Disclaimer: I do not own Uraboku.
Sorry for making Yuki such an emo boy...here. But I bet this is his reaction when Kanata dies...o.o he gets all depressed and stuff, ignoring EVERYONE. I bet everyone is going to go "Aw...poor LUKA." Bleh, but I can care less about Opast boy. (Sorry to Luka fans...I have some apathy for this dud here...so beware!)
Enjoy part 2 of this depressing journey to self discovery and self embrace! Nah, I'm just kidding. It's a gigantic plot hole which shall never be filled in.
=)
The color of the sky matched the mood Yuki was in. He was gloomy, depressed, remorseful, grievous, anything that was the opposite of joy and content.
Locked in. Isolated. Disconnected.
His eyes stared into space and his breathing slow, but his heart was in mayhem.
Kanata. Was. Gone. Forever. The fact did not settle into Yuki's mind in a tranquil way. It had set off alarms and emotions he was scared to feel, it was as if he was abandoned once again. The world seemed bleak and dark. There was no glimpse of hope.
A female voice would occasionally call out in his mind, "Luka," The affection in that voice had moved Yuki, but he felt empty and a bit of apathy for the man he had always depended on. He did not want to feel these emotions anymore; it would only break his heart again. He wish he could split into two and let the one inside him take over, so he may sleep inside her and never wake up to face the cruel world ever again.
A knock erupted from behind the door. Yuki clutched onto his quilt and stared at the gray sky, it was going to cry.
"Yuki! Please! Open up! You have to eat!" Toko was shouting through the door, even though her efforts were in vain, she continued to try to get through to Yuki for a few more minutes before giving up. Yuki closed his eyes and heaved a soft sigh.
Everyone had tried to get Yuki out of his room, but he wouldn't budge out of his state of depression.
They would leave the food in front of his door and let him eat alone.
Little did he know that he was causing turmoil to everyone.
Luka didn't know what to do. Yuki had shut him out right after they had returned back to the Twilight mansion. Nobody was able to offer consoling words to Yuki. They were tired themselves from the long battle against the duras that day. The guardians were simply worn out and completely exhausted, giving in to the temptations of resting and recovering their energy. They just didn't know what to say and they didn't know the fact that Yuki had concealed such deep affections for the older man for this long.
Yuki's body was exhausted and lacked the necessary nutrients. His stomach growled ferociously, begging to be fed and satisfied. But Yuki didn't give in. He just clutched to his pillow and force his eyes shut and his whole body would indulge into a deep slumber state.
He had nightmares every time. Kanata's death would replay in his dreams over and over. He cried countless times, which had left a damp pillow. He could care less about his tear stained pillow because he would only cry more.
If only Yuki could find salvation and peace of mind…escape reality…impossible.
"Kanata-san…"
Yuki's voice was faint and frail when he called out the name to the open darkness. His closed eyes leaked tears which streamed down his face.
The sky cried with him, heavy raindrops clattered down on the window glass. The cold darkness swept in and consumed everything.
Why?
Why did Kanata have to die?
Why couldn't light and darkness be together?
Why did he have to love Kanata so dearly?
Why did he have to have to such high hopes that he would be able to save Kanata?
Why?
Slowly, Yuki dies away..
Yeah, sooner of later someone is going to bust down Yuki's door and put him out of his misery and it's not going to be me xD.
Oh, and thank you to the few readers who read my stories. I'm not the best writer when caught in a lazy slump. I have so much free time, I should be writing my next AU story on this couple...but ah...my brain is not working so well these days.
Porn without plot? Fluff without plot? I am conflicted between these two choices xD!