Johanna and I went for a walk today after work instead of the gym. I called in to inform Brielle ahead of time so she didn't have a heart attack or anything.

It's been a couple of weeks already and it feels like I know everything about her. It's an awkward sensation somewhat because the only other person that I understood much about was Catnip- Katniss. I have to get used to calling her by her birth given name.

Johanna Mason isn't that tough person everyone used to see. She is so much more than that. She is funny, kind, quirky, sarcastic and, well beautiful.

She is amazing.

Well back to our walk, there was a custard station set up along the way so we bought some (on me of course) and continued. Until in the very middle she mentioned something I wanted to forget completely about.

"So have you made your mind up?" she asked me between bites.

"What about?" I replied between lickings.

"You know the wedding. It's approaching faster than you may think you know," she answered.

My heart stopped for a quick second as the horrible truth sunk in. Katniss, my Katniss was getting married to Blondie. That was old news but it hurt more coming from another person's mouth.

And the truth was, she wasn't my Catnip anymore. And she'd never be. Ever. But Johanna was right. What's done is done and I can't undue the past so I have to live with the future. Someday, I will be able to mention my old hunting buddy without my heart swelling up.

"I'm...I'm not sure yet. It just hurts too much," I replied. I was afraid to face Johanna; I thought I would receive a slap or a firm lecture or even rejection. But I looked at her anyways. And she did the unexpected; I think she was actually trying to comfort me. She put her hand on my shoulder and gave me a sympathetic smile.

As we threw away what remained of our treat Johanna suddenly spoke up.

"Follow me," she said and being the ridiculous person I am, did as she told me.

We ran to a distant meadow with a beautiful picnic table and fountain. It was very lively with the sounds of animals and silence. Very peaceful and a remarkable place to think.

Johanna led me to the table and we sat facing each other.

"I want to tell you a story," said Johanna.

I was fairly surprised but all the same agreed and let her, listening intently as she spoke.

"Once upon a time there was a girl who loved life and everyone and everything in it, especially this boy she liked. His name was Clayden. They spent every living moment together, every second of every day. Best friends till the end and all of that crap. Lumberjack buddies. Well one day it was the day that everyone in the girl's district despised and feared. It was the day of the reaping."

I sat without words to say so she continued.

"The girl and the boy walked to the square together, their families in tow. Dreading when the escort would pick the names. For the girl and the boy were in love, meant to last forever. But fate wasn't on their side that day for Clayden was picked to die."

I was still quiet.

"In the Justice building the girl and the boy embraced as she cried her heart out. He told her she shouldn't fear that she should be strong and that he would come home to her. To seal it he gave the girl a locket with a picture of him and her in it. Together and smiling, laughing. The memory seemed centuries old though in reality, only the day before."

"She kissed him and little did she know that she would for the very last time. The boy didn't come back to her; he was murdered by the filthy hands of the capitol. In their horrifying games." she finished, a tear downing on her face but she quickly wiped it away.

"Gale, do you know who that girl was?" she asked me.

I thought back replaying and replaying it in my head until I finally hit the realization of it.

"It was you wasn't it?" I asked her in shock.

She gave me a sad smile and nodded. "You see Gale, life is completely insane. You could be dilly dandy one day and depressed the next. Or in your case your best friend could be getting married to someone other than yourself. And trust me; I understand that it hurts more than anything. But at least she isn't dead. She's going to be happy. She's going to be even more joyful if you be there. On the most important day of her entire life. Doesn't she deserve at least that much out of the horrors of our older Panem?" she finished.

And the truth was Johanna was completely right. I at least owed her that much. At the very least. And did we not promise each other we would be there forever? No matter what? I broke that promise. I have to go and make it right.

We neared her house. As big as mine and as fancy. But she doesn't have an avox cooking her meals, though I wasn't about to mention that and be stupid enough to receive a kick to my abdomen.

When we got to her gate, she turned to face me. Her brown eyes boring into my grey ones. "So I'm going to ask you once more. Are you going to the wedding?" she asked.

My answer was definite and my choice was made. "Yes."

She smiled. "About time." and walked to her house when I yelled "Thanks Johanna!"

She stopped to laugh. "Duh brainless!" she yelled back and when she entered her house I saw a female with red hair.

Huh. Maybe she did have an avox cooking her meals... After all Johanna Mason can't make a sandwich for her life.

Gale

Sorry about how short this was but I kind of needed his answer to the wedding question. PLUS it's a diary entry… anyways I was thinking you guys, should there be an accident? Like maybe one day, Posy went out to play and she never returned or something? Either way something bad needs to happen, to Posy. I put a poll up and I will have it up for three days. If there are more yes's then I will make it happen in an upcoming chapter. And vice versa. Though the catch is that I wont tell you which chapter its going to be in. Like for instance I could totally freak you out in lets say the next chapter but nothing will happen to Posy. Yep, im that ridiculous. Well don't forget to vote my pretties and may the odds…well you know the rest.

-Jozette