Thank you guys, still, I am getting such great support with all of the things going on right now. I really appreciate everything that you guys are doing for me! It really means a lot to know I have people out there for me, even if they might life in so many different parts of the world. It just shows we are all alike.

Really guys. I can't thank you enough. By the way, I will be on vacation starting tomorrow, not to sure if I will be able to update! So excited! Pray for us? Slippery roads, blizzard, and a 27 hour drive, without stopping. My parents are going to be really tired!

Jades POV

I woke up, hours later. There wasn't anyone around me. I picked up my phone. 3:27 P.M.

School is almost out! I noticed the message icon at the top of my screen. Going to messages, 6 new messages.

-Jade! Where are you? You are missing the play!- Tori

Oh yeah! I forgot that we had a play today! It doesn't matter, its not like anyone would have noticed me anyways.

-Jade? Where are you? Seriously call me asap- Tori

-Jade! I found a mouse in a pet store today. It was black. Like your hair.- Cat.

My god Cat. Really?

-Hey, Tori wants to know where you are- Andre

-Yo girl! The play is happening. Where are you?- Rex

-Hey... Jade? Um. So I have been hearing that things are not going okay for you. Whats going on... just because we broke up doesn't mean that you can't come to me about things in your life.- Beck.

I read the message over and over again.

Really? He had the guts to text me, after he ripped my heart out and made me feel worthless, like I was nothing.

-Beck, I don't want anything to do with you.- Me.

I sent the text, hesitantly. I didn't know if I really wanted to be so mean to him. I mean he was only trying to help, but I mean, he is also the one who broke my already broken heart. Isn't that pain enough. I don't want to have to go through the pain every time I text him, of not having him.

-Jade, I am only trying to help you.- Beck

-Well I don't need your help Beck, haven't you helped me enough with hurting me?- Me

-I didn't mean to hurt you. I had to leave, long distance never works.- Beck

-You didn't even try.- Jade

-You never gave me the chance to explain.- Beck

-Yeah! Because you kicked me out!- Jade

-Because you were being annoying.- Beck

Tears fell down my face.

-Oh, so I am annoying. Well fine. Okay. Well then we are in agreement, don't ever text me again, I don't want anything to do with you and its obvious you don't want anything to do with me. Have a good life Beck. Goodbye.- Me

A long wait for his text.

I thought maybe he just wasn't going to respond.

-Goodbye Jade.- Beck

So its final. We are no longer talking.

-But, if you ever need anything, even though we are no longer friends, I am still here for you.- Beck

I wanted to text him back so bad.

So I did.

-I don't need your help. You have helped enough.- Me

-Fine.- Beck

I rolled my eyes, full of tears. I threw my phone as far as I could away from me. I pulled my knees to my chest and cried.

I heard Tori talking by her door. So I quickly made sure I was out of sight, so no one would see me till I wanted to be seen.

"I know, I don't know what is going on with her, I wonder why she wasn't at school today." Tori said. Not to sure to who though.

"Not sure, she might of just needed a break from the place where Beck and her were always at." Andre said.

Great. I ran to my house after they were both comfortably in Tori's. I, as usual, climbed up to my window, hopped into my room. I got myself some new clothes, of course black. I don't know why people find it weird that I like to wear all black, but to put a name on me, goth, is dumb. I shouldn't be criticized about what I wear.

I got into the shower when I saw my dad wasn't even home, of course. I got out, putting on my red bra looking at my stomach, so fat. So ugly. My body all together was. I wonder why I deal with it...

I quickly got dressed into my loose clothing slipped on a sweatshirt, my shoes, and redid my makeup, and headed over to Tori's house. I take my phone out of my purse to see I have had 3 missed calls from her, and 5 from Andre. I also got many texts.

-Hey! You are really worrying me! Could you please call me back? Beck said he talked to you today, did that go okay? Why are you not answering ME?- Tori

-Hey, I heard that Beck was talking to you today! What did he say? You can come over if you want if you are really upset, or if you just want to!- Cat

I started to text Cat back, when I decided that maybe that wasn't such a good idea. But I did text Tori to make sure it was okay that I came over.

-Tori, look I know that I haven't been answering anybody today, but I can explain, if you let me come over. I really need to talk to you... and only you...- Me

Yes, I was trying to get Andre out of the house. I was planning on telling her about my cutting. Why I was doing it, more into detail, tell her about my dad. I mean I don't think that I will, but I don't want to Andre to see me cry.

-Okay! Andre just left my house, Trina went out with her... 'friends'... so I am the only one here! Come on over!- Tori

-Okay thanks, Tori! I will be over there in like 5 minuets- Me

I quickly climbed down my house, and ran quickly to my car to get out of here as soon as possible. I was afraid my dad would be here soon, and I wanted to leave before he did.

Luckily I did, I got out of there before my dad got home, if he is even going home tonight. Who knows with him, he might be hooking up with a new girl tonight. He is always bringing new girls home, then throwing them away like they are nothing, like they aren't even people.

I got to Tori's house and knocked on the door. Taking deep breaths so I wouldn't cry. I knew that if I looked at her, I would feel so much pain, and I don't know why. She opened the door, I quickly got passed her and curled myself up on the couch.

"Tori.." I said quietly.

"Whats up? What's wrong?" She asked.

"I know that I have... never been a good person.. I know that I have never been nice to you, or Cat, or Andre, or Robbie, or -" She interrupted me.

"Jade.." Tori spoke, it made me calm and slow down a little.

"And I know, I know I wasn't the best girlfriend... so tell me the truth.. please. Did he not try the long distance, because I wasn't a good enough person for him." She looked down for awhile, like she was really thinking about it... but also like she had a secret that she didn't want to tell me.

"Jade... 3 years ago, before you guys got together. Beck dated this girl Melanie. He said they were extremely in love, well that is what he thought. He said he was young and stupid, and he said if love is what he had to do to get sex... he would. So he really thought he loved this girl because she would sleep with him when ever he wanted, and most of the time, she would just come over because she wanted to."

"What.." I have never heard this before.

"The point is, that he said he would do anything to get it, till he met you. He said as soon as he met you, he wanted you, and not in bed, as a person, for you to be his. Because he really did love you. He really DOES love you. He figured out that she wasn't the girl when she moved away, he figured out without the temporary bliss... they were nothing to each other. I am guessing the reason he ended it before he moved, is because he doesn't want you to loose the feeling, he doesn't want to loose the feeling of what you guys have. Or had. He wants to be able to hold on that feeling, and if when the relationship ended he was happy and in love with you, then he will be able to hold onto the feeling of being in love with you a lot easier if it doesn't get drawn apart because you two are in a long distance relationship." Tori said sincerely. Even though that was a lot to take in, that was good to hear.

"You really thing so."

"Yes.. I really do. But know that I have told you my secret. Tell me yours, why are you still cutting..?"

Long sleeves.. how did she know?

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Sierra~~