emmett at a war game. What can I tell you, don't fight against the major. Even I was never stupid enough to do that. I also got to see him talk to Rosalie and Bella. He shared a few smiles and laughs before he excused himself. He hugged his "mother" and said goodnight to his "father" before he went upstairs to join Alice. I don't know what exactly happened next, but all I can remember is a note falling from the sky. It landed right in front of the small log that I was sitting on. I opened the note and was surprised by what it said…

Dear Maria,

I think you may need to hear this. I can feel your guilt all the way up here. I forgive you. I don't hate you. Though I do hate some of the things that you've done, I can see that you've changed.

I always thought that you have ruined my life and had turned me into a monster. But with the help of my wife and the rest of my family, I know that it's not true. I am learning to think better of myself but it's hard sometimes. When I look in the mirror and see all the scars, I can't help but be remembered of you. It use to bring hate and disgust, but that's no longer the case. Now it's more of an understanding. It's also a tiny bit thankful. Without you, I would never have met Alice.

So you can move on Maria. Find the one that makes you happy. They make all the difference. Be happy.

Sincerely,

Jasper Hale

That letter changed my life. Since then I have tried my best to drink only animal blood. I also have met an amazing man who treats me nicely. I am happy now. But I will never be as happy as Jasper. Jasper is everything that I'm not. He's caring and compassionate. He's forgiving and he is a fighter for those he loves. All these things make Jasper a way better person than I.

Thanks for reading and I hope you all liked it :) Please write a review, I really love to read them. If i get a few reviews i will write another chapter in Edwards POV.