Agonizing Ch 5

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"Oh, um... I guess I'll see you later then," Blaine faked seduction.

Sebastian sent him a repulsive wink as he sauntered off.

Blaine started panicking, searching desperately for Kory. He saw all of the jocks forming a circle, sans Karofsky, surprising Blaine. Karofsky was Michael's second-in-command. He finally spotted Kory's curly brown hair. Blaine quickly ran to him, pulling him into a hug. "I haven't seen you in forever!"

Kory grinned lopsidedly. "I know! It's great to see you!"

Kory was usually mistaken as Blaine's twin brother, the only differences were Kory's height, gold-flecked emerald eyes, and slightly deeper voice. Other than that, you couldn't tell them apart.

"Okay, I'm going to set this thing up, and I'm going to have to leave. So I'll need you to stay in that room," he gestured to the room to their left, "And I'll say that I'm waiting for him, and... Yeah. I can't thank you enough, Kory."

"Seriously, Blaine. Don't mention it! I'll see you tomorrow?"

Blaine smiled. "Yeah, sure thing. I'll see you tomorrow."

Blaine walked over to where Sebastian was sitting, bending over to whisper, "I'm waiting."

Blaine didn't seem to make the connection as he eyed Sebastian's Dalton Academy blazer. He also didn't notice his phone ringing as Kurt's name flashed on the screen, his phone falling onto the floor as he left through the back door, pretending he was heading towards the bedroom

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Blaine couldn't find his phone the next day, so he had no way to contact Kurt or Kory. He decided to drive to Kurt's house to spend some time with him. Blaine had a key, so he let himself in to find Kurt crying on the couch. He immediately knew something terrible had happened, because Kurt never cried, no matter what situation, he never cried.

Kurt's swollen eyes widened as he spotted Blaine at the entrance. "B-Blaine, wha-at are you doing h-here?" he asked, sobs still wracking his body.

Blaine rushed to Kurt's side and pulled him onto his lap, never noticing the way Kurt flinched at first. "Love, what's wrong?"

Kurt only wrapped his arms around Blaine's neck, sobbing even harder as he rested his head against Blaine's chest.

Blaine cupped Kurt's face in his hands. Kurt looked up to see Blaine's eyes filled with worry and agony. "Kurt, can you explain to me what's wrong?"

Kurt shook his head before lunging forward and pressing his lips to Blaine's. Blaine kissed back for a few minutes before pulling away, his hands soothingly running up and down the sides of Kurt's waist. "Sweetheart, you're avoiding the question."

"No, Blaine, I just... I just need you. I need to know that you love me, and that I'm not as filthy as I feel." His breathing had evened out, but he was on the verge of tears again.

Blaine's eyes softened as Kurt said this, a sad smile splaying across his face. "Of course you aren't filthy. You are pure, and sweet, and perfect." He laid down on the couch and gently pulled Kurt to rest his head on Blaine's chest. Kurt leaned down to kiss Blaine softly, yet chastely. Kurt smiled, though it only slightly reached his eyes. "I'm so in love with your smile," Blaine started, kissing Kurt in between each statement, "I'm in love with your crystalline eyes," a soft kiss was pressed to Kurt's forehead, "And I'm in love with your personality. You have no reason to hate yourself as much as you do, because I love you so much, that you're all I can think about every second of every day, and I can't help but dream of you every night, especially when I'm having a bad day and I just need something to go right."

"I love you, too," Kurt sighed happily as his lips caressed the side Blaine's neck, making Blaine's heart beat erratically, causing Blaine to pull Kurt closer.

After a few hours of talking and whispers of sweet, lingering words, and soft kisses, Blaine decided it was time for him to go home.

"Don't forget me," Kurt whispered before Blaine surprised him with a passionate kiss.

"Never. You're mine, only mine, and you're going to stay mine forever. I love you. "

Kurt smiled with glittering tears before hugging Blaine tightly. "I'll always be yours. I love you, too." As he closed the door, he whispered, "More than you could ever know."

The events of the night before were the last thing on Kurt's mind, but that didn't mean they didn't haunt him every time someone held him a little too tight.

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The next day, Kurt received a text from Blaine.

Hey, babe. Meet me in the library. It's important.

There was no 'I love you,' and Blaine never called him 'babe,' and that made Kurt suspicious, but he went anyways.

"You promise you slept with him?" Kurt heard Michael's voice.

"Yes. I did, cheating on my boyfriend in the process. Happy?" Blaine's voice boomed agitatedly.

"Sure. Looks like I'll leave you and your fairy princess live your happily ever after."

Kurt didn't think his heart could break as much as it did. It was all a lie.

Blaine spotted Kurt the moment he said those words, and felt remorse instantly. "Well, if you're done with this interrogation, I have better places to be," he spat angrily before following where Kurt had run off. "Kurt!" he called, desperation growing with each call. "Kurt!"

Kurt slowly turned around. He sighed before saying, "Blaine, save it. I'll meet you at home." With that, he started to walk home, but Blaine stopped him yet again.

"Kurt, just let me drive you home. I'll explain everything once we get there. I promise."

Kurt hesitated before nodding and following Blaine to his car.

Blaine paused before reaching out to Kurt. "Can I... Can I just hug you? I've missed being close to you."

Kurt meekly inched towards Blaine, letting him wrap his arms around his waist.

Once Kurt allowed himself to wrap his arms around Blaine's neck, Blaine whispered softly in his ear, "I just need you to trust me, so I can have even the slightest assurance that you love me just as much as I love you."

Kurt looked into Blaine's eyes before pressing his lips to Blaine's chastely, pulling away swiftly and entering the passenger's seat.

"I'm trying," was all that Blaine heard before the door slammed shut.

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Once they arrived at Kurt's house and were settled on the couch, Kurt decided it was time to bring it up after an awkward silence. "Just... Tell me the truth. Did you really sleep with him?"

Blaine soothingly wrapped his arms around Kurt, noticing the way Kurt flinched at the contact. "No. I had a plan, and that plan didn't involve cheating on you, okay? My friend, Kory, did it for me. I know that when we were just friends, you didn't believe in love, and you're starting to lose faith in my love for you, but Kurt, you are everything to me. Why can't you see that?"

Kurt looked into Blaine's eyes, and Blaine could see everything Kurt had been hiding, every word he'd ever wanted to say to someone. "It seems as if you doubt my love for you more than I doubt your love for me. I just... I can't help feeling insecure and thinking that there's someone out there who's better for you. It hurts me to think about it, but-"

"Stop, Kurt! Stop pitying yourself! You don't get it! I am so in love with you, and I don't care that I say it way more than I should, but I do, and I am going to keep saying it until the day that I die. Just stop telling me that you're not good enough! You're pushing it, Kurt!"

Kurt visibly winced as Blaine's voice rose, and for the first time, Kurt somehow saw the anger he saw in the Karofsky's eyes a couple nights before in Blaine's. He began to quiver and breathe shakily, his scars prominently aching. Blaine's outburst was as if Kurt was slapped, immediately jerking away from Blaine.

Blaine's eyes widened as he realized what he'd done. "Kurt, no-"

"I'm sorry for telling you the truth, because we're always honest with each other, well until you decided it'd be fine to lie to me about the party. I'm honestly not as comfortable in my body as I was before, and you have no right to yell at me for being honest with you. I want everything to be okay, and I don't see why you want to settle for me. It's not supposed to work like this. You're the popular Blaine Anderson, they guy that has the voice of an angel, and is the most gorgeous person in the world, you're not supposed to fall for the broken, invisible loser named Kurt Hummel that freaks out every time someone raises their voice or fist."

Blaine automatically pulled him closer, kissing every inch of Kurt's porcelain face. "I'm sorry, love. I didn't mean to lose my temper. I'm so sorry for lying to you, and I need you to love yourself for who you are. You are beautiful, and flawless, and I love everything about you. You're what I've been looking for, and, you're the one who completes me. Don't you dare think that there's someone out there that could make me happier than you do. I'm going to help you. It's all right."

Blaine never knew that this made Kurt realize he had reached the end.

That night, Kurt fell asleep in Blaine's arms, sobbing his heart out, because, no, it would never be all right. He finally realized it was all over, that it was time for his goodbyes, all while his boyfriend slept soundly in naïve bliss.

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The next chapter is going to be heartbreaking, well, for anyways, since I'm love with Kurt, but even if you aren't, it's going to be pretty emotional.

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