Chapter 5 - Let's File It Away For Later.
A/N: Hey everyone :) So as promised I am updating quickly, because ending the last chapter where I did was incredibly bitchy of me haha - reading your comments had me laughing :P
So anyway, here is another chapter of Baby, You've Got Me Under Your Spell, enjoy! :D
Warning: This chapter is M, definitely M... ;)
James P.O.V
I felt déjà vu creep over me as I stepped into his room. Everything was in the same place, untainted and unchanged. Emotions wise I felt almost just as nervous as I had when I last entered this room, except now they were for different reasons.
"Kendall" I began, shutting the door behind me and staring straight into his emerald eyes. "Kendall, I love you. I'm so sorry; words don't begin to explain how sorry I am. I will spend every day of the rest of my life trying to prove how sorry I am and how much I love you if I have to."
When he didn't say anything I decided to just keep begging. "I don't even know why I said it. I think it was just in the heat of the moment, and there were so many people there and I don't know. This might sound weird and believe it or not but in a way I was kind of helping you. Because I'm sure people just saw the whole situation and thought "Why is Kendall getting dragged in to Sarah's bitch storm? James is such a bastard for saying that to him when he hasn't done anything". I'm actually confident that's what people would be saying. But I know that doesn't make it ok, what I said was still horrible. I also don't know if it would help to tell you that what I said was a complete and utter lie, because Kendall believe me, you're the only guy I want to be sleeping with. I know I made it seem like I would choose anyone over you, but that's honestly one of the biggest lies I've ever told. There is no one but you, and did I mention you're fucking sexy as all hell? Just looking at you does stuff to me... You're beautiful, stunning, sexy, hot, and incredible – you're everything."
I took a large sigh, feeling as if a small weight had been taken off my shoulders. At least if he kicked me out now I would have said all I needed to say. I stared at him expectantly, waiting for him to say something, say anything.
"Kendall can you say something please?"
Well he didn't say something, but he definitely did something. He grabbed me by the front of my jacket and shoved me at such a blinding pressure into the wall and I felt as if my rib was breaking again, but I barely noticed it. All there was in this moment was Kendall's face mere inches from my own and his beautiful eyes boring into mine, and they were completely unreadable.
"I should kick your ass" he grunted "You know that right?"
I nodded weakly, shutting my eyes and just waiting to feel a fist connect with my face, I deserved it.
Instead however I felt a different sensation, one that shocked me and took me by complete surprise; I felt his lips on mine.
I gasped and flew open my eyes, only quickly to shut them again and melt into his embrace. It was rough and hungry, a kiss fuelled by anger and passion.
"I know you didn't mean what you said" He muttered, ripping off my coat and throwing it into the general direction of the middle of the room. "But that doesn't mean it didn't hurt"
"I know Kendall, I know" I gasped as his hands went up underneath my shirt.
"I shouldn't forgive you." He said as he practically tore my shirt off my body.
"No, you really shouldn't"
"I had some big speech prepared. Even though I knew you were lying and doing it all for show I was going to tell you that it doesn't matter if it was all for show because it was fucking cruel and hurt like hell."
"Then why are you doing this? Why are you forgiving me?"
"Because I love you idiot, and you're fucking irresistible"
"Kendall, I love you too, so much." I said as my hands found the hem of his shirt to tug it off, but surprisingly he grabbed for my hands and pinned them on the door above my head.
"No" He purred, kissing my jaw line and pressing his groin into mine, driving me crazy. "You want to prove to me how much you love me and how sorry you are? Well good, because I'm going to make you work for it"
"I will do anything" I responded, leaning my head forward to capture his lips in a hot, wet kiss.
"Good. Now get over on the bed." He ordered.
There was something insanely hot about this dominant Kendall, and he had me craving his touch more and more by the second.
I sat on his bed and crawled back until I was up against the head board and propped on my elbows, staring at him at the foot of the bed.
He removed his cardigan painfully slow and flung it on the floor to join my coat and shirt. His shirt was next, and somehow he managed to do that even slower – he was killing me.
"Please Kendall" I whined, causing him to chuckle and pull the rest of his shirt completely off.
"Patience is a virtue" He said, now climbing on the bed and crawling towards me until he was positioned nicely between my legs and body on top of mine.
"I love you" I whispered, grasping his face in my hands and bringing his lips crushing down on top of mine.
I didn't even try and battle for dominance in our kiss, this was all his game and I was merely his toy, ready to be subjected to his every command.
"Ok there's something I need to change about this" he whispered against my neck.
"What?"
"These things" He said grabbing my hands and placing them in his. "Your hands are going to get in the way" He grinned, jumping off the bed suddenly and moving to his wardrobe.
I'll admit I was confused for a fraction of a second, until I saw him turn around with two neck ties in his hands and a big, seductive grin on his face.
He practically jumped back on the bed and sat on top of me, straddling my waist firmly. He slowly but roughly grabbed each one of my wrists and fastened them securely to the posts of his bed until I was completely on display and really had no control over my body.
"Since when is Kendall Knight such a sex god?" I asked with a big grin, looking up at him and begging to be touched. It didn't help that our covered erections were now against one another in the way he was sitting on me.
"Hockey captains have their secrets" He said with a chuckle, quoting what I had said yesterday it seemed.
His hands trailed up and down my torso as he placed kisses anywhere he could across my neck and chest, but it wasn't enough.
"Kendall please" I whined, bucking my hips into him in desperation.
"You know for someone who 'Could have sex with anyone he wanted so he wouldn't choose me' you're incredibly eager"
I knew he was joking but it still hurt hearing it again, reminding me of what a dickhead I was.
"Kendall wait" I said suddenly before his hands could undo the buttons of my belt.
"I swear to God if you tell me to stop James I will actually beat the shit out you"
"Hell no" I chuckled before I looked at him seriously, "Look at me when I say this Kendall, I will never hurt you again, I promise –"
"No" He said quickly, placing a finger on my lips to silence me, "No promises."
"But Kendall –"
"No. Let's just enjoy right now, ok?"
"Ok" I sighed as he kissed me softly.
"Now, shut up"
"Yes Sir" I grinned before pursing my lips together.
He was back to my belt then and making light work of it too, having my jeans glided off and on the floor in mere seconds. I was then only left in my boxers, and my god, he needed to get those boxers off before I screamed. Being horny and quiet at the same time just doesn't mix.
He palmed me through my boxes as he kissed my exposed chest and chuckled lightly when I began to groan. I whimpered slightly when he sat up off me, afraid he was going to stop but instead he began undoing the buckle of his belt and unzipping his jeans – and an incredibly slow pace.
"Oh you're growling now?" He laughed as he slid out his jeans smoothly and added them to the clothes pile.
I wasn't aware I had been growling, but fuck it he was testing my patience.
Once the jeans were off he was back on my body like wildfire, hands and lips touching any bit of skin they could.
"You know James, seeing you like this almost makes what you said ok" He chuckled at what was probably a look of complete pain on my face. My erection was now throbbing so painfully hard I thought I might explode.
Of course he was wrong, what I said would never be ok, but for now I shall file that under "Shit to deal with when the boy of your dreams doesn't have his hand on your dick"
Finally he was dragging my boxers down off my hips until my erection broke free and I felt a cool air against my skin. I needed heat on it, like right now.
Like the little fucking tease he was being he began to place light kisses to the tip of my cock, before he began to run his hand ever so slowly up the side of the shaft, using his thumb to collect any precum on the tip.
"Kendall!" I yelled, no longer being able to keep it in.
"Yeah fuck it, you're too sexy" He said in a low groan, practically shredding his boxers off his body and pressing us so tightly together and kissing me passionately.
"Suck" He commanded when he placed his fingers in front of my mouth, and I instantly obeyed, drawing out long, deep sucks on his rough fingers whilst I looked up innocently into his eyes.
"Now I'm telling you this from experience from last night" He murmured as he trailed his wet fingers down my body "This isn't going to be good at first, but trust me, it gets so good."
"I trust you" I smiled, wishing desperately to touch his face; damn these ties.
And yes I trusted him but I was also slightly nervous, I had seen the pain on his face last night and knew I was going to be experiencing that same pain very shortly, but it was worth it.
Without more warning than that I felt a cool finger inside of me, which had me gasping instantly.
"Shit" I gasped, throwing my head back and shutting my eyes, arms pulling tightly on their restraints.
"I know" He soothed before he inserted another finger which had me writhing on the bed.
"One more" I panted as he began to scissor inside of me. It hurt but the pain was a blissful one, definitely one my body was becoming more and more accustomed to the harder and deeper he went.
"Fuck me Kendall" I gasped in pleasure.
"No no no" He said in a singsong voice, "You're going to have to beg harder than that"
"Ngh – fuck!" I groaned as his fingers started to hit a spot inside me that had me seeing stars. "Please Kendall, oh my fucking god please, fuck me so hard" I begged, looking up at him through half-lidded eyes full of lust and desire.
"Only because you asked nicely... well maybe not nicely" He whispered seductively, removing his fingers which made me feel surprisingly empty.
"Are you ready?" He asked as he began to lather his throbbing erection in his own saliva.
"Yes, please, oh god yes." I begged as he lifted my legs up on to his shoulders and lined himself up.
Kendall didn't need to be told twice as he slammed himself into me.
"Holy shit!" I screamed, hands now tugging so hard on the ties around my wrists I was surprised I didn't rip them.
"Oh my god James" Kendall moaned with his head thrown back.
It hurt in the beginning, I'm not going to lie to you, but then he angled his hips a certain way, a perfect, indescribable way and he had me positively screaming in ecstasy. Surely this had to be heaven? I couldn't imagine a feeling quite like this one... someone remind me again why all men weren't gay? I also decided in that moment that the feel of Kendall slamming into me and looking up at his blissed out face that was slightly glistening in sweat... yeah I decided if he was going to want to be bottom he was going to have to fight me for it. There was one slight problem though...
"Kendall touch me, please" I begged, tugging on my bound wrists, secretly hoping that they would come free and I could attack him... and my dick.
"Jamie" He moaned, looking down on me with green eyes full of love and passion.
His little nickname for me "Jamie" had my heart doing flips and churns that for now I will file away in "Shit to deal with when the boy of your dreams isn't fucking you into tomorrow"
"Jamie" He said again, "Tell me you love me"
I couldn't answer fast enough, "I love you, I love you so much."
"And Jamie" He breathed, quickening his pace. "Do you think I'm sexy?"
As I looked at his hard, glistening body with his dusty blonde hair falling lightly around his face, accentuating his chiselled jaw line; there was only one answer that entered my head, "The fucking sexiest human being I've ever seen"
He seem satisfied with that answer, as he moved my legs slightly (so as to not squish me) around his waist and brought his lips down onto mine quick and hungry, one hand quickly finding my dick and beginning to pump in time with his thrusts.
"Fuck. Yes" I groaned, my pleasure heightening (if that was even possible) as I felt myself near climax.
"Harder – faster, ngh fuck" I groaned and to which he complied. "Kendall! SHIT!"
I bucked my hips forward into his touch and practically screamed into his mouth as he kissed me. Without too much warning other than my incessant moans and strangled yells I came hot and hard in his palm and on my stomach.
"Oh my god Kendall, I love you" I breathed, leaning forward as much as the constrictive ties would allow so I could kiss his chest, his neck, his anything.
" Oh my – ugh – fuck, James" Kendall grunted, giving one or two final thrusts before he spilled his seed inside of me.
The expression on his face was so indescribably priceless. His lips were slightly parted, eyes closed and small beads of sweat matting his blonde hair. Yes, yes Kendall Knight was incredibly sexy.
"Fuck" He breathed, pulling out of me and collapsing on my chest.
Both our breathing was still heavy and fast, I felt as if it would take forever to calm down from what I had just experienced. I wanted so desperately to wrap my arms around his body and pull him so close into me, never letting go.
"Kendall" I sighed, my breath still laboured and heart pounding fast. "Can you release me now?"
"Mmm..." He pondered, now propping himself up on my chest. "I guess" He chuckled, leaning over my head to undo the ties.
"Thank god" I groaned when I was finally released, hands flying to his face and pulling him in so fast he didn't even have time to blink.
"Is that a thank you?" He mumbled against my lips as my hands fisted through his hair.
"Thank you for so many things" I said, kissing him and talking all at once "Thank you for being the most amazing human being I've ever met"
"You're welcome" he said with a smile, rolling slightly to the side so the majority of his weight was no longer crushing me.
He nuzzled into my side whilst I lay on my back, with his head cradled in the crook of my neck. I held him so tightly to me I was surprised he wasn't complaining.
As I held him in my arms and placed light kisses to his hair I had many question mulling around in my brain. What did this mean for us? Would he still be ok for us to be a secret? What would people be saying at school? Would my friends still talk to me? ... Would I ever come out and having nothing to hide when it came to Kendall?
But for now I won't let these questions bring me down, I'll file them under "Shit to deal with when the boy of your dreams isn't lying in your arms"
There we go! :) But... it's not happy ever after just yet for my two favourite boys in the entire world...
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