My mom entered the room without me telling her to come in and she was holding a piece of paper in her hands.

"Hey sweetie, how are you feeling?" She sat down on my bed and rubbed my shoulder.

"I feel like shit."

"Awww Logie. Look, I know you miss Carlos, I do too. He was a very sweet, polite and kind boy, It's a shame he left so soon, but I have something to cheer you up."

She held up the note. "A woman from the hospital wanted to give you this note. She said that her name was Alice or something like that."

A woman from the hospital named Alice? Of course! She was the nurse that was with Carlos and writing stuff down on her clipboard!

Flashback

"He's awake now, but in very bad shape. He might not live for long." Said the doctor, who was rubbing my back. "I'll leave you four alone, c'mom Alice." He gestured at the nurse who was talking with Carlos and writing stuff down on a piece of paper to leave the room. She nodded, kissed Carlos's forehead and quickly walked out, not making any eye contact with us.

End of Flashback

I sat up and looked at the note that my mom was holding up. "I remember who Alice was, She was a nurse who was at the hospital. She was writing something down on a piece of paper."

My mom nodded. "Yes Logan, This piece of paper was what she was writing down, Before Carlos died, he told Alice that he wanted to write a note to you but he was too weak to write it. He told Alice what he wanted to say to you and she wrote it down. I'll leave you alone with it."

She gave me the note, kissed my forehead, smiled and walked out of the room. I smiled too. A note from Carlos. He wrote a note for me before he died. I slowly opened it up and read what it said.

Dear Logan,

Hi Logan, It's Carlos. That hockey accident I had was painful. I can't move my neck and my back. I'm paralyzed from the waist down. I can't play hockey with you guys anymore because I'm stuck in a wheelchair. Maybe we could play air-hockey instead? Sorry for going off topic. I was trying to make myself feel better. But look at me, I'm broken. I'm not going to live for very long. I heard the doctors talking. They said I was going to die very soon. It broke my heart, but I knew it was true. I asked Alice to write down everything I wanted to say to you. By the time you read this, I'm probably dead but hey, I'm watching over you, so I'm always with you.

My last words were "Stay Gold" right? I planned on saying that to you before I died. But if I didn't, do you remember that sunset we saw a few month ago out on the open field, Wow, that was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my life. Thanks for bringing me out to show me it; it made me see a brighter side of life. And the poem you told me, the one by Robert Frost, the message was that you're gold when you're a kid, like green. When you're a kid, everything is new, like dawn. It's just when you get used to everything that it's day. Like the way you like sunsets, that's gold. Keep it that way. It's a good way to be. Remember, whenever you watch a sunset, I'll be there watching it with you, even though you can't see me. I didn't write a note to Kendall or James because they don't understand what we do. It's like our own special connection we have. I know that you love me, and I love you too. I just never told you that, until now. Don't try to do anything stupid. It would break my heart to see you hurt. I'll always be there for you.

I love you so much Logan, Never forget that, Stay Gold.

Your Good Friend and Lover,

Carlos Geraldo Garcia.

When I finished reading the note I was in tears. He loved me. He loved me even though he never had the guts to admit it. I felt proud to say that I changed Carlos's life forever in a positive way and it was depressing that he died at a young age. He had so much to live for. Even though I couldn't see him, I knew he was always with me. I was thinking about cutting to try and end my endless pain but I made a promise to Carlos to not hurt myself and do anything stupid. He will help me get through this. When he said "Stay Gold," It touched my heart. I'll always stay gold for Carlos.

Future

We continued Big Time Rush without Carlos but we knew he was right by our sides even though we couldn't see him. It felt like Three Time Rush without Carlos. We did complete some amazing goals during our time. We created 5 album, #1 on the Billboard Top 100, be on the front cover of Rolling Stones magazine 5 times and all of our albums went platinum including the albums BTR & Elevate. The albums that Carlos sang in. But that was ages and ages ago. We separated many years ago because of our differences and other dreams we had besides become a famous band. James wanted to become a professional model and create a famous line of perfumes, hairsprays etc. Kendall wanted to continue his dream to play centre for the Minnesota Wild in the NHL and after that he wanted to become a famous movie director. For me, I continued my dream to become a doctor. All of our dreams came true. James moved to New York, Kendall stayed in LA & I went back to Minnesota to continue school and become a doctor. That was ages ago too.

We had our own families now. Kendall married Jo Taylor a few years after she left New Zealand and came back to LA to spend time with Kendall. They grew up happily with 5 children. 2 twin boys and three girls. Surprisingly, James married the rocker chick Lucy Stone and they moved out of LA to New York to peruse their dreams. Lucy eventually became extremely famous and toured across the world. She's known as "The Greatest Rocker Chick To Ever Live". They had 2 wonderful children. One boy and one girl.

Me? Nah. I never got married. I never got married because I loved Carlos. Carlos was my husband even though he was dead, but he was right here next to me. It might seem crazy but it's not. It's true love. I had adopted one son to raise and keep me company because I didn't have a spouse who was alive. His name was Julian but his nickname was Carlos. We spent tons of time together and every day when it was nice we would walk over to the field that was a few minutes away from house and watch the sunrise. We went to the same field that me and Carlos went to one late summers day. Sometimes I could feel something tap my shoulder, but it wasn't Julian. I said that it was Carlos telling me that he was here but maybe it was my imagination acting up? Who knows? But yet again, that was ages ago. Julian is all grown up now, moved away from Minnesota, married to a beautiful girl and had wonderful kids. Same with Kendall & James's kids. Since Julian had left me, I had been continuing the tradition of watching the sunrise every nice morning.

One morning, I laid down on the grass carefully, despite the wrinkly & delicate shape my old self was in and watched the sunrise. Today I felt weaker than usual, I didn't know why but I guess that's why happens when you become an old man. There was the usual. A thick gold line crossing the horizon, the clouds changing from gray to pink and the mist was touched was gold. The sun rose, and lit up everything. It was beautiful. Suddenly everything got quiet. The birds that usually chirped stopped and the light sound of the breeze was silent. I felt something tap my shoulder, but nobody was there. I might be getting delirious or that was Carlos giving me a signal that he was here. I glanced at the sunset. I loved the sunsets. They were the most precious piece of earth that god had gave to us. I started feeling more weak and tired, was this normal? Then in a very audible sound I heard somebody say "Stay Gold Logan, Stay Gold." I turned around, and nobody was there! I knew that it wasn't my imagination this time. It was Carlos. He was here.

I got even more tired, and I closed my eyes. I kept hearing that voice saying "Stay Gold." It kept saying that until my body sank into the grass, It kept saying that until it was my time to go.

It was amazing what happened next. I was all alone in a white, misty room. I was turned back into the 16 year old Logan Mitchell that I had once been and I wearing all white clothes. I was confused at first, I didn't know what happened. I looked down and I could see where my dead was, lying peacefully in the grass. I then realized I was in heaven. My body was dead but my soul was here in heaven. I quickly thought about Carlos. I'm here with Carlos. Where is he? Suddenly a figure walked slowly towards me, it was dark at first but when it came out of the mist, It was Carlos. My beautiful and lovely Carlos that I lost over 70 years ago was here with me. He was wearing white clothes too, his neck and back were not in a brace and he was walking!

He walked up to me and smiled. "I'm glad you're here Logan, or should I say Mr. Garcia. Stay Gold." He held my hand tightly, kissed my lips and we walked away together into the dark mist…..We were here to stay together, forever.

We were gold, forever.