Hey guys :) This is chapter six for "Don't Let Me Cry Just Let Me Die". I hope you guys enjoy it. If you like Victorious FF with Cat and Robbie, you can check out my other story "Cat Can't Come Back". That is, if you'd like! :) I want to, again, thank you all for being so supportive on my trip to recovery. It means a lot to know that I have people out there that don't even know me, that care. It really does make me smile!

God Bless

Sierra~~

Jade's POV

I looked at her, confused and mad. Mad at myself. How could I be so careless about keeping this hidden? How could I be so careless about this?

"How do you know?" I ask quietly. Looking at her then at my arms, making sure there is no sign that shows I am cutting.

"Well. I didn't. But I kind figured. I kinda figured that you were still." She looks at me with pain in her eyes.

"Look Jade. I don't want you to do this! You know Beck isn't worth this pain." She says.

"Yes he is! If that was the only reason I am cutting. But it isn't." I say, getting angry at her. How could she say that Beck wasn't worth the pain? Of course he is. He is the only one that could keep me safe. He was the only one that understood, even when he didn't know anything that was going on with my father.

"What?" She asks confused.

"Nothing. I have to go." I say, getting up about to leave.

"No! Jade!" Tori says, jumping over the couches, past me and she leans on the front door.

"I am not letting you go." She says.

"Tori. Please just let me le-"

"NO!" She screams, grabbing my hand and leading me to the couch again. I moan, but follow. I didn't really want to leave anyways.

"Jade. You can trust me. Please tell me what is going on." She says sincerely. I don't say anything, just looked blankly at nothing.

"Jade." Tears were building up. I wanted to rip my skin apart. Letting the blood come out, quickly, and harshly.

"Jade?" I began to sob. Breaking down. I throw my hands to my face, catching the tears with the cloth that covered my hands. She hugged me. What a good friend. Friend.. Still is weird to think of her as one. When I was finished crying so hard that I couldn't talk, I sat back and I took a few deep breaths.

"Are you going to tell me?" I slowly nodded.

"But you have to promise me, Tori. Promise me that you will not tell anyone! Ever!" I say. "Seriously." I am taking a huge risk. I am taking a huge risk, this could change my life. She could tell the school, then suddenly I am either dead, or being shipped away to some foster care.

"Okay. I promise Jade. I promise." She says looking at me worried. Tears kept running down my face, but I was able to talk in between crying.

"I have been cutting for a while. I.. I um.. I don't know... I don't know why.. but.. my father.. he doesn't love me.." I say. Maybe that was enough.

"What?" She asks confused.

"My father is abusive to me." I say, back to crying into my hands.

"Jade? Are you serious?" She asks, concerned. I just nod me head, still crying.

"Jade! We need to get you out of there." Tori says. I knew this was a mistake.

"NO! You told me that you wouldn't tell anyone about my father! You promised!" She got up. She nodded slowly.

"You're right." She says slowly, sitting back down. "You're right."

I slept over at Tori's house, got ready, and went to school with her. She didn't look me in the eye.

We got to school, I went through my classes, dreading it. Hoping that I could sneak away and let out my pain. Then I got the chance. It was time for lunch. Before Tori, Andre or Cat saw me, I sneaked into the bathroom, and rolling up my sleeves.

"You horrible bitch." I say to myself, cutting over and over again. I felt nauseous and I leaned against the wall and slid down to the ground. Letting the blood flow out.

Tori's POV

I skipped lunch, I went to the councilors and told them about Jade. Not about her dad, but that she was cutting. I promised to keep her dad a secret. But not this.

She would be admitted into a hospital and get help. Its the only thing that I could do.

:O Horrible chapter :( I know! Sorry! But I hope the next one wont be as bad! I love you guys all so much! Review?

God Bless!

Sierra~~