I ONLY OWN SARAH. I'M GONNA TRY TO MAKE THIS MY LONGEST CHAPTER EVER. THIS IS GOING TO BE THE DARKEST CHAPTER I HAVE EVER WRITTEN. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. DEALS WITH RAPE AND HEAVY ABUSE.

Sarah hummed happily as she drove her old beat up truck to the store. She rubbed her stomach. As she pulled into the parking lot, She spied a guy on a bike but didn't make anything of it. From where she was she couldn't make out who it was. " I guess i didn't slip past Tig or Happy totally unnoticed." Sarah shrugged as she walked in the store. As she walked out, Sarah didn't even notice the guy slipping up behind her. The last she heard before the darkess took her was " Fucking finally."

ABUSE STARTS HERE. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

As Sarah slowly woke up she tried to move her arms. Panic flooded through her when she realized her arms and legs were tied to the bed loosely. As her eyes adjusted, She also realized she was only wearing her bra and panties. Sarah panicked and started pulling on the ropes, Making them even looser. Suddenly the door flew open and someone walked in.

Sarah's heart hammered in her chest as they walked closer. " I've been waiting patiently for you to come back to charming. I knew you wouldn't be able to stay away for very long." Kozik said, Flipping on a light. Sarah's stomach rolled when she saw the tray. On it were wire cutters and a small blowtorch. Sarah started struggling aganist the ropes. Kozik backhanded so hard her teeth rattled.

He pulled out a roll of tape and covered her mouth. " You're gonna have to be quiet. I have neighbors." He told her picked up the wire cutters and walking towards her. Sarah's eyes widened. He then got to work removing all her piercings as painfully as possible. When he was done he stepped back to admire his work. Sarah was bloody in three different places.

His eyes roamed over her half naked body. " I can think of another way to punish you for hiding from me. " He said removing his belt and holding both ends in his hand. By the time he got done whipping her, She was covered in bruises and bloody welts. He had paid extra attention to her stomach, like he knew she was pregnant. By now he was Pretty well buzzed. He slipped out of his jeans and Sarah's eyes widened.

She knew what was coming next. As he raped her over and over, Sarah closed her eyes and prayed to whatever god was listening that Happy would find her. When he finally finished hours later, He sat down on the bloody sheets next to her. Unfortunally for him, He had left the tray too close to the bed. It still had the unused blowtorch on it. By now with all of Sarah's struggling, The ropes were loose enough for her to slip her hands out. Sarah acted quickly. Before Kozik knew what was happening, Sarah was free and Had the blowtorch.

Turning it on She fireroasted his nuts and walked over to the dresser. While he was raping her he told her about the gun he was going to use to kill her. Picking it up, She looked at him and emptied it into his face. Sarah made her way outside and stumbled into the street. The car that was coming down the street slammed on it's brakes. As the door opened, Sarah's legs almost gave out in relief. It was the new sheriff. As she sunk to the ground, He ran over and took one look at her and picked her up and put her in the backseat of the car. As They took off, Sarah finally lost her battle and the darkness consumed her once again.

HOSPITAL

As they were working on Sarah, The sheriff had the hospital call Tara. When Tara got the call, the phone slipped to the floor and before it could hit, She was out the door. As she got in the car, She pulled out her cell phone and called Jax and told him to meet her at the hospital with Tig and Happy. Slamming on her brakes, She raced into the hospital. She stepped off the elevator and saw the sheriff. " How bad is it?" Tara asked him.

The sheriff looked pale. " She was covered in welts and blood. When she stumbled out into the street she was hold a empty gun. She also only had on her bra and a pair of panties. It's bad. Very bad." Tara paled and her knees went out from under her. " But she's pregnant." Tara heard herself whisper as she slowly stood up on shaky legs. " Wherre is she?" Tara yelled.

The doctor working on Sarah walked over. " Just tell me how bad it is. " Tara told him. " She has numerous welts covering her body. It looks like he removed her eye ring, Tongue ring and belly button ring as brutally as he could. What worried me is her blood loss. She lost too much blood. She also lost the baby from the repeated blows to the stomach. The worst of the damage was centered on her stomach. We've stopped the bleeding and we had to sedate her. She kept screaming for someone named Happy." The doctor told Tara.

Halfway through the doctor's speech The guy had showed up and heard most of it. Their faces went hard. " Is she stable?" Tara asked him. " Yes." The doctor said. " Then i'm singing her out AMA. She hates hospitals and if she wakes up in one it will just freak her out. " The doctor sighed and reached over and pulled out the forms for Tara to sign.

3 MONTHS LATER

Sarah's life was slowly going back to normal. She was in therapy and it was going well. Happy however was a different story. He was slowly pulling away from her. Sarah wasn't stupid. She could see the writing on the wall. She knew what was going to happen. They hadn't had sex since before this had happened to her. She was going to go home and try to get over her fears. She decided that tonight was the night she and Happy would finally reconnect. even if it killed her.

LATER THAT NIGHT.

Everything was all ready. She had cooked his favorite meal and lit candles everywhere. She had even put on his favorite teddy under her robe. There was a knock at the door and Sarah Looked through the peephole. Confused, She pulled hte door open. " What are you doing here Jax?" Sarah asked him pulling her robe tighter. Jax looked at her sadly and handed her a letter before turning around and walking away. Sarah closed the door and opened the letter with shaking hands.

Sarah,

i know this is a shitty thing to do to you, but i've gone nomad. They voted on it tonight. I asked them to look after you. i just couldn't deal with it anymore. i never blamed you. this isn't on you. this is on me. these are my issues to deal with, not yours. you have enough on your plate right now. hopefully being on the road will help me deal with my own issues and bring me back to you. if you decide not to wait for me, i have no one to blame but myself. I love you. Stay strong for me.

Sarah slumped to the ground, Her vision blurry. He had really done it. He left her. The radio she had left on started playing a new song.

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride
and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart (we just grew apart)
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not (believe me or not)
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry