Hey guys sorry it took me so long to update. I was busy with some stuff. But now! I'm here. Yesterday was my birthday and I turned 20 years old! YAY! I feel old. Actually not really. I like this feeling. One more year and im going to vegas. Cuz that's where my mom wants to take me. But i dunno. I hope you enjoy my story. I made it long. I think. I dunno what's long to you guys.

Disclaimer: I do not own The vampire Academy. Just the plot. And caleb. hehehe enjoy

"Rose! Stop! Please!" Dimitri yelled at me. I put my hands on my knees breathing deeply. I looked up at Dimitri through my hair and pushed it back.

"What did I do something wrong?" I gasped out.

"No, you look like you were about to run a marathon." He fell back his chest heaving up and down. "I can't keep up with you" I laughed and he gave me a pointed look and I shut up right away. I can't believe that Dimitri has been training me for 2 weeks. 2 weeks and we got nowhere. Yesterday we took a trip to the gym. I was still limping and the stitches on my eyebrow didn't help much. I was still in pain but I was slowly recovering.

*Flashback*

"Harder!" Dimitri pushed me.

I closed my eyes, and started to run on the treadmill faster.

"FASTER!" He yelled. Dimitri was really going to the extreme.

I gasped out and the belt gave out from under me and I fell. Oh did it hurt. I grabbed my chest and cried out in pain.

"Rose!" Dimitri came running over to me. He lifted me up and I cried. "We can stop." He cried out to me.

I shook my head. "No. No stop. We need to do this. I have to do this" I felt sore all over the place.

Dimitri nodded and we worked harder. I had gotten a couple good runs going. Then it was the fighting stage. I didn't like that part. But I had to do what I had to do. He tempted me to the point where I would hit him. I didn't like hurting Dimitri but I did it anyways. I cried as I had hit him many times. When I had finally gotten him down, I hit his chest and his arms. I didn't think I would be here right now if it was my father. He would have knocked me off and started to beat the shit out of me. I punched Dimitri in the face and he clutched his face and backed away from me. I gasped out crying. I went over to him to touch him, but he backed away from me. His hand out to me.

"No," Dimitri gasped out. "Rose. Stay away"

I held my knees to my chest and started crying. "I'm Sorry. Please don't hurt me Dimitri. I didn't mean too. You told me to."

I had no idea what I was doing and I didn't think it was wrong. He told me to attack and I did. I didn't know I would hurt him. I was so scared Dimitri was going to hurt me or leave me. Please, don't hate me. Please don't hate me. I chanted over and over in my head. I was scared for me and for Dimitri. Mainly for me, he was mad at me and I caused this to him.

I was in someone's arms at this time. I started crying harder. "I'm sorry Dimitri." I didn't know where Dimitri was but I knew that I might have been in his arms.

"She's in shock" I heard someone say.

"What happened?" I heard a new voice. Not someone I know.

"We were fighting. Well I was training her and she hit me. I guess I didn't take the hit good, and I scared her. She never hits back. I pushed her too far." I knew that was Dimitri. He was blaming himself? No Dimitri. Don't blame yourself sweetie. It was me. I wanted to do this. Fight back. I wanted to say to Dimitri. But those words didn't come out.

*Flashback*

That wasn't our first time fighting. But that was the last time I used Dimitri as a punching bag. The next time I was using the punching bag he set up in the backyard. We practiced there since we weren't allowed back at the gym.

The owner thought we were trouble since we were young and teenagers. Yeah, that would put suspicion on someone, but two teens wanting to fight? Nah! That's not suspicious at all. I closed my eyes.

Be one with the bag. One with the bag, okay. That wasn't very good. Last time I was one with the bag. The bag knocked me over into yesterday. I swear I was a week behind. Not to mention I was a little slow on running.

So my training began right now. I was punching the bag left and right, kicking it. My leg going up higher then I had anticipated. Dimitri sat over in a corner reading his book. I smirked, my Dimitri. I started to punch the bag harder. I felt eyes behind me, my family was watching me. I was working myself into a sweat. I hadn't noticed I was punching really hard until Dimitri ran over to me and grabbed my arm.

"Stop baby. Please" He whispered in my ear. "Stop"

I had finally stopped and looked at the man in front of me. "What happened?"

I was clueless I hadn't known what was going on. I was just in a daze, and then I looked at my hands. Ah! I was bleeding from the knuckles. Dimitri swore in Russian. He did that a lot around me. I guess I made him all angsty and what not. I closed my eyes and then opened them too look at him. I sighed and looked down.

"I'm sorry Dimitri. I didn't know what I was doing. Please don't hate me"

"Hate you? Roza, I could never." He sighed. "But you need to keep an eye on what you do. Your hands are bleeding baby. Please don't do that ever again."

"I'm sorry."

We took a break and we ended up inside, we ate and sleep. I woke up to something poking my side. I chuckled. Well, someone was happy to see me. I rolled over and wrapped my leg around his waist. Pressing my front against his hard-on, I started to grind into him and bit my lip. Mmm, I missed this.

"Are you trying to rape me?" He chuckled.

"Don't say that Dimitri!" I hit his chest. "Why would you say that? I would never try to rape you. You know I wouldn't"

"Oh god Roza, no I would never think that. I'm sorry. Oh god. Please forgive me" He sat up and grabbed Rose around the waist. "I love you." He looked so hurt. I bit my lip to hold back a laugh.

"I'm just kidding Dimitri. Don't get your panties in a twist."

"I don't wear panties. You do." He raised an eyebrow at me.

"Not at the moment" I winked at him and giggled as he rolled on top of me. I laughed and looked up at him. "All you have to do is take off your pants." I winked at him.

He looked like he didn't need to be told twice. I laughed and watched as he took off his pants and his boxers. I leaned my head back and groaned. "Oh god Dimitri you're so sexy"

He looked at me weird "Uh rose are you feeling okay?"

I nodded and bit my lip getting on my hands and knees crawling over to him. "Yes I feel perfect. I feel like I can fly. Don't worry comrade, I'm not that bad." I kissed up his stomach and licked the planes of his chest and up to his neck and to his lips. I closed my eyes. "Mmm. Do you want me?"

He nodded and gripped my waist. "Last time we had sex, we weren't protected."

"So, what do you expect me to do?" I cocked my head to the side. "I'm use to it Dimitri. There's no way I can be pregnant. I had my period last week. You know that. So, I can't get pregnant. My insides are all fucked up because I was sexually abused since I was 12. I don't care if I can't have any more kids. I just want Caleb. That's it."

Dimitri looked at me like I have grown 3 heads. "No more kids?"

I nodded. "No more kids. I know how you guys are about kids. Once a woman says they're pregnant the man runs for the hills. I've seen it on TV."

"Then you don't know me Rose." Dimitri backed away from me and pulled his pants back on.

"Wait, where are you going?" I reached out to him but he stepped back. I almost hit the floor.

He looked at her and shook his head. "I want kids Rose. With someone I love."

"You will one day." I said looking at him. I don't know what got into him.

"No Rose. I won't because the girl I love doesn't want to have kids with me."

I Gasped and put a hand over my mouth. "You want to have kids with me." I shook my head. "No, Dimitri. You can't I'm not the right one for you. My life is so fucked up. I don't want you to ruin your life because of me"

He scoffed. "Too late all ready did. I'm in it because I want to be. I chose to be in your life Rosemarie. And I'm not leaving. Until you break up with me. Or if I die."

I closed my eyes and then looked back up at him as I sat on the bed. "You can't do this to yourself Dimitri. You're going to get hurt because of me. No matter what happens, I always end up hurting everyone."

Dimitri grabbed his shirt. "So what now"

I took a deep breath. How can I let this man go he's my life, and I just can't let him leave me like this? I just got use to him being around and he's my trainer. I can't do that. It'll be awkward with the trainings. I slept with the man. I saw what he looks like naked.

"I guess this is good bye Dimitri" I held my breath and he walked over to me and kissed my forehead.

"Then it's goodbye Roza." He whispered against my forehead. "We will still train because I can't see you weak again." I nodded words escaped me. I couldn't talk. I just broke up with my boyfriend and he's okay with it.

"Before you go, I want you to have something." I reached over and handed him a picture. "This is me in the hospital with Caleb. He was just born. I want you to have it. It's when I thought all my worries and troubles were gone. I was free of that man." I bit my lip and looked down. "It's also a reminder that I existed and I am not one of the women you forgot."

Dimitri held it in his hands and nodded. "I will always remember you Roza. I won't forget you, and in the future I will fight to get you back, because you just mean that much to me."

I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him deeply. "I love you Dimitri."

He left his lips linger a bit more on mine before he pulled away. "I will always love you Roza."

I sunk my shoulders as I looked back at the door where it shut. I breathed deeply trying to compose myself. It was the first time I didn't cry. I knew I would see him again. It's not like he was going to get a new girlfriend. Would he? I shook my head of that thought. No! Dimitri wouldn't. But then again who am I to say. Today was going on so well that I had let him slip through my fingers. What did I just do?

(DPOV)

I walked out of the house. I couldn't even think about what just happened. One minute we were about to have sex and the next thing I knew I was out of the house on my way to mine. My mother knew I stayed at Rose's house on the weekends but today. It just didn't seem right. What did I do? I should have shut my mouth before I let anything out. I knew Rose wasn't ready for more kids. I mean she's 18. The last one was an accident. She didn't mean to have Caleb. I should have just minded my own business. But now I'm kicking myself in the ass as I walk into the house and my family was sitting on the couch and I just ignored the little quips they were saying.

"Dimitri, did Rose finally come to her senses and just beat you up too?" Viktoria said.

"You know Dimitri if you have too much sex your dick will fall off" Karolina said.

"How can you date someone with a kid Dimitri?" Sonya started. "You're 18 years old and you're all ready in too deep with her."

I closed my eyes as the rants went on and on. I gripped my hands at my sides, my knuckles were turning white.

"Ooh look he's getting angry" My sister cooed at me.

"Shut up" I whispered.

"Oh what was that we can't hear you?"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP! ALL OF YOU! I'VE HAD IT!" I yelled and walked into the kitchen down towards the basement where my room was. I heard footsteps behind me and I knew it was either my mom or my grandmother. I turned around and saw Tasha standing there. Her black raven hair up in a bun and she wore pink fuzzy pajamas. "What Tasha?"

"I heard what they were saying about you. I don't think that's right." She said. "I'm sorry about what happened. Christian called me and told me what happened. Did you two really break up?"

I nodded my head staying quiet. I didn't know what else to do.

"Look she'll come around. She'll realize that she had let go a wonderful man. And who am I just to say, I never had a boyfriend. And who would? I have a scar on my face, and no man would look twice at me" She looked at her feet.

"You are beautiful, if that's what you're trying to point out? That scar makes you who you are. And don't you worry about it, guys are retarded and they don't know any better." I shook my head.

She scoffed. "You're just saying that because I'm your cousin." I shook my head again. "No you aren't saying this because I'm your cousin." I nodded.

"Tasha, you're so beautiful, I didn't know you were my cousin until someone told me. We never met and I just couldn't stop. It sounds wrong now. I know. But Tasha, you will find that right man. I'm in my state of mind right now because the woman I love so much doesn't want me in her life. That hurt me. For a little while I'll be hurt. But I'll get over it. True, I have to see her every day. But false, my feelings will never go away for her."

Tasha just stared at me like I grew three heads. "What?"

"Nothing Dimitri, it's just you always know what to say, even when you just get dumped. I love that about you. That's why you're my favorite cousin." She said matter-of-factly. "And I want to get to know this Rose girl. And see what her deal is. You don't talk much about her."

I shook my head for the third time this night. "No you don't want to know what her deal is. She's been through hell Tasha. Believe me. I know. I saw it first-hand. And felt the wrath. It's not a happy story and it doesn't have a happy ending."

She gasped and put her hand to her mouth. "Rose is one of those teens that have gotten knocked up by her ex-boyfriend he beat her and left her."

"Not exactly, I shouldn't be the one to tell you this story. But like you said. You want to get to know her you do it, but like I said. You don't want to know the story behind rose Hathaway."

"I'll take your word for it Dimka." She smiled a bit. "I want you to know that if you ever need to talk. Please talk to me"

I nodded and with that she left. Oh Tasha. You don't know what you're in for. I walked to my closet and pulled out my clothes and changed into my pajama's and lay on my bed. I had remembered the first time I brought rose here on my bed. She liked the feel of the water in the mattress she sat on it and she pretended she was on a ship and had me press down on the bed to make waves. Later that day she was on the side of my bed throwing up. She got sea sick, from a bed. I chuckled at that memory.

*flashback*

"Aye Maties, we have a big one here" Rose yelled as she stood up on the bed. "More waves comrade. I'm not feeling my pirate side"

I laughed and pressed down on the bed, and making more waves.

"ARGH!" She bellowed out. "I am the captain of the flying Dutchman. YO HO-HO and a BOTTLE OF RUM"

"Rose please you are making my sides her." I laughed harder than usual.

"It's not Rose Scally-wag. It's Captain Rose Hathaway! Now into the brig you go!" She sat down and put her hand to her head and closed her eyes. "Too much wave's comra..." She leaned over and vomited onto my floor and shoes.

"Oh no" I ran over to her, and looked down at my shoes. I wasn't worried about them.

"I'm sorry Comrade. No more pirates. I'm done." She laid back and I wiped her mouth.

"Hush love. Rest," I kissed her head and held her hand. "Sleep captain rose."

"Don't say that. Every time you say that, I'll vomit." She gagged.

"I'm sorry baby. Sleep now Roza"

She snuggled into me and nodded. "Yes sir." She mocked saluted me and she was out like a light.

*Flashback*

"Dimitri" I heard her voice.

"Dimitri" I heard it again.

"DIMITRI!" I felt water all over my face.

"What!" I got up and yelled. I looked at my bed and saw Rose standing there with a cup in her hand her head cocked to the side.

"You are late for practice. I was out there waiting for an hour and you didn't show up. So I came over." She placed her hands on her hips. Okay where did this cocky Rose come from?

"Sorry. I'll get dressed. We'll practice." I got up and took my clothes off I heard a sharp intake of breath. I looked back at Rose. Shit I forgot she was in here. Wait how can I forget? Her presences is strong enough alone."I'm sorry; I'll get dressed in the bathroom."

"No, don't leave. I'll just go." She started. Her brown eyes dancing with glee as she got to see my body again.

"No, don't go. I want to talk to you. About us and about what happened yesterday." I stated.

"Please let's forget yesterday happened okay. I just hate that you left me. I didn't want to break up with you and what you were offering scared me. I mean I do want kids in the future. But just the thought of being pregnant again scared me. I almost lost Caleb in the delivery room. I don't want to go through that emotional hurt again." She knotted her fingers in front of her.

"I understand. The talk of it scared me too. I don't know why I brought it up. I just wanted to let you know that you're the one for me." I walked closer to her.

She looked up at me and didn't move as I got closer. "Can we start over?"

"Yes" I nodded and looked at her.

"I'm Rose Hathaway. I was raped and abused when I was younger. I'm 18 years old; I have a one year old son. And you look like sex on a stick"

"I'm Dimitri Belikov. I'm 18 years old. I was abused by my father. I beat him to a pulp when I was 13. I like to be alone sometimes and read western novels. And when I look at you all I see is a girl who wants to get into my pants" I smirked. Being cocky.

"True that Mr. Belikov. So true" I looked at her and saw her in a crouching pose and she jumped after me. Making me fall back in the bed and I moaned.

"Mmm. Oh you're a bad girl" I whispered and looked up at her.

"I think we need to finish something we started yesterday." She looked at me smiling.

I think you can guess what else we have done for awhile and let me just say. Make up sex was amazing when the girl I was with was amazing and like a wild animal.

Ta-da! Its not done yet. I had to add in Dimitri's POV bc I want to write in his POV. there will be more POV's to come. You shall wait. Because I haven't a computer and i only get to use my uncles on the weekends. Hope you enjoyed this. Now review pwease! thank you all.

-J.R. St. James.