Deserted this story for months now. Sorry for the late update, I've been busy. I hope you'll like this chapter even if it's just short.
Chapter 7: Pressure
Hotaru's P.O.V
After the "truth soda" incident, Mikan and I, alongside with Natsume and Ruka went to Ruka's bedroom to clear things out. There's no point in lying so I decided to tell her the truth. By the way, Mikan was giving me the silent treatment while we're on our way.
" Okay guys, we should talk about the issue now." Said Ruka.
" There's no issue Ruka!" I added, as I sit on Ruka's couch. Ruka went on his bed, Natsume sat beside Ruka and Mikan was facing her back,looking out through the window.
" Yes there is no issue Hotaru. It's just that you're pregnant but you didn't tell me." Mikan said with her not-screaming voice but it's not her usual voice, it's as if she's keeping her tears for flowing. Oh no.
" I have my reasons."
"Oh yeah, you always have a reason. I thought we're bestfriends!"
" Don't give me that "bestfriends should tell secrets" crap. Mikan! You know me. I don't want to bother you with my problems." I was shaking, I don't know why, but this whole thing is making me emotional.
" You know me too Hotaru, I want you to open up. For once I want to feel that I am really your bestfriend. But you know what I'm feeling right now? I feel betrayal and rejection, it's painful." She's still not facing us, but she burst into tears. Natsume stood up to pat her back. Ruka was just staring at me.
" I think we should go now." Said Natsume. " This is not the right time."he added.
" You're right Natsume, but the thing is, for Hotaru there will never be a time to tell me what she's going through. Let's go."said Mikan. With that, she and Natsume went out leaving me and Ruka.
" Hotaru, I am so sorry." Ruka said as he sit beside me in the couch.
" I don't know it was a truth soda."
" It's okay hun. Mikan was just over reacting." I assured him that I am not mad or anything.
" But Hotaru, I can feel that you're sad."
" I am. I don't know why." I felt strong arms wrapped around me and as if on cue, I too felt the need to cry. These tears are for everything that I kept bottled up inside. I felt guilty for not telling Mikan the truth but I felt lonelier because of all people she should understand. I also feel the pressure and fear. What will happen when the higher-ups find out about my condition? How about our parents? For sure they will get disappointed. And for once I thought about what others would say.
" You know Hotaru, this is the first time I saw you crying." Ruka said while he's hugging me.
" I'm a mess. I am such a weakling." I said, still crying my eyes out.
" No. You're the strongest woman. " Ruka really knows how to make me feel better. He hugged me tighter and I felt him kissing my hair. When I looked at him with my puffy eyes, he laughed and smiled.
" You're not that pretty when you cry." The guy's unbelievable and brave for telling me that. He thought that I don't carry my baka gun anymore huh? WRONG!
BAKA!BAKA!BAKA!
" That's for telling me that I'm ugly!" I told him as he lay down on the floor semi-unconcious.
" That hurts!I did not call you ugly! Where does that baka gun of yours come from?"
" I have my ways Nogi." With that I kissed him on the forehead and walked my way out of his room, feeling better.
I need my sleep and I'll talk to Mikan tomorrow.
Thank you for reading, I'll try to update every now and then. RXR.
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