Guilt plagued my conscience as I reached. But what upset me the most was that I didn't give a damn anymore. Once I saw Jacob waiting for me at the treaty line, all of my negative thoughts dissipated and I felt the best I'd felt in days. Flashing me his million dollar smile, Jacob scooped me up in his arms and gave me a bone crushing hug.
"Hey, Bells," Jacob said, his eyes scanning up and down my body. "You look awful." I frowned in distaste from his less than thoughtful, yet accurate, comment.
"Thanks, Jake; it's good to see you, too. How did you get my truck?" I muttered, playfully hitting his arm, remembering I'd left the keys in the ignition.
"I thought it'd be more convenient for you if you had your car so you could drive home," He said, turning up the heat to melt away the chills that tore through my body from the somewhat unseasonable cold.
The ride to La Push seemed to end as soon as it started. It seemed time stood still even more so when we walked around first beach, the crashing of the ways calming my frayed nerves.
"So, Bella, why did you want me to pick you up at the treaty line?" Jacob questioned, skipping a rock into the restless sea.
"Well I sure as hell wasn't going to walk all the way here, for one," I looked down at my feet, a faint blush spreading to my cheeks. "And I wanted to talk to you about something." He stopped, grabbing my arm and forcing me to face him.
"What did those filthy leeches do to you? I swear if they hurt you again…" "They didn't do anything to me Jacob. You know the Cullen's coven leader, Carlisle, right?" I bit my lip, doing everything in my power to avoid his gaze.
"Yes, the leech doctor, what of him?" I could tell by the malice in his voice that his patience was running thin at the mention of the Cullen family.
"Well, Carlisle and I had sex a few weeks ago. Jake, I didn't know who else to tell, this has just been hanging on my head for days now." I rambled on, spewing hollow excuses.
"You had sex with one of them!" Jake's body shook violently, his self control teetering to the point where one wrong move could set him off. "Is there anything else you're trying to tell me? Perhaps you two are expecting a fucking succubus child, too!" Tears poured down my cheeks for what seemed like the thousandth time today.
"Jake, please, I need your help. You're my best friend, I can't tell anybody else. You have to swear to me that you won't tell anyone." There's no way the voice I heard was of the girl who'd moved to Forks a year ago.
"Bella, the only thing I can suggest for you to do is getting a pregnancy test and see if your theory of being pregnant is correct," Jake handed me my keys with ferocity, his hostile attitude barely diminished from its original state. "Just one more thing before you leave, what happened to Edward and the doctor's mate?"
I winced internally at the memory, but was finally successful in retaining my composure. "Esme and Edward cheated on Carlisle and I with each other, so Carlisle requested their immediate leave from the family." Though a chance it was a trick of the light, I could have sworn I'd seen pity cross Jacob's overwrought features.
Not waiting for a response, I slammed the door to my car and drove to the nearest drug store, tears burning at my eyes at the possibility of loosing a best friend.
I can say with no hint of exaggeration that the look I'd gotten from the cashier when I'd purchased the pregnancy test evidently showed her distaste for my situation. And to make matter more gauche she so kindly added after handing me my purchase to "use protection next time and perhaps I wouldn't be in this situation."
Trembling as I now sat in a stall of a filthy public bathroom, I began rehearsing ways I could potentially tell Charlie, and more importantly Carlisle, about my pregnancy. After another fifteen agonizing minutes, I realized how life changing a single word could imply; pregnant.