A/N: I added another song in here because I really couldn't decide between the two. It is 'One and Only' by Adele…. I know all the songs are by her but they are so fitting for this story and I really love the songs. Head to edit these songs out as well. Sorry.

Chapter 7

Hotch laid in bed thinking of what he would say to her if she came to see him. Sleep finally overtook him around three thirty in the morning and he dreamed of her. He always dreamed of her. He dreamed about the night of JJ's wedding and how she felt in his arms. How her lips had felt on his skin. He dreamed of the pained look in her eyes before she ran away from him. That look, he never wanted to see again because he knew it was his fault it was there in the first place.

Emily had gone to bed when she got home; putting off watching the DVD until she was rested. Emily now sat at the island in her kitchen drinking her coffee. She missed Hotch and Jack. She missed the way Jack would curl in to her side while they watched TV or a movie. She missed how he would crawl onto her lap when she would read him a bedtime story. She just missed him.

She missed Hotch. She missed the way he would smile at her, showing her his dimples. She missed the way he talked to Jack. Not very many people got to see the softer side of him and she felt privileged to be able to witness it. She missed the way he sat beside her on the couch and would watch TV or a movie with her and Jack. She missed his scent, his eyes, how they sparkled when he smiled. She just missed him.

Emily made her way to the couch where she had set up her laptop. Setting the crutches on the floor beside the couch, she turned on the laptop and put in the DVD.

She pulled up the DVD drive on pushed play and waited for whatever was on it to start. Hotch suddenly appeared on the screen; sitting in her favorite chair in his office holding a guitar, and then he began to speak.

"Emily, I miss you. I miss seeing your face. I miss hearing your laugh. I miss your beautiful eyes and the way the corners crinkle when you laugh. I miss the way they sparkle when you're happy. I miss the way the fire burns in them when you're mad. I miss you. You know I have never been able to show my emotions very easily so I thought maybe this would help me express how I feel." He said as he positioned the guitar and began to play. He sang to her, quite well, better than she had thought he would sound. She recognized the song, it was 'One and Only' by Adele. She had always loved this song.

The song ended and Emily paused the DVD and put her head in her hands before she started to rub her temples. She had sat there and watched him sing for her, to her and she loved his voice. It was so smooth and it seemed to draw her in. but that was beside the point right now. He had sung to her and that was something no one had ever done for her. He was showing her a side of himself that she didn't even know existed. He as telling her something she had wanted for so long but never in her wildest dreams did she ever think would happen. He was telling her that he had feelings for her, but was it enough? She didn't know.

She un-paused the DVD and watched as he laid the guitar in his lap.

"Emily, I know that this was not nearly enough to express what I am feeling but maybe you could find it in your heart to see me at least one last time. If for the only reason, I never got to tell you goodbye. There is so much more I want to say but it can wait till you are ready to see me.

Hotch picked up the guitar again and began to play another song by Adele, 'Don't You Remember'. It was an emotional song for him. she could hear the emotions in his voice and it broke her heart to know she had caused that sound in him.

Before the DVD went black Emily could see the tears in Hotch's eyes and it broke her heart to know that she had caused him this pain. She had to decide what she wanted to do. She knew she had hurt him when she left. She knew it was wrong to leave that way and it ate her up inside to know that she had caused the man she loves pain. But it hurt her to see him with Beth and she couldn't sit by and watch him moving forward in his life while she had stalled in her past.

Now how to handle this? That was the biggest question of all and she had not a single idea of what she was going to do.