Building Bodhum

New Bodhum 0AF Part 4

''Something's up with Yuj. I thought we sorted it out but he's being distant, he can barely hold a conversation with me. Is it because of Serah being around? What if he's feeling guilty? What if he tells her? He couldn't, he wouldn't. Would he? No, just no, Yuj is one of my closest friends he'd never do something like that. Hope left yesterday; I thought he was the only one angry at me, but what if Yuj is? I should talk to him, get this cleared up properly. I'm sorry Serah… Hope… Yuj… I've messed you all around. Argh… my head's such a mess.''

Yuj was sitting on the pier, gazing into the horizon, the wind blowing through his long blue hair. His legs were hanging over the edge of the pier, almost breaking the surface of the water. He was thinking again, which meant he was feeling low again. Snow had just woken up, everyone else was still asleep. He walked down the steps of the house and noticed Yuj on the pier. He approached Yuj, the creaking of the pier alerted Yuj to Snows presence. He turned his head around to be greeted by Snow without his bandana or trench coat.

'' You alright, Yuj?'' Snow asked.

Yuj looked towards the sunset as Snow sat to the right of him. ''Yeah, I'm great, why wouldn't I be?''

''It's just… are you sure you're alright?'' Snow knew he wasn't okay, it was obvious.

''It's something you said that I'm only just beginning to understand.'' Yuj began. ''You said the other week that you had recently found out you were attracted to guys. That was because of Hope, wasn't it?'' Yuj asked bluntly.

''Uh...'' Snow was stunned. What could he say? Should he lie? No, that wouldn't solve anything. ''Yes. Yuj… I'm sorry.''

''Sorry for what? Why are you apologising to me? It's Serah you cheated on.'' Yuj was more aggressive, he was growing tired of how Snow was. He was tired of Snow.

''Yuj…'' Snow was lost for words.

''Whatever Snow. I've known you for, what feels like forever. You've always been a ladies man, you'd get girl after girl, night after night. Then you met Serah and it all changed. You changed, maybe for the better, but…'' Yuj trailed off.

''But what Yuj?'' Snow snapped.

''It's not about Hope, I'm not angry at you for that. It's just, you fell in love with Serah. That crushed me, because, I loved you the moment I met you, yeah I was young but I knew.'' Yuj looked down. ''I still love you.'' Suddenly anger swept over Yuj and he began shouting at Snow. ''How can I be friends with someone that I want much more with! Tell me how can that work!'' At this point Yuj was crying, trying to hide behind his hair by turning away from Snow.

''What do you want me to say Yuj? What is it that you expect me to say!'' Snow was angry at this point, why was it always his fault that these things happened? It was Yuj who kissed him, it was Yuj who was in love with him.

''I don't know, I think I just expect you to say everything's going to be alright… even when it's not.'' Yuj held his head in his hands as he sobbed into them. Snow put his arm around Yuj and held him close.

''Yuj. I am so sorry that I cause you pain. I'm sorry I can't be exactly what you want, exactly what you need. I'm sorry for everything.'' He stood up, and pulled Yuj up with him. ''Come here.'' He held Yuj tightly in his arms. Yuj buried his face in Snows chest.

''I'm sorry too Snow. I shouldn't expect these things from you, it's not your fault. It's just easy to blame you. I shouldn't expect you to love me back.'' Yuj looked into Snows eyes. ''If we can't be more than friends, I should settle for that because that's all I'm going to get. I'll never be happy if I cling onto those feelings, if I cling onto you. I learned that when you love someone, you let them go.''

At that point Yuj eased from Snows embrace, he looked him once again in the eyes.

''I'll see you at dinner, it's time to get our friendship back on track.'' Yuj smiled, and he turned and slowly walked away.

''Yeah, see you later.'' Snow sat back down and stared into the sunset.

Yuj walked down the pier and towards the NORA house. He was crying again, however this time he cried silently. As he reached the NORA house he dried his tears, took a deep breath and entered.

''Good morning Yuj.'' A happy voice chirped.

Yuj looked towards a pink haired girl, it was Serah. ''Hey Serah, good morning.'' He smiled, walked towards his room. He sat down on his bed and lay backwards across the width of the bed.

Snow was still on the pier. He looked towards the crystal pillar and muttered to himself.

''Is it really you Light? Is it really you talking to me in my dreams?''