This chapter is rather short but right now I'm just stressed about my exams results on Friday. It's stupid cause I can't do anything about it now, but anyway I'll stop talking about my oh so interesting life (irony intended) and let you read this chapter. Don't forget to tell me what you think of it ! Reviews are always welcome.

Apparently he had gone really fast, because when Michael came back from the drugstore with the pregnancy test he had run to buy, Julia was still eating her breakfast like nothing had changed in his absence. He laid the test on the table, just next to her, so that she would notice it, but didn't say anything, so that she wouldn't feel like he was pushing her, even though she probably was already feeling that way.

She finished the bowl of cereals in front of her and grabbed the box she had been too scared to buy herself. She knew she would be disappointed if it turned out negative, and if it turned out to be positive she couldn't even imagine what would happen. That's why, until now, she had preferred not knowing, even if she knew this wasn't the right solution to her problems. In fact she was grateful that Michael had finally decided to do something about it.

She slowly rose from her chair and went to the bathroom. Michael followed her there but she wouldn't let him in.
"I need to do this on my own." She was looking in his eyes and the only thing he could do was to respect her wishes so he let her close the door behind her, leaving him alone behind it. He was just standing there, not knowing what to do with himself, as if his whole life was depending on what was happening behind this door but he had no control about it. The only thing he could do was stand there, so he was standing there.

Behind the door Julia wasn't really feeling more comfortable. She was reading the instructions on the box but her mind was just so loud that she couldn't seem to make any sense out of it. She took a deep breath and cleared out her mind. She could do this, she just had to pee on a stick, how hard could it be ?

When she finally did what she had to do, she noticed that she wasn't wearing a watch, that there was no clock in her bathroom and that her phone wasn't here but probably in the living room. She couldn't go out and grab it because then she would run into Michael and right now she just needed privacy. It was already hard to deal with her own feelings, she couldn't deal with his as well. She damned herself for never wearing a watch and started counting the seconds in her head. At least it was keeping her mind busy so that she didn't have to think about the consequences this test would have on her life.

5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0.
She grabbed the test to see the result and put it back quickly. She tumbled down to earth, sitting next to the toilet, just where she and Michael had been sitting this morning, and just burst into tears.

Michael opened the door as soon as he heard her crying. Her head was on her knees and she didn't raise it when he opened the door. His first instinct would have been to go and hold her in his arms, but first he wanted to know what had made her react that way, so he went to see what the result was and was surprised to see that it was positive. Julia was carrying his child. For him it was only a source of joy and he couldn't understand why Julia was crying and couldn't seem to stop.

He went to sit next to her and gently put her head on his lap. The sobbing stopped as he was stroking her hair but the tears just didn't seem to come to an end.
"Why are you crying Jules ? That's amazing, we're going to have a baby."
She took her head off his lap and straightened up against the wall, still sitting next to him.
"Me being pregnant doesn't mean we're going to have a baby. I have already miscarried two and the doctors said my chances of ever carrying one to terms are really low. And I don't think that me getting older really helps with that."

Michael nodded as he was taking in the informations. The joy he had been feeling was slowly decreasing. But somehow he still had hope. Deep inside him something was telling him that everything would be fine, that they would see that baby one day.
"I don't want to go through it again. I think I won't be able to handle it this time."
"I will always be there with you, through everything. No matter what happens you can count on me." He put his hand on her stomach, where his son or daughter was already growing up. "Maybe we will have our miracle."
Her tears had stopped and she finally smiled. It was a small smile but it was there.
"I hope we will." She put her hand on top of his.
"I have always wanted to have another kid, Jules. The fact that it's with you just makes my heart flutter."
She laughed at what he had just said. It was so cheesy. But somehow it made her heart flutter too and she laughed as she was thinking that. They were so cliche. "Me too, I just thought that would never happen. Even the adoption wouldn't work."

They both leaned towards each other and when their lips met it was like electricity running through both their bodies. The news of Julia being pregnant was finally accepted like good news and they intended to enjoy it. Their clothes were rapidly discarded all over the bathroom floor and the tears were long forgotten. Now they were just enjoying each other and celebrating the life growing inside her. She was aware that it was her last chance at being a parent again and she promised herself she would do everything she could to make it work.