A/N: Quick update because I don't like to leave you guys and girls hanging for too long :P

I'm literally running late to my class at Uni whilst I type this so I can't post much in the way of authors notes so... If you have questions don't hesitate to ask! :)

I'm sorry this is short, it's sort of just a filler/preparing chapter for what is to come!

Lots of love! xx

P.S I haven't had a chance to proof read so sorry in advance!

Chapter 7 - Stop Hurting Me.

Kendall P.O.V

"James?" I called out once more, now slightly terrified by the sounds I heard from below.

I ran down as fast as I could to see James sitting on the bottom step, arms wrapped tightly around his legs and head bowed; he was shaking uncontrollably.

"Oh my god James, what is it?" I asked, now panicking as I sat down and flung my arms around his body.

What was going on? Was he like this? And why wasn't he even speaking to me?

"James, please talk to me" I begged, trying to get him to lift his head and look at me.

He finally looked up and it almost took my breath away, I'd never seen anyone so broken. His usually full of light hazel eyes were now dark, clouded and full of pain, tears spilling from them relentlessly and cascading down his tan cheeks. I felt one tear escape out of the corner of my eye as I looked at his fragile form, I couldn't bear to see him hurt, even if I didn't know the reason.

"K-Kendall" He stammered, voice blowing me away; it was so dark, so full of pain. "Don't touch me."

I felt stung, felt as if I had just exposed my skin to a naked flame as I took my hands off his shoulders.

"Kendall... you're great."

No.

"And I've had lots of fun."

No.

"But I think we both kind of knew from the beginning..."

No.

"This wasn't going to last."

This isn't happening. No.

"So I think its best if we just end it now before one of us gets hurt. I'm sorry Kendall. Just forget about me ok?"

I couldn't talk, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't even think.

"Kendall can you say something?"

How could I say anything? How could I even look at him now after this?

"You broke your promise." I said in barely a whisper. "You told my dad you wouldn't break my heart, well congratulations James, that's exactly what you've done"

My heart was breaking, splitting in two, he was ripping it out and there was nothing I could do to stop him.

"What did you expect Kendall?" He said in a cold hard voice. "I'm James Diamond, I'm popular, I'm a senior, and I'm everything you're not. And besides, you told me last night not to make any more promises, so I'm not breaking anything."

"How can you say that?" I cried, placing my head in my hands.

I felt like we were back outside the cafeteria with Sarah once more, but this time he wasn't joking and he wasn't going to be apologising.

"I hate you." I whispered into my hands.

"No you don't" He said with a cold, hard laugh.

"Yes you're right, I don't" I said with anger and sadness, now raising my head to look at him directly in the eyes. "I hate you because I love you. Why did you even let me believe for a second that you loved me too? But that was always your plan from the beginning wasn't it? My Dad was right, Carlos was right, they were all right, you were just playing with me, I was just your game, and now you've had your fun."

I saw pain flash through his eyes as I said that last part but I continued, not wanting to hear what he would have to say. "I'm so stupid! I was so stupid to give you my heart. I can believe I thought you loved me too; I was so convinced you did. I thought what we had was fate, as you said that first night in bed, us meeting was fate... wasn't it? Ugh fuck you! You should be an actor James because you're the fucking best liar I've ever met, you were so convincing. I think you've shattered all my trust I've ever had for anyone."

As he began to cry again I couldn't help but get angrier, my eyes blurring through hot, hateful tears, "And the worst part about it all is that I still feel like you're lying to me about all this. I knew you were lying when you said what you did to Sarah, so how should now be any different? And why are you crying? You can't honestly let me believe that you feel nothing for me if you're sitting here a broken mess."

"Kendall this is for the best!" He cried, grabbing me by the hand. "Don't you understand? I'm not the one for you! This isn't right, it was never meant to happen. I'm really sorry for letting you believe I loved you too, I should never have said it. Maybe I thought I loved you... but I was wrong. I think I got caught up in the excitement of something new and different. I care about you though Kendall, I'm doing this for you."

"How can you say you care about me? I just don't understand, I'm so confused. Last night was incredible and you even stayed over. And when I fell asleep in your arms and you whispered 'I love you Kendall, and I'm never letting you go'. That was just a lie? It's been like an hour since I last saw you... You kissed me in the car and told me to have a nice day and that you would see me later, and with one last smile and a kiss we went our separate ways... An hour ago!"

"Yes, that was an hour ago, but things have changed. I think I'm a different person when I'm with you outside of school. But when I'm here I can see straight."

"One of your friends said something didn't they? You can't let them influence you James! I know you're scared about people knowing the truth, but we can do this together. We don't have to do it today, tomorrow or even a month from now, as long as we're together!" I cried through tears, clutching onto both his hands.

"No Kendall! Don't you get it? Even if ten years from now I've come out and everyone knows the truth it's not going to change who I am!"

"What do you mean! Is it because you're older than me? More popular than me? That's not going to be the case in ten years! Who cares if you're older!"

"No Kendall! You're not listening! I don't care if I'm older than you!"

"Then what is it!"

"I'm a horrible person!" He yelled, quickly jumping up and facing the concrete wall, head buried in his hands and hiding from the world as he burst into unstoppable tears.

"What do you mean!" I cried, now standing as he did and standing right behind him.

"Just leave Kendall! Get out!" His muffled voice sounded through his hands.

"No! Not until you tell me what's going on!"

"I can't" He whispered.

"Can you just turn around and face me?" I pleaded, placing my hands on his shoulders and chin close to the crook of his neck.

"I don't want to look at you. Please, please just leave."

"Stop this! Just stop this; I want to talk to you."

He didn't turn, didn't even say a single word, just continued to cry into the wall.

And then I ran. Ran as fast as my legs would carry me. Out of the gym, out of the school, out of James' life.

I was empty, hollow, heart void of any emotion or feeling.

I shouldn't allow myself to love. I don't know why I do. Love ends in heartbreak and sorrow, it always has and it always will. I don't need someone to love me; I need James to love me. I need him to love me like I love him.

But it's all over now, and my heart will never be the same.

"Mum?" I whispered through broken sobs on my cell phone. "I want to live with Dad. I want to move to New York."