Hi everyone! I am so sorry it has taken me so long to update this story! I started two other stories and I have a third one running around in my head! To make up for the long wait, I made this really long for all of you! Please read and review! There's only a chapter or two left on this story!
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EPOV
As I lay on the couch in Carlisle's office, I watched her standing by the only window in the office. I don't need Jasper's gift to figure out how she's feeling. She's mad, frustrated and a little confused. I keep watching her squint her eyes in frustration, as she looks outside and then she bangs her tiny fist on the windowsill. She does this over and over again. She hasn't noticed that I'm awake yet, but I don't want to alert her. I can tell she's trying to figure something out, like she's trying to make up her mind. She grasps the windowsill with hands, lowering her head and raising up her shoulders. She's silent, but I can tell that there's a battle within. She's sighs and raises her head up and glances over at me.
"You're awake." She says without much enthusiasm. I was kind of hurt by this, she didn't run over to my side taking up my hand and holding it close to her heart. She just stood there watching me.
"Yes, love, I'm awake." She laughed, but it wasn't the laugh that I was used to, there was a sort of hardness to it. She turned around and leaned against the window, with her arms folded over her chest and watched me. Her face was blank, but then turned hard.
"Don't you ever call me that again?" There was hatred in her voice; I have never heard my Bella use that tone of voice with me. It shocked me and I wanted to go over to her, but before I could move she had marched out of the office. I sat up from the couch and ran my fingers through my hair. How did all of this happen? When did it all become so messed up?
"You did this, you know." Said a tinkling voice from the doorway. I looked up to see Alice standing there. "If you hadn't insisted on leaving her, here all alone, none of this would have happened. It's your fault." Her voice was rising with each sentence.
"I was protecting her. I just wanted her safe, Alice." I said as I tried not raising my voice at her. She came over and sat down next to me.
"I told you, it was a mistake. I told you that leaving her wouldn't be a good idea. You wouldn't listen to me and now not only have you lost Bella, but I lost Jasper too." She'd be crying if she could. "If you would have just let us stay and work through this, we wouldn't be in this position now." She was mad at me, but I'm mad at her too.
"Weren't you the one, who sent Jasper away? You remember THAT Alice? You were the one who told him that you didn't love him anymore. So how is THIS, my fault?" She looked at me in shock, just like Bella had never been so cold to me; I had never been so cold to Alice.
"I'm sorry, Alice." I said as I tried wrapping an arm around my pixie of a sister, but she slapped my arm away.
"No, no, you're right. This is as much my fault as it is yours." She stood up from the couch and walked away, but before she left the room, she looked back at me. "He loves her, you know." She said sadly "She doesn't know it yet, but she loves him too." She left the room, leaving me alone with my thoughts.
Bella loves Jasper? How could this be? I put my head in my hands and sobbed tearlessly into them.
BPOV
After I left Edward in Carlisle's office, I went outside and sat on the big rock in the Cullen's front yard. I had once pictured myself, after I turned into a vampire, arm wrestling Emmett. It will never happen now. Speaking of Emmett, I can hear him walking towards me, he and the rest of the Cullen's arrived shortly after Edward passed out yesterday. I haven't spoken to any of them. I'm mad at them, especially Emmett. I really saw him as the big brother I never had, where was he when I needed him?
"Hi Emmett." I said before I turned to look at him.
"How'd you know it was me?" I laughed a little to myself.
"You're the only vampire I know, who makes noises when you walk." I said as a scooted over to let him sit next to me on the rock. He sat down and we both quietly stared out into the forest. Angry tears started rolling down my face, I didn't want to be mad at him, but I was he left me just like the rest of them.
"Bella, I'm so-"
"NO! No," I started as I jumped off the rock to face him. "Don't say that word! I don't want to hear it. You left me. How could you?" I was yelling at him and I could see the rest of the Cullen's coming out of the house and standing on the porch watching us. "Do you have any idea what I went through? Do you know what it was like for me when I found out you left? I thought I was like your sister. Family doesn't leave anyone behind. Family sticks by each other through the good times AND the bad times." I raised my voice every time I said family. "You guys were always talking about how we were a family and that I completed it." I felt my anger diminish ever so slightly as the pain in my heart grew. "But you all left me, without even saying good-bye." I said as my voice broke and I looked up into the eyes of the people I once called family. Just like with Emmett, I don't really want to be mad at them, but they hurt me. They hurt me so deeply that I wasn't sure where that left us.
I didn't want to be here anymore. I didn't want to be around that family anymore. I can see Jasper watching me and the look on his face is heartbreaking... I want him to come away with me, but I can't take him from his family. I can't ask him to leave them for me. I'm not even sure how I feel about him at this moment. I turned away from the Cullens, suddenly wanting to be alone and I took off towards the forest. I know it would only take seconds for any of them to catch up with me, but I heard Alice telling them that I wanted to be alone.
I ran deep into the forest, not even caring that I had fallen several times and scraped my hands and caught my hair on a branch. I had to get away. As I ran I kept thinking about everything that has happened since I first moved to Forks. So, many bad things have happened. Why did I move here? Why didn't I stay with Renee and Phil? None of this would have happened if I had just stayed with them. The Cullen's wouldn't have had to save me all the time, but every time they did, they always said they wouldn't have it any other way. After all of that I've been through with them and then they just leave! Without even so much as a 'good-bye' they all just left me, like I had meant nothing to them at all. Only Jasper, of all people, returned to watch over me. Why wasn't it Edward? Did I really mean that little to him. That thought made me angry and I had stopped running for a moment, but with that last burst of angry, I took off again.
I had been running and walking for hours. Stopping every now and again to let my anger and frustration out on a bush or small tree. I had no idea that I had so much pent of anger and frustration, but it felt good to let it all out. I'm getting tired though and I should head back, but I came across a moss covered log and sat on it instead. I could hear a creek nearby and I listened to the water as it splashed over everything in its path. I have a headache from crying and thinking too much, but I felt strangely at peace. As I sat here thinking and going over everything in my head, I had come to a final conclusion. I would leave the Cullen's. I would leave them before they could leave me again. I would miss Jasper terribly, but he should be with his family. I don't think I have developed deep feelings for him, I mean I only found out yesterday that he was even here in Forks, and he should be with Alice anyway. He belongs with her and not with someone like me.
I think it's time for me to move to Florida and stay with Renee and Phil now. She would like that, Renee tells me every time she calls, that I can come home whenever I'm ready. So I think it's time and I'm ready to be home and put all of this behind me. I know Alice must have seen my decision and had informed the family. I have a feeling they will try stopping me, but my decision is final. They won't be able to persuade me on this.
As I look around, I realize that I have no idea where I am, but I really hope I'm in La Push territory. I know my truck is still at the beach and I should get back to it. Plus the Cullen's won't be able to touch me if I'm on the other side of the treaty line. I got up off the log and brush the leaves and debris off my pants. I'm glad Jasper took me home for a bit this morning; I had changed into pants and a warm sweater and put on tennis shoes. My heart ached a little as I thought about him again. I had to put him out of my mind though, the Cullen's will catch up with me any second and I don't want to deal with them right now. So, I took off in what I'm hoping is the right direction. It was only a moment later when I started hearing the Cullen's calling my name.
"Bella! Please wait!" I heard Esme's sweet voice calling to me.
"Don't do this Bella. Let's talk about this." I guess Edward is feeling better now, but he's the last person who could change my mind though.
I could tell that they're gaining on me. Darn those vampires and their vampire speed. I saw Edward burst through the trees and it startled me and I fell to the ground, but as I was falling, something on a tree about ten yards in front of me, caught my eye. It was a dream catcher, like the one Embry had made for me a few weeks ago. I just have to get to that tree and then they can't get to me. I stood up on my feet as the rest of the Cullen's came into my view and I glanced back at the tree. This would be a long shot. There's seven of them and they're all faster than me.
"Don't do it Bella." I heard his voice and my eyes filled instantly with tears. I don't know why he has this effect on me. "Please Bella, don't leave me." He's breaking my heart, but he doesn't belong to me, he belongs to Alice. I felt myself become determined; I would do this for him. So he could be happy and not have to worry about me ever again. He could live his life with Alice and never again think about the human girl that had caused his family so many problems. I ran towards the tree as fast as my legs could carry me, but then his voice cut through my heart again.
"Bella, I'm sorry!" He yelled and I stopped running, my feet freezing to the ground. I didn't turn to look at him; I just kept my eyes on the tree in front of me. I can almost touch it. "Bella, I'm sorry for attacking you, I'm sorry for leaving you, I'm sorry for not talking to you sooner, but I am NOT sorry for falling in love with you." He doesn't mean it, he can't mean it. He loves Alice, not me. At least that's what I will keep telling myself. The sooner I'm gone, the better. I want so desperately to turn and look at him, but I can't. I can't look into his eyes, because if I do... I know I won't go through with this and I have to do this. I have to do this for him. So, I take a deep breath and run across the treaty line and hide myself behind the back side of the tree and sink down to my knees and cover my face with my hands as I start to cry.
It's getting dark now and it's getting cold. I can barely keep my eyes open as I try to find my way back to my truck. I tripped over another root and I just laid here. Wow, this feels familiar. It's not like I've never been lost in this forest before. At least this time, it's me leaving. I smiled to myself; I am stronger than I think. This pain in my heart will pass sooner or later. At least I hope it will. I keep playing Jasper's words over and over in my head. Could he really love me? My heart skipped a beat when I thought about that. Ugh, I need to get up again. I can hear wolves in the distant and I really don't want to become their midnight snack. I pushed myself up on my feet again and started walking. Only to stop suddenly. Wolves? There aren't wolves in Forks. They're not native to this area. Native? I stood there searching my brain, there's something that I'm missing here. Something that I'm forgetting.
Wolves... why is this ringing a bell? Wolves, wolves, wolves, I kept repeating in my mind and then it hit me. Jacob! Oh my gosh! The wolves, cold ones, the treaty... it was hitting me like a ton of bricks! It was Jacob who told me about the cold ones! Is it true? What he told me about his tribe's legends? Is he a werewolf? Is that why he and Embry stopped talking to me? I felt completely overwhelmed by this revelation. I could still hear the wolves, but they're sounding further away. Are they looking for me? So, I did the only thing I think of, I screamed their names.
"Jacob! Embry! I'm over here!" Wow that felt weird. I would feel really stupid if I was wrong and I'm about to be eaten by wolves. I could hear the sounds of something large running towards me, crashing through the bushes and underbrush. It got quiet all of a sudden and I hid myself being a tree and I waited and then I heard something.
"Bella?" It was getting to dark now, but I could make out his figure about fifteen yards from where I was hiding. I waved my arm at him as I squinted to see him better.
"Embry! Is that you?" I said as I started stumbling over to him.
"Yes, it's me! Please stay right there and don't hurt yourself." He said laughing as he reached me. I felt relief wash over me as I realized that I was safe. I launched myself at him as he caught me in his arms. I felt him relax in my arms. "Bells, what were you thinking? Taking off into the forest again? Gosh you scared us." I let go of my death grip on him. I was a little confused.
"How'd you know I was out here?" He paused and gave me a funny like, like he wasn't sure if he should tell me.
"Jasper, he came found us shortly after you took off into our side of the treaty. Bells-" He paused and scratched his head. "What are you doing? He saved your life and now you're leaving him? Were you even going to tell Jake and me that you were moving? What? Where you just going to leave in the night and not say good-bye to us?" I couldn't believe it, but I saw a tear roll down his cheek. "Do you have any idea how much that would have hurt us? Hurt me?"
To be honest, I hadn't even thought about Jake and Embry. I just wanted to get away from the Cullen's and start my life over. I'm a jerk. I'm worse than I jerk, I'm scum! How could I do that to them?
"You once told me, how much it hurt you that the Cullen's left and didn't give you any explanation and here you are doing the exact same thing to me and Jake?" He was right. Everything he was saying was right. I don't even know if I would have said anything to Charlie either. I just was thinking about myself.
"Oh my gosh, Embry. I am so sorry!" I said as I jumped into his arms. He and Jake are my best friends. How could I do that to them?
"Please, just don't leave, Bells. We'll figure this out together. Gosh, I can't believe I'm going to say this," he said as he put me back on my feet. "Now, I don't know how you figured out what I am, but I figure since you know that, you also must know how I feel about your precious Cullen family?" He looked at me and I nodded my head. Immortal enemies... gotcha. "Jasper is a good person. He's crazy about you Bella. I can't imagine how hard it must have been for him to pull you out of the water and have to ask us for help. I wish you could have seen him Bella, if you had just seen the way he was looking at you, you wouldn't be trying to run away from him." He ruffled my hair a bit and smirked. "He's crazy in love with you kid."
I couldn't help but smile as Embry told me this. I felt my heart warm up and I wanted more than anything to go see Jasper. Embry smiled and picked me up and swung me up on his back.
"Come on, I'll take you to your leech!" I laughed at the nickname and held on tight as Embry took off to find Jasper.
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