Ok so I get that some people may be confused about how Sookie is taking Bills death but if you think about she has always been confused about how she feels about Bill. The trauma is a lot to take too and with Eric well we all know it's easier to hate something you know you won't lose and he don't seem to be going anywhere. Thank everyone for reading I enjoy reviews even if there bad so feel free to let me Know your honest opinion.

Eric stayed with her the next couple of weeks watching her every move; she had gotten use to sleeping during the day to be with him at night but she knew she would have to get back to the real world and soon. It had been weeks since the last nightmare and Sookie hoped she was coming to terms with the things Bills had done to her.

There were still days when her guilt would take over and she would remember the sight of Bill and hear him screaming her name, Sookie knew she would never forget the night Bill met his true death or the look on Eric's face as he watched her self-destruct but they both knew that over time things were getting better.

The beginning was hard there were nights she woke up screaming and fighting against the cold stone that was Eric chest; it killed her to see the hurt in his eyes when he realized how broken she was. Her emotions were raw and she had no control over them, the slightest reminder of Bill would cause her to relive those nights as his prisoner and Eric had a front row seat.

Their love making had suffered as well, a few nights after their return to Bon Temps she and Eric made love and it was amazing right up until the part where his fangs came out. Sookie screamed and fought to get away from him as the fear of being drained overwhelmed her, both of them were shocked by her reaction but it was Eric who seemed hurt when he moved away and tried to calm me from a distance.

They tried to talk through it but even she wasn't sure what suddenly caused her to react the way she did, it had only been a few days before that she was begging him to be the lover he had always known him to be. Sookie was disappointed when Eric decided it would be best if they waited to try having sex again, the thought of not being with him after so long was torture but she knew it would be hard for him not to feed during sex so she agreed.

A few days later Sookie regretted their agreement as she watched him cringe while chugging a bottle of true blood, he had become accustom to feeding on human blood only drink the synthetic occasionally and now that they were together he refused to drink from anyone else.

Over the next couple of weeks her nightmares faded almost completely and when she did have them Eric would talk her through it holding her in his lap like a child and tracing tiny circles along her back, it was comforting for a while but she grew to miss her vampire Viking and hoped that her weakness wouldn't damage their relationship.

Sookie noticed more and more that Eric was becoming her caregiver rather than her lover and now that her body mind and libido were fully healed she wanted her lover back. She knew he was afraid of scaring her but she also knew Eric was a sexual being and like any man he had his needs; Sookie would just have to convince him she was ready.

She worried every day that their relationship would fizzle and die if they didn't stop tip toeing around her emptions and when they sat on the sofa watching an old movie and cuddling for the hundredth time she finally lost it. She jumped from her seat throwing her hands up and screaming at the top of her lungs, she had finally had enough.

"Eric what the fuck are we doing?"

He jumped to his feet shushing her with a panicked look on his face

"It's ok, its ok, I'm here" Sookie's hand flew up and the sound echoed through the room as I slapped him across the face.

"You're not here, not anymore" she felt awful once she had hit him but his expression didn't change as she stood staring at him.

Sookie couldn't take it anymore she needed to feel normal, she needed to go back to reality and live her life but it was clear she was going about this the wrong way,

"Eric I'm scared" she grabbed his hand and pulled him back onto the couch.

She had to make him understand that nothing could get better if he kept treating her like she was a wounded animal.

"I need to feel normal I mean we, I need you to stop acting like I am going to brake," Eric's face became neutral once he was sure I wasn't losing my mind.

Sookie sat there holding his hand and waiting for him to reply, her eyes filled up with tears as her frustration took over and for once Eric didn't try to shush her or tell her everything is ok he just listened and for a second she saw the worry leave his eyes.

"Thank god" Eric tilted his head and raised his eyebrow at her response

"Eric I need you to be you, Ok?"

"Stop babying me, stop treating me like I am fragile, Stop watching old movies and cuddling"

"And would you please fuck me and feed yourself?" A smile spread across Eric's face and she knew she had made her point.

Without a word he got up and made his way to the bathroom with her following after him dropping her clothes along the way, when she reached the door Eric was already in the shower. She felt pure joy when she looked at him; she stood watching him as the soap ran down his back and a familiar warmth started between her thighs and spread throughout her body.

He heard her walking toward him and he turned his head revealing a fangy smile that made a shiver run down her spine, Sookie was relieved it was her only reaction no tears no screaming. Eric turned allowing her to see all of him before pulling her into the shower; she felt my heart skip a beat as he kissed her and ran his fangs against her bottom lip.

Eric washed her body with his hands massaging the soap over every inch of her until she begged him not to stop; he pressed her body against the glass walls of the shower and wrapped her legs around him as he lifted her pressing the head of his throbbing muscle against her clit. He rocked her back and forth teasing her before pushing himself inside, Sookie's fingers clawed at his back tearing his flesh as she took all of him in and their moans echoed through the bathroom as their bodies pounded together.

Her hands clung to his pulling him in closer as his lips found hers again the pressure of his kiss pushing her to another level; she let out a gasp of pleasure as he nicked her lip and sucked at the blood from my mouth. Eric's hands searched her body memorizing it and she felt the heat between her legs deepen and her body started to shake, he slowed as my warmth pulsed around him and she found her release.

Eric continued to move slowly inside of her kissing her tenderly as she came down form her high, part of her knew he was stalling so she sank her teeth into his shoulder drawing very little blood. Sookie licked and sucked at his shoulder until he thrust into her hard and deep, she wrapped her hands in his hair pulling him to her neck and she felt his body stiffen as he sank his fangs into her neck and found his own release.

She and Eric stayed in bed until dawn making up for lost time but when she mentioned going back to work the next day Eric didn't seem happy; He had asked her many times to stay home and let him take care of her But that wasn't what she wanted, she had always been a hard worker and she enjoyed her job at Merlots.

Her friends had come to see her not to long after came back to Shreveport, it was hard to explain to them what had happened to her but she managed with Eric's help. Tara blamed all vampires and Sam just stewed on it before expressing how glad he was that she was ok, Lafayette chucked it up to a lesson learned but it was Jason who took it the hardest.

He hadn't even noticed she was missing and when he heard the details of what she had been through he cried, Jason was always a selfish person and he had been going through a lot lately too so it was safe to assume not all of his tears were for her but she accepted his hug and believed him when he told me if he had known he would have staked Bill himself.

Sookie picked up the phone and dialed Sam's private number she knew this time of day he would be in his office handling paperwork, The phone rang twice and when he answered she was glad he sounded like he was in a good mood.

"Sam here" he said clearly distracted

"Hey Sam its Sookie"

"What can I do for you Sookie?"

"Well I was wondering if I could come in and work today?" there was a long pause and she was sure he would say no,

Everyone was sure they knew what was best for her and when she talked to Sam a few weeks ago he told her she needed to take more time to heal. Well she was healed damn it and now she wanted to get back to her life; she could hear the bar noise in the background and it sounded like a busy night and she hoped that would influence his decision.

"You sure Sookie you know you should" she cut him off she already had a vampire treating her like a child and she didn't need a shifter doing it too.

"Sam if you tell me I need more time I'm gonna scream" she tried her best to sound polite,

"Okay if you're up to it" Sookie was excited to be going back to work, she jumped in the shower and pulled on a uniform before leaving Eric a note.

Eric

Went back to work today yay me! There is blood in the fridge I will meet you at Fangtasia tonight I love you

Love Sookie

She made it to work before two and by the looks of things they needed her, she hadn't been to work since the night she planned to take Bill to Fangtasia. It was a little surreal when she walk through the door but the look on Arlene's face was distraction enough to put her straight to work.

Sookie took orders and carried food and drinks to their correct tables it was like riding a bike and she was enjoying the normalcy of it all. When her shift was over she felt kind of sad to leave but then she remembered she was meeting Eric at Fangtasia, Sookie flipped her phone open and dialed his number,

"Northman."

"Eric it's me I am on my way I" she felt anger and fear running thick through their bond as he cut her off

"No thank you we will not be needing your help here tonight."

"Eric I'm going home and I expect to hear from you tonight!" Her voice quivered as she finished her sentence.

"Sure thing we will contact you soon,"

Sookie's heart sank as she heard his phone snap shut, there was something or someone at Fangtasia that Eric didn't want her around. She headed home her stomach in knots, today had started out being such a wonderful day and now here she was a total mess; she felt a lot of mixed emotions but wasn't sure which ones were coming from Eric.

She made it home in one piece considering she was too distracted to pay attention to the road; Sookie made my way inside and waited to hear from Eric. After an hour she was starting to feel restless so she changed my clothes, putting on an old t shirt and some sweats and started cleaning.

It was now two in the morning and she knew the bar would be closing soon so Sookie grabbed her phone and hit redial this time getting Eric's voicemail. She didn't want to panic but couldn't help it grabbing my keys and reaching for the door when her cell phone buzzed in her hand stopping her in her tracks; she flipped it open and read the message

'Sookie stay inside and don't answer the door for anyone I am fine be there as soon as I can I love you Love, Eric