Hey guys! :) I have a really good idea (I think so) on a new story for Victorious! :) But, I don't know if I should post it till I get some of these stories finished up.. what do you think? For those of you who read "Her New Life" By me, I want to finish it off and just do a sequel maybe in a while. What do you guys think? Tell me with PM or a Review! Just give me your opinion, please! :)

Chapter 4 of Don't Let me Cry just Let me Die.

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Jades POV

The blood made my body numb. It was all draining out way to fast. I felt my head go weak. The cuts were covered with blood, you couldn't even see it, not a tad bit. I don't know why I cut so deep on some of them, I just needed pain, and the only way to get that right now that I know of is through my father, or through myself. And I would much rather choose myself to give me pain.

At least I have control of that.

I relaxed my head on the fence, and I closed my eyes.

I started to dream... More like started having a nightmare.

"I don't know where you are!" I yelled, but not sure to who.

"I am over here!" Many, many, voices yelled. I didn't recognize them at all because they all clashed together.

"Hello? Who is there?" I spoke, I could control my dream... soon to be a nightmare, I could feel it. I could only control myself, nothing around me. How do I do this? I have never done this before. I have never been able to do this.

"Hello." They all said, once again.

Music played in the background. I turned around, looking for anything. It was all black, just a spotlight on me. But there was people, all around me, I could feel them staring at me. Light bounced off something though... in the distance.

"What is that?" I whispered to myself, but it came out as a yell.

"Go check..." They all said again." I shivered with fright.

"Who is there? Who are you people?" I yelled.

"Shhhh." They hushed me.

I couldn't speak.

Nothing was able to come out, my mouth would move, but my words didn't come out, nothing would.

Suddenly they all started screaming, it sounded like nails on a chalk board. That horrible, horrible sound. I noticed that everything was in black and white. Everything. Not that there was much things that could have color, the whole place was black, then there was me. But everything, it was just tinted so weird.

I slowly walked towards the object though, putting my fears aside. Telling myself "Its only a dream, nothing can hurt me." But I was afraid that maybe I was wrong, even though I really knew that I wasn't.

I finally got to the object, it looked so close, but it was so far away.

A knife... A knife was on the ground, with its own spotlight.

My knife.

The one that I cut with.

(A/E This is really a dream I had, I was terrified!)

I am so confused. What is going on?

"Jade!" They all yelled, it echoed in my ears. The pain.

"Daddy is coming Jade, wait right there."

"NO! Keep my 'Daddy' away! Please."

No response. I picked up the knife. I held it on my wrist. Slice. No pain. None at all. Not even the pity pain that I feel when I am awake, not even the fake pain. Nothing. So I did it again, and again, and again. My arms ended up filled with cuts, no pain shot through me. I felt nothing. So I took the knife, and I put it straight into my stomach. No pain, just a lot of blood... everywhere.

"Here I come Jade. Scared?" He was so close, I could hear him whisper that, but when I looked around, I couldn't see him.

I stabbed my self again, right next to my other wound in my stomach.

"Why isn't there pain?" I asked. I just heard laughter.

I felt a hand go down my back.

Dad...

He reached the bottom of my back and stopped.

"Ready?" He asked me. I sobbed, blood rushing out of me, and my heart pounding. But it was so normal. So I let him.

"Yes sir." He continued running his hand, down to my butt. I closed my eyes, holding my breath, as he turned me around and pushed his hand down my pants.

I took the knife... You would think I would have stabbed him, killed him. I took it and I slit my throat. The blood. I could see it go all over him before..

I woke up.

I had the knife in my hand and my fingers were bleeding.

"Why was I holding the blade in my hand?" It had cut my hand badly. But I didn't care. It was pretty much morning. So I ran to Tori's hose and I washed my arms off. Waiting for my hand to stop bleeding.

But that is when I felt my body go numb, and I fell to the ground.

Hope you guys liked this chapter, it might be kinda boring, sorry! :( But really! Please tell me about what I talked about WAYY up there! :] Go ahead, you know you want to.

Again thank you all for all the support that I am getting! I woke up this morning with 23 messages from people making sure that everything is going okay.

You guys really make me stronger.

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God Bless all of you!

Sierra~~