Broken- PART ONE!
I know I said at the end of the last chapter that Abel woke up thinking about Jayde but I had to mix it up a bit to fit this chapter.

I felt someone grab my shoulder and a hand cover my mouth so I couldn't yell, my eyes flew open only to see it was my dad standing by my bed he indicated for me to be quiet

"What's going on?" I whispered when he moved his hand and I sat up

"Get dressed, we've got club business" My dad said I checked my alarm clock 2 am blinked on my screen

"At two in the morning?" I asked but stood up and searched for some clothes

"Yes now get you're shit together I'll be in the kitchen" He said and went to walk out the door before pausing "And Abel? Bring your gun" he looked at the floor thoughtfully before he glanced back at me. I dressed quickly pulling on my gun holster over my shoulders and fastening my knife to my belt on my jeans I pulled on a black SAMCRO hoodie and my vans grabbing my gloves I walked out into the kitchen picking up my cut on the way passed the front door, I was pulling it on when I entered the kitchen my mum was sitting at the counter with a cup of coffee nestled between her hands and was dressed her and my dad were whispering to each other my mum looked worried the stopped when I walked in they stopped

"What's going on dad?" I asked for the second time

"Matt's dead, The prospect. He was guarding the warehouse with Kenny and Juice when someone came fired a few shots, Juice got knocked out but Kenny was shot in the leg, you're mums going over to now." My dad rushed out texting on his phone and started gathering his stuff

"Jesus Christ is he gonna be okay?" I asked I felt my heart drop at the thought of Matt being dead I hadn't know the kid that long but he was decent guy,

"He's going to be fine, I'm guna wait with him till Opie gets back" She said as the Nanny bustled through the front door making me jump, I guessed she was coming to watch Tommy and Rebekah, Mum got up to talk to her I followed my dad out the door when he indicated for me to follow him

"Who was it?" I asked copying my Dad as he climbed onto his bike

"I dunno the boys are following the guys who did it we're going to meet up with them, I told them to hang back till we got there, Abel be ready they're armed and firing. Are you ready for this" He called over the noise of our bike I felt my heart speed up but I nodded

"Yeah,"

My dad and I sped out of town and down the highway we had been riding for around ten minutes when I saw the headlights of the motorbikes my dad went even faster I pulled harder on my accelerator to keep up with him, when we reached the back row of the bikes my dad waved his arm in my direction and pointed to Chibs who I was obviously supposed to pair off with, he rode to the front of the boys and I noticed down further then us was a black van speeding away all at once we sped up Opie and my dad in the lead followed by Happy, Tig, Chibs and I, When we were only 10 metres from the van my Dad pulled out his gun and fired shots at the van Opie followed I pulled mine out copying Chibs but didn't fire rather just had it ready. One of the bullets hit the back tyre which caused the van to swerve and hit a ditch on the side of the road the van rolled 3 times and landed on its roof, I was going to fast so by the time I hit my brakes and doubled back to the accident my dad and Opie were already there compared to the noise of the bullets and engines it was now eerie quiet the rest of the boys shut off their bikes and waited to see if anyone was alive inside the van after a minute shots were fired from inside the van and a few hit the opening of the ditch in front of my feet Chibs grabbed my shoulder and pulled me to the ground pressing me into the asphalt

"Get down Abel!" He yelled I covered my head as the shots continued Chibs pulled himself onto his knees and fired some shots back there was a yell from the van so I guessed one of them hit I saw my dad and Happy on the ground a few feet to my right and they both fired toward the van Tig was crouched behind the bikes to my left and I saw his body pop back up as he fired some shots of his own while Opie was further back behind his own bike. My heart was racing so hard I thought it would beat right out of my chest eventually the shots coming from the van stopped. The club advanced on the van carefully and slowly in case the shots continued the sliding door to the back of the van pushed open and a man crawled out on his stomach groaning I could see he had been shot in the shoulder, I kept my gun trained on his head as my dad and Opie jumped forward and pinned him to the ground I stood back further then everyone else on top of a pile of rocks for the height advantage, they were all yelling but my eyes went to the front seat of the van where blood covered the entire windshield my stomach flipped Jesus Christ what the fuck am I doing here. I don't remember what happened but the next thing I knew my dad and Opie were laying on the ground and the guy from the van was running towards me and our bikes before I could think or do anything else my gun moved to his forehead and I pulled the trigger. Bang. The man dropped dead onto the ground. When I had shot him he had been facing me so blood sprayed on my face and the front of my clothes I stood there in shock my hands began to shake and the gun felt heavy in my hands, everyone turned to stare at me, my eyes found my fathers and he held my eyes and I could see sadness and pride in his I wondered what he could see in mine fear? Shame? Guilt? Because I felt all of those. When the shock wore off the others my dad came and stood beside me he pulled the gun out of my now uncontrollably shaking hand and flicked the safety lock on before tossing it to Tig my Dad turned my shoulders so I was facing him he stared into my eyes before pulling me into a fierce hug I clung to him shaking

"Oh god what have I done, what have I done Daddy." I mumbled over and over again

"It's okay Abel, you did what you had to" My dad said into my ear and I'm unashamed to say that I cried. I had just taken a man's life. I felt more bodies as the club surrounded me and placed a hands on my shoulder or back in a way of comfort .

How I made it back to the clubhouse without falling off my bike I have no idea. When I walked inside the clubhouse my dad following close behind me my mum was seated at the bar with my grandma Gemma I couldn't talk to them right now they would have noticed the blood in my hair and the edges of my face

"Jesus Abel what happened?" My mum stood up coming towards me I looked her in the eye for a second but pushed passed her heading towards the apartment to clean up, I made it inside the door of the dorm before my legs decided they couldn't hold me anymore I leaned against the closed door and slid down it my knee's pulled up and my head in my hands a few minutes later I heard my mum follow me down the hallway and a set of heavier footsteps which I guessed belonged to my dad

"Tara don't! just leave him" My Dad said they were outside the door,

"No Jackson! Did you see him, did you look into his eyes? That is our son Jackson and you broke him." Tara said

"Tara, leave it! This isn't my fault. You know this life Tara. Abel knew what he was getting into, he'll be okay just give him a minute" Jax said more quietly

"I never wanted this for him Jax. You never wanted this life for him."

"Tara, it's too late now this is his life. He wanted this, just like I did and take a look I'm still here." I heard my dad say

"He's too much like you Jackson of course he wants this." Then I heard footsteps leading away followed by my dad's sigh and his footsteps following her back into the main clubroom.

There's only one person I wanted to talk to right now.

Jayde.

So there we go. This was not the way I planned this chapter on going the words almost wrote themselves!
Part two of this chapters up next!
Review's will make it come faster!

Xx Jamie