A/N: WOO HOO! Here we are... the end... *sobs* Well not really the end... sort of the end... I'll explain at the bottom :P
This is set about 2 months after the hockey game, basically James and Kendall have had their summer together with Christmas and New Years. Oh well techincally it would be winter in America... But anyway James has graduated and now here we are in a brand new year :)
There's a flashback, which I didn't put all in italics because it's quite long and italics can be frustrating to read, so just the first and last line of the flashback are in italics.
What else... if you have any questions about something you feel I didn't explain or something you just generally want to know ask me in a review or send me a message! :D I'm more than happy to help you out.
Now here is for the thank you ramble :) The biggest thank you in the entire world to every single person who read this story and stuck with it :) To all my reviewers, everyone who favourited; just everyone really! You're all so great and it means so much that you put the time in to read my work :)
A big thank you to "lostdancer51" (Alexandria my new Twitter friend :P) for helping me out with a few bits and bobs, she's awesome! And my new best friend *virtual hug*
And OH MY GOODNESS! I was stalking tumblr today, as I do everyday, just searching "Kames" for some good stuff and I saw someone had posted about my story on their tumblr! SHOW YOURSELF! :D :D Seriously you mystery person, you made my whole fucking year! :D I fangirled when I was just scrolling the dashboard and saw it! I love you! Seriously please tell me who you are so I can rape you with kindess over the internet :D Sounds weird... :P but yeah I don't have a tumblr personally, I just stalk other peoples. BUT I LOVE YOU MYSTERY PERSON! XXXXXXXXX
So if you read all that... I applaud you! :P
There will be a second A/N down the bottom which will reference a... sequel ;)
Please read now and enjoy and know that I love you :)
Ooh disclaimer: Arms by Christina Perri because it's awesome and (prepare yourself for cliche) the 1st Corinthians verse from the bible. Not that I am religious... But it's beautiful anyway. :)
Epilogue - Two Hearts As One.
"Tell me again" Kendall whispers in the darkness.
"Where should I start?" James whispers in return, their noses almost touching as they lay in bed, hands clasped and legs entwined.
"I don't care; I just want to hear it"
"Ok. There once was a boy and his name was James Diamond, and his life changed when he broke his rib because he met the love of his life, another boy named Kendall Knight. James knew Kendall was special, it was clear in the first five seconds to James that Kendall was meant for him... but there was a problem"
"And what problem was that?"
"James was... well James was incredibly silly for awhile. James believed that what others thought of him was more important than what your heart wanted; he let his head rule over his heart, but that wasn't the only reason he was silly. You see... you see he loved Kendall so much and that scared him. James had never given so much of his heart to one person and that was terrifying, so he tried to push Kendall away"
"How did he do that?"
"James kissed someone else..."
Kendall shuts his eyes softly and takes a deep breath before James continues to speak. "It was incredibly stupid of him and James will never forgive himself for making that mistake"
Kendall opens his mouth to interrupt but James stops him. "And James knows what Kendall thinks, but it doesn't matter"
"So what happened next?"
"James tried to push Kendall away and he succeeded, leaving James heartbroken and alone as the love of his life moved out of his life"
Kendall places a hand lightly on James' cheek, using his thumb to stroke softly across James' cheekbone.
"James spent many months crying himself to sleep over letting the love of his life walk away and couldn't do anything to move on. Then Kendall came back and that's when things took a turn for the worse. You see... James learned that Kendall had been doing something very silly himself whilst away and it shattered James' heart... Kendall had been hurting himself"
Kendall gave James a small sad smile before the tall pretty boy continued. "After learning of James' betrayal Kendall was driven to such a point where he felt he couldn't handle the pain anymore... When James found Kendall close to death on the forest floor he felt his world begin to crumble, the pain James felt in that moment is something that will never be able to be put into words, something he will never truly be able to get someone else to understand because it was just a pain so strong"
Kendall leans forward and places a light kiss to James' lips. "Hearing and knowing that breaks Kendall's heart"
James kisses Kendall softly once more before pulling back slightly to stare into the shinning emerald eyes he loves so much. "James wants Kendall to know that the thought of losing him is something he never wishes to go through again and for as long as he lives he will protect and care for Kendall, making sure it doesn't happen"
"It won't" Kendall whispers. "So what happens next?"
"Well" James continues, "James soon succumbed to the darkness too and in the darkness he... well he spoke to Kendall. Kendall and James have spoken about it since then and they have both decided that somewhere, somehow the conversation took place, because they remember the conversation they had like a dream... the final goodbye they thought they needed to have"
Kendall nodded, still stroking James' cheek lightly with his finger tips.
"It will never make much sense how it is even possible... but they both just know that they got that chance to say 'I love you' one last time didn't they?" Kendall asks softly.
"Yep" James smiles, "James will always be thankful to fate for being given that opportunity. Luckily though, fate was giving them both one more chance and thankfully both survived."
"But then it was Kendall's chance to do something silly wasn't it?"
James frowns slightly, thinking about the question Kendall has posed. "Sort of. For you see James wanted Kendall back and he believed that after everything they had been through it wouldn't be a problem... but Kendall was strong and he wasn't going to give up without a fight"
"Kendall was pretty stupid" Kendall sighed, "He should have taken James back right then and there"
"Maybe... but maybe not. James and Kendall spent a month apart and I think that was a very important month for James because he truly did realise what was most important in his life and it took one of the most important moments of his life to realise that. He thought that school, friends, his parents, hockey... he thought they were all more important than love"
"Not that they're not important though" Kendall interjects.
"No..." James smiles, "But James decided that they didn't matter, as long as he has Kendall by his side"
"So what did James do then?" Kendall replies with a smile, obviously knowing what is coming next.
"James dropped everything, his heart figured it out, and all he wanted was Kendall, so he left the game and left his past and went to win his love back"
Kendall is still smiling; this is his favourite part of the story.
"So James put it all on the line, he ignored his teammates, he ignored his coach and even his parents and went to Kendall. He confessed his love in front of the whole school and eagerly awaited Kendall's response. And luckily Kendall finally accepted his love and they sealed it with a kiss, for the whole world to see"
"Awwwwww" Kendall coos with a grin, leaning forward to kiss James passionately.
"But" James clicks, regrettably pulling away from Kendall. "Don't you want to hear the rest of the story?"
Kendall's brow furrows softly as he looks at James. "But... I don't really like the story after that"
"You said you wanted to hear the whole story... and besides, you know it eventually has a happy ending"
"Ok, you're right, please continue" Kendall sighs.
"So let's see... James declared his love for Kendall and Kendall accepted him and they sealed it with a kiss and everything seemed right in the world once more."
"But..."
"But in every story there is a villain, and in this story his name is Andrew Diamond"
Kendall made a small noise in the back of his throat that almost sounded like a growl of displeasure.
"Settle." James smiles, placing a light kiss to Kendall's cheek.
"Sorry" Kendall sighs, "It just makes me mad that's all"
"Makes me mad too baby, but it's ok. Can I keep going?"
Kendall simply nods, holding James' hand tightly in his own.
"So yes there was a man named Andrew Diamond and well... he didn't really like the fact James and Kendall were kissing in front of the whole school and also the fact that James had just abandoned the hockey game"
"But the team won anyway"
"Yep, they sure did. They didn't need James" James smiles and Kendall rolls his eyes slightly. They both know the team wouldn't have been in any state to win at all if James hadn't played 99% of it.
"So the team won and everyone was cheering, well they started cheering after eventually being able to rip their eyes away from James and Kendall. James and Kendall were lost in their own world though, as far as they were concerned they were alone and all that mattered was each other, but then that's when the villain takes his cue"
James pauses for a second as the memory of his father after the game begins to enter his mind.
"I love you" Kendall whispered, a smile on his face and tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Forever" I whispered in return, connecting our lips once more.
The kiss was suddenly cut short though by a pair of strong hands grabbing me from behind and practically ripping me away from Kendall.
"JAMES PHILLIP DIAMOND!" My Dad bellowed which had almost everyone looking at us if they weren't already.
Part of me should have been more terrified but I knew this was going to be coming and I had prepared... sort of.
"James you are going down there to apologise to the Princeton scout right now!" He hissed, grabbing me by the elbow. "And you!" He yelled, turning his attention to Kendall who was standing there, wide eyed and in shock. "You keep the hell away from my son, if I ever see you near him I swear to god I will rip your fucking throat out!"
I think I may have punched more people in the past year than most people had a in a normal lifetime but at least now I had a good excuse as my fist connected hard with my Dad's face. It had the desired effect, he was definitely taken by surprise at least as he stumbled backwards and clutched the side of his face with his hand.
"You little cunt!" He yelled, lunging at me quickly.
I braced myself for the impact and closed my eyes but was surprised when I felt nothing.
"ENOUGH!" A familiar voice yelled.
"Dad?" I heard Kendall say in disbelief. "What are you doing here?"
"Well first and foremost I wanted to see the game, but then most importantly... Kendall I don't want you alone for too long" Logan replied.
Kendall rolled his eyes and crossed his arms, I had to guess he was on some sort of suicide watch or something, which honestly wasn't a bad idea, I'd be doing the same if I were Logan.
"Excuse me!" My father growled, "I'm sorry Mr Mitchell but this has nothing to do with you!"
"Do you not see my son standing right there?"
"How you can even stand to call him your son after all his done?" Andrew Diamond spat.
I lunged forward again, the anger building up within me reaching its breaking point, but unfortunately Logan got in the way. He's smaller than me but shit he's strong.
"Enough of this! James, you go to the locker room and get changed and then meet us outside, everyone else, with me!" Logan commanded.
"Can I go with him?" Kendall asked.
My immediate response was to reach for his hand and bring us both down to the change room, maybe for some much needed kisses but instead unsurprisingly Andrew grabbed my elbow before Kendall's hand found mine and in fact even Logan was opposed.
"If he goes with you you'll never come back, so James hurry up" Logan said sternly.
xXxXx
I exited out of the sports centre with my bag over my shoulder and no longer smelling like someone died on me. To prolong to inevitable doom that was to come I took a quick shower, then taking my time to get dressed and even comb my hair. It didn't take long to find out where everyone had gone, I heard them before I saw them.
"JAMES LOVES ME! ARE YOU GOING TO STOP HIM FROM BEING IN LOVE?" I heard Kendall shout.
"JAMES DOESNT KNOW WHAT HE WANTS! You seduced him and made him confused and then when you tried to kill yourself he felt guilty! All you are is guilt for James! He just doesn't want to have your death on his hands! He doesn't care about you!" I felt that anger beginning to rise up within me again as I rounded the corner to the empty back parking lot.
"That's not true!" I shouted. "I love Kendall Dad! He didn't seduce me or whatever the fuck you think, if anything I seduced him!"
My Dad literally gagged at that but whatever. "I love Kendall with everything I am and he's not just some guilty conscious I'm trying to clear! I love him for everything he is and no matter what I am going to stick by him!" I walked over to Kendall then, dropping my bag to the ground and taking his hand in mine.
"Well you know what this means then?" Andrew said with a smug smile. "No more money, no more hockey, and no more college and in fact... No more house. Consider yourself officially homeless now James"
"Now hold on one second!" Logan interrupted before I could retort. "You can't kick your own son out of your home!"
"Well if I'm not mistaken Doctor he is 18 so I can do whatever the hell I want"
I looked to Kendall and he was staring straight at me. I could see the concern written all over his face. Sure the prospect didn't sound great; no money... no school... no home... But I would sort something out. Maybe I could appeal to my Mum. Brooke Diamond had to have some heart left in her.
Whilst Logan and Andrew continued to argue with one another Kendall leaned in and whispered in my ear. "James I know you said you're willing to risk it all for me but I don't think I can let you do this"
"Kendall its fine" I whispered back. "I don't care where I am or how much money I have, as long as I'm with you"
"I love you so much" He said softly, placing his free hand on the side of my face and leaning forward to kiss me gently.
"No! No no none of that!" Andrew yelled angrily, causing Kendall and I to break away from one another.
"Mr Diamond!" Logan yelled in response. "These two boys clearly love each other and when they were apart I saw my son hurting very much, you can't say you didn't see it in James too. Why shouldn't James be happy? Why punish James for being happy?"
"Because this isn't the life I wanted for him! James was meant to be captain of the hockey team in high school, get good grades, then graduate and get into the team at Princeton and study business and when he finished his degree he would take over the family business from me and his mother! The face of Diamond Cosmetics is NOT going to be gay. His wife will be handling the beauty side of things and he will handle the corporate side. No one will want to purchase goods from a company that is run by a faggot!"
I had to stop myself from practically crushing Kendall's hand in my own. I opened my mouth to talk but once again Logan spoke first.
"Firstly why should it matter what sexuality James is for running a company? Secondly, and most importantly, have you ever thought that maybe James doesn't want to run the company? James?" Logan now asked, turning on me. "Do you want to take over the family business from your parents when you finish college?"
It was an interesting question and in fact one that I had thought about a few times, but never to that much detail. But being posed with it now, after I had just put my whole life on the line and followed my heart I realised what the true answer was. "You know what? No. I'm sick and tired of being told how to live my life... Because you know what I discovered in the past year that truly makes me happy? Well, asides from Kendall himself; music. When I sung to Kendall as he lay in my arms dying I knew in that moment that singing was what made me feel whole. For Kendall I would write a whole symphony... sing a him every note... sing to the world that he is the one I love and that I will always lead with my heart. Even if I just sung him to sleep every night that would make me happy, knowing that my voice is what makes him smile"
"J-James" Kendall stammered, pulling me into him with his hands on either side of my face. "That is one of the most romantic things I have ever heard. And I just want you to know that if it wasn't for your voice I don't think I would have made it that night, when I was lost in the darkness I heard you singing to me and that's what brought me through. To have you hold me in your arms and sing to me every night is a future I can only dream of, I love you so much James Diamond and no matter what you do or what passion you pursue I will always be by your side"
I felt my heart melting as he closed the gap between our lips in a sweet kiss. "I love you too Kendall Knight." I said softly, resting our foreheads together and breathing him in with my eyes fluttered shut. I hadn't realised there were tears gently falling down my cheeks, but they were ones of joy and love not of sadness.
For a split second I had actually forgotten about Andrew and Logan and all our other dramas, well that was until Logan spoke.
"Don't you see Mr Diamond? What those boys have is love, how can you deny them that?" He said, voice breaking slightly as I suspected he too had tears running from his chocolate eyes.
Andrew took a deep breath and pinched the bridge of his nose between his fingertips before moving towards Kendall and I. Kendall dropped his hands from my face but interlaced our fingers once more.
"James" He said quietly, taking one last breath before hazel eyes exactly the same as mine looked at me. "I'm not kicking you out"
Kendall's hand squeezed mine quickly in anticipation, but I knew my father well enough to know he still wasn't totally ok. "But. If you want to pursue this singing nonsense, you're not going to have any help from me. If you want to find a college for doing music or whatever that is all up to you, if you can get a scholarship or something. If you want to go to Princeton and study business like originally planned then I will support that, but I'm sorry James I just can't condone music as a career choice"
My mouth felt dry as I searched for the words to say. "D-Dad" I stuttered. "I'm going to do music, so I guess I'll just have to find a way to support myself. And Kendall and I are going to stay together, I'm sorry but nothing you say or do is going to take me away from him"
He didn't respond, he merely mumbled something incoherent, although from the way he wasn't hitting me or calling me a cunt I had to assume it was some form of approval. He turned on his heel to leave but not before saying one last thing.
"I will see you at home later James. Also, don't think I am not angry about you walking out on the hockey game. I don't care if it was for a boy or a girl, you shouldn't have done that"
"I understand Dad and I'm sorry, but hockey was never really my passion anyway. I love it don't get me wrong but I never wanted to make anything out of it"
He shook his head in frustration one last time before turning his back on me and walking in the direction towards the main parking lot.
"Wow" Kendall said beside me.
"Yeah... wow" I muttered, unsure how to feel about the whole situation.
"James" Logan said quietly, now standing next to Kendall and I. "It would be understandable if you didn't want to live with that man, in fact I don't even think I feel comfortable with you living with him. Would you like to stay with us? At least up until you sort something out with college?"
"Yes!" Kendall said quickly, squeezing my hand tightly. "Live with me!"
I couldn't help but chuckle at the excited look on his face; he looked like a child on Christmas morning. "That's incredibly nice of you Logan but I just don't know what I'm going to do at the moment. I have no idea where to even begin with the whole college thing, like where do I even go for music?"
"We'll sort it out James" Logan smiled kindly.
Then, without much warning, Logan pulled Kendall and I in for a bone shattering hug and held us tightly before he said, "Please make this work boys, please"
"We will Dad" Kendall said assuredly as we were released from his death grip.
"James, I know how much you love my son, it's obvious to everyone, but you must understand he has a lot of demons he needs to face and –"
"Daaaad" Kendall groaned in embarrassment.
"And it's not going to be easy for him to get past them"
"I understand, but you have to believe me when I say that I will never do anything to hurt Kendall ever again. I know that in life we are going to face our ups and downs but I will be with Kendall every single step of the way to pick him up when he falls"
Logan threw his arms around me once more and said quietly in my ear, "Thank you James"
"So then James and Kendall were finally happy and were going to brave this new scary world together. The End!" James says with a big smile, unable to stop himself from laughing as he leans forward to kiss Kendall.
"Well, not really the end" Kendall says with a smirk against James' lips. "You have forgotten my favourite bit of the story"
"And which bit would that be?"
Kendall hooks his leg over James' hips quickly and is now straddling the brunette by the waist, hands resting on James' strong chest. "That my dear boy would be the part where you move out of your house and come live with me, therefore fucking me senseless every night in our bed"
"I still can't believe your parents let me sleep in your room" James grins, hands snaking around Kendall's neck to pull him down for a heated kiss.
"Oh hey I meant to ask you, how was your date with the guys?" Kendall asks as he begins to kiss James' neck.
"Ok there are so many things wrong with that statement. Firstly, did you really have to ask me about my friends whilst you're sitting on top of me sucking my neck? And secondly, I wouldn't call it a date!"
"Whatever" Kendall grins. "You and your little boyfriends"
"Hey!" James laughs, slapping Kendall's chest lightly.
"You know I am going to make fun of you about it every day until forever because I think it's so cute. I think your friends actually worship you more now you're all out and proud. Maybe they all want to fuck you"
"Maybe" James grins as he runs his hands up Kendall's sides. "It's pretty incredible though, I was expecting the whole team to pretty much banish me, not that I was too fussed because school was over, but yeah you're right. I think they were all "proud" of me or whatever for following my heart, cool dudes. In fact I'm like 90% sure Jett is gay and is soon going to ask me how to start getting laid by guys"
Kendall throws his head back in laughter and James smiles at the sound, he loves hearing Kendall's laugh, it's one of his favourite sounds.
"You know what that means right? That means you, Jett and Dak all turned out to be gay. Who would have thought?"
"Yeah the thing about Dak is though he is never coming out of that closet. He came today on our group "date", only cause I think Jett forced him to, and it was a little awkward"
"That might be because he feels responsible for me trying to kill myself" Kendall says with a shrug.
Even though Kendall says it lightly James can't help but frown, he hates talking about Kendall's suicide attempt, even if it just in casual conversation.
"Maybe" James sighs, "I think he just feels uncomfortable around me because yeah I did beat the shit out of him and then he did tell you all that stuff, but you would have found out eventually, because I would have told you so I guess we can't blame him"
"I don't blame him"
"Neither... I mean don't get me wrong I'm not about to go be best friends with him again or anything but I don't want to hold any grudges or anything"
"He's probably just upset because he still wants to get into your pants" Kendall grins, swooping down once more to attack James' neck.
"Speaking of wanting to get into someone's pants..." James says; bringing Kendall's face to his so he can bring their lips together in hungry desire.
It doesn't take long before the kiss is positively electric and neither boy can get enough of one another.
"I can't believe" Kendall breathes, "We're not going to" He is interrupted once more by James ripping his shirt of his head "Get to do this after tonight"
"I know" James moans, his shirt now too discarded on the floor as kisses Kendall's bare chest.
"It's all your fault you know" Kendall sighs as James begins to suck on his left pectoral, surely leaving a mark there for the morning.
"I thought you wanted me to chase my dreams baby?" James chuckles, hands' trailing down Kendall's middle until it reaches the band of his boxers.
"I guess so" Kendall sighs jokingly.
In reality Kendall was actually incredibly proud and excited for James, but he sure was going to miss this every night.
"I can't believe you got in with a full scholarship to Julliard, actually no I can believe it. I can't believe the like two schools that didn't accept you." Kendall moans as James flips them so that now the brunette is hovering above the blonde's body, still placing hungry kisses over any inch of skin he can find.
"Did I ever say thank you for being such an amazing boyfriend and helping me audition for what felt like every single performing arts school in the country?"
"Hmmm you might have mentioned it" Kendall grins, "You can thank me now if you want to?"
"Oh, I certainly intend to" James grins back, placing a hand over Kendall's still covered erection.
"Fuck" Kendall gasps, hips involuntarily bucking up into James' touch.
"You're so sexy, you know what right?" James breathes as rips Kendall's boxers off his hips and throws them to the floor.
"Look who's talking" Kendall moans as James begins to stroke his throbbing erection long and hard.
James merely smirks in response, leaning down to join their lips together for a kiss. The kiss is hot, hungry and full of passion; tongues soon fighting for dominance but a battle James ultimately wins. Every night seems to be more amazing than the last, if that's even possible, both boys wasting no time in cherishing every single moment they had together.
"Fuck, ngh, fuck James I'm not going to last if you keep going" Kendall pants, hands intertwined through James' soft brunette locks.
"Horn dog" James chuckles, removing his hand and sitting up so he can discard his own boxers.
"Get back here" Kendall growls, missing the feel on James sitting on top of him.
James is quick to comply, pressing his body tightly into Kendall's. Both boys begin to moan into one another's mouths as their freed lengths grind against one another in a delicious friction.
"Do you want to top tonight baby?" James asks as he kisses along Kendall's jaw.
"No, I want you inside me" Kendall whispers seductively into James' ear as pearly white teeth nip at the pretty boy's earlobe.
James' body shivers at the action, grabbing Kendall's wrists in one quick motion and pinning his hands above his head.
"You better not tease me" Kendall groans, hips bucking up and grinding into James' heat.
"Maybe I will... maybe I won't" James grins, teeth sinking into the soft skin of Kendall's neck.
"James I swear to God if you don't get a move on I'll fucking kick you out and make you sleep in the guest room"
"Aw baby" James pouts, "You're not going to kick me out on our last night together"
"Exactly, it's our last night together, so let's make the most of it!" Kendall whines.
"I can't say no to you" James sighs with a smile, grinding his hips down on Kendall which has them both moaning in a matter of seconds.
When James' hands slipped for a split second from their grip on Kendall's wrists the blonde used the opportunity to capture James' wrist and bring the brunettes fingers to his mouth. With wide green innocent eyes looking up into hazel Kendall puts three of James' fingers in his mouth and sucks on them slowly.
"Mm" James breathes, the sight going straight to the throbbing want between his thighs.
With his command still of James' wrist Kendall trails the wet fingers down his torso, eyes not leaving James' as he guides the hand to his needy entrance.
James takes the lead from there quickly inserting one finger into Kendall's tight heat.
"Oh shit" Kendall moans, throwing his head back into the pillow.
Before Kendall really even has time to adjust James has added another finger... and then another...
"Fuck, please James" Kendall pants, now craving more. "I'm r-ready"
James wastes no time in wrapping Kendall's legs around his waist and spitting into his palm so he can slick himself up.
"You ready baby?" James asks softly, leaning down to kiss Kendall roughly.
James takes Kendall's incoherent mumbles and frantic nodding as a yes as he then begins to push slowly into Kendall.
"Ngh fuck" James exclaims loudly as the tight, wet heat envelops his cock.
"M-move" Kendall pants after not even a second and pulls James down to him for a kiss as the brunette begins to slowly thrust into Kendall.
Both boys have learned from previous experience over the past few months that Kendall's room isn't exactly the most soundproof and they have had to sit through many many embarrassing breakfasts with Kendall's parents. But its hard when all you want to do is scream and shout and moan and basically just make as much noise as fucking possible when you're experiencing something so incredibly amazing.
"Fuck you're so tight babe" James moans as his thrusts begin to pick up pace until he is now positively slamming Kendall into the bed.
Kendall would respond, if he could, but instead all he can do is grasp the sheets of the bed so tightly his knuckles begin to go white.
"FUCK!" Kendall screams out all of a sudden as James hits his sweet spot.
James knows that once he hits Kendall's sweet spot he can hit it again, and again and again it will only be a matter of minutes before the blonde is coming undone at the seams beneath his touch. In almost a feral yet exquisite growl Kendall grabs James' strong chest that is glistening with sweat and pushes himself up. Before James even has a chance to react to what Kendall is doing Kendall now has him pinned down at the foot of the bed, the blonde now being the one on top and nails digging into James' chest.
"HOLY SHIT!" James yells, his body now going crazy with the feel of Kendall positively bouncing in his lap.
"Touch me" Kendall begs as his nails rake across James' tan torso.
James' strong hand wastes no time in reaching for Kendall's length, stroking hard and quick in time with Kendall's thrusts. James looks up into his lovers green eyes full of hooded lust and love and feels the burning need within him to bring those sweet pink lips down on his own. James uses his free hand to grab Kendall by the back of the neck and pulls him down for a kiss that is not perfectly coordinated but evokes all the feelings of both desire and love in one action.
"Do you know how much I fucking love you?" James pants heavily against Kendall's lips as he feels his orgasm begin to build in his loins.
"Fuck – ngh – fuck" is all Kendall can respond with as James tugs on his hair firmly with one hand.
"K-Kendall" James pants once more, "I love you"
"F-fuck I, fuck" Kendall moans, "I love you too. So s-so much"
And with that and one final thrust up into Kendall James screams out his lovers name in ecstasy as he unloads into Kendall's deliciously tight walls.
"JAMES!" Kendall screams, along with a string off expletives and words of love as he practically explodes, painting James' chest pearly white.
"Oh my god, oh my god" Kendall pants, collapsing on James' heaving chest.
"Ow" James groans with a chuckle as the entirety of Kendall's body weight is now on top of him.
"Oops" Kendall smiles, rolling to his side slightly but half his body still draped across James' and his head nicely nested in the older boys neck.
They lie there like that for awhile, heads at the end of the bed, feet resting on the pillows, not saying a word and just trying to control their breathing. James absentmindedly plays with Kendall's hair and Kendall traces nonsense patterns with his finger tips into James' chest.
Moments like these... these are the moments James will miss. Don't get him wrong he will miss the sex and everything else but just lying here with Kendall now, no words needing to be said just a silent understanding of complete and utter love and contempt.
"That was amazing" James says finally after he feels as if his breathing as completely returned to normal.
"Mm I know" Kendall grins lazily.
"I love it when you get all animalistic" James smiles.
James can't see the blush that creeps onto Kendall's cheek but he knows it's there. "Don't be embarrassed, silly" James smiles again, "When you pushed me backwards so you were then on top... fuck"
"Good?" Kendall laughs.
"Good doesn't even begin to cover it"
Kendall smiles, satisfied. "I reckon that would have to be one of our best times"
"Hmmm... you might be right" James ponders, "Although that time your parents were out and you fucked me up against the grand piano... that was pretty incredible"
"Ha yeah" Kendall agrees. "Good point. I was surprised the neighbours didn't come complaining. Between all the yelling, screaming and accidental bashing of the piano keys I would say we definitely gave the fellow residents of the street something to talk about"
James' melodic laugh fills the room loudly before he tilts his head down to kiss Kendall's forehead.
Kendall sighs softly, nuzzling further into James' neck. "I wish you weren't going away to college tomorrow... I mean I want you to but I'm going to miss you so much"
"I feel the same. I'm going to be thinking about you every second of the day I reckon"
"No you won't" Kendall chuckles, "You'll be focusing on your music"
"But Kendall, you are my music. You're behind every note I sing and every word I write"
Kendall tilts his head upwards quickly so he can kiss James. "You're so amazing, you know that right?"
"I wouldn't say amazing"
"I would. And I know what you're thinking. Everything that happened last year... Not that I wanted it to happen but I think everything happens for a reason. I think it took all the drama for both of us to truly realise what was right. Don't you agree?"
"Yes... I guess so" James sighs. "I'm going to be worried about you whilst I'm away"
"Why?"
"Well... What if you do something?"
"James I'm not going to hurt myself. I haven't done anything since we got back together"
"I know but that's because I'm here. Whenever I feel like you're about to fall I'm always there ready to catch you. What's going to happen if something like the bathroom incident happens again?"
Kendall cringes slightly as he remembers what James is referring to. Kendall still felt horrible about it and it almost cost James pursing his dreams. Kendall had been taking a shower after what was meant to be a very exciting day; James had got his first acceptance into a performing arts school. James didn't pick that specific school right then and there on the spot because he was going to wait to see if he got anymore but there was still the excitement of knowing someone wanted him. The slight pressure and realisation got to Kendall as it dawned on him that soon James really would be leaving him for college. When he stepped out of the shower he saw James' shaving razor sitting on the bench and the urge to reach out and grab it was like a burning passion within his veins. He would have done it too if it weren't for James barging into the bathroom saying Kendall was taking too long and that he needed to pee but that was soon cut short when he knew what Kendall was about to do.
The night resulted in endless tears and cries and James declaring he wasn't going to go away to college anymore but Kendall had to literally slap him to stop James from saying such things.
"That wasn't your fault though" Kendall sighs.
"No... but what happens if you get that urge again? We're not going to see each other for at least a few months, what if you get the urge and I'm not there to walk in?"
"I promise you it will be ok alright? And I have my Mum and my Dad and I promise I will call you if I ever feel... not great"
"You better" James says sternly. "There's still a small part of me that doesn't want to go tomorrow. I'm going to miss you like crazy"
"Same, but this is your dream and you're going to pursue it. And besides when you're super successful and famous I'm going to be your hot as hockey player boyfriend so let me hold onto that dream ok?"
"Ha ok" James laughs, images of himself standing on stage in front of thousands of people and dedication a song to his "hot as" hockey player boyfriend, "I like the sound of that"
"You know what's going to be weird?" Kendall says. "Going back to school. I feel like I should be graduating too."
"But the little baby needs to finish high school" James teases, earning himself a slap on the chest.
"Actually the little baby is going to be captain of the senior hockey team and be fucking amazing and brag to his singer boyfriend on Skype every night about all the games he is winning"
"Oh well I expect no less!" James smiles.
"You're going to be so great in New York James" Kendall says softly, "And just one year and we can be together again. Just one year... I was looking up on the internet and apparently New York University actually is super renowned for their hockey team..."
"It's all going to work out" James says he kisses Kendall's hair.
"Just don't meet some super cute acting, singing dude over there ok?"
"I only have eyes for you my darling" James says with a soft smile, placing his hand under Kendall's chin to lift him up for a kiss.
"Hey Jamie guess what?" Kendall whispers against James' lips.
"What?"
"I love you"
"I love you too. I have since the minute we first met and I will love you forever and a day, even if you tell me to go"
"I'm never going to tell you to go Jamie"
James smiles as he brings their lips together once more, hands intertwining through Kendall's hair.
"Hey Jamie?" He asks softly.
"Yeah Kendall?"
"Can you sing to me, one last time?"
James kisses Kendall again, before Kendall rests his head into the crook of James' neck and he begins to singly softly.
I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start
You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home
The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone
You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go...
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home
I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'til you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home
You put your arms around me and I'm home
When James finishes the song Kendall can't help but let a few small tears escape down his cheeks.
Before James can question it Kendall looks into his shining hazel eyes and says, "Happy tears Jamie"
"Did I ever tell you that I love you?" James says with a soft smile, stroking Kendall's cheek.
"Did I ever tell you that I loved you more?"
"That's not possible"
Kendall smiles, leaning forward to press their lips together in a kiss that would last a lifetime.
"Love is patient and kind. Love does not envy or boast, is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its on way, is not irritable or resentful. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."
As long as there's love, James and Kendall are going to be ok.
The End.
Dun dun! :) The end :) Sort of...
The suquel I mentioned. There is something burning inside me to write a sequel that is Carlos focused but Kendall and James will still very much be apart of it. Because Kendall and Carlos still have a year of high school it would be set in that time and it's about Carlos and his love life. It will be a slash story, and it will be Cargan... and no not Kendall's Dad :P There will be a new student... Logan Henderson :D I promise if I end up writing it it won't be confusing haha. If I write this sequel it will also focus on how James and Kendall handle their long distance relationship :) So... should I do it? :)