"I'm sorry, what did you just say?" Jack asked incredulously.

"I said that Keegan... raped me." She murmured, trailing off quietly at the end.

Jack stared at Sam in disbelief, unable to grasp the concept of what she'd just told him. Sam was a soldier. Sam was brave, faced the Gou'ald, the Replicators, and she did it at his side, as his Second In Command, pointing her P90 at them and awaiting her CO's order to fire. But she was a woman. A stunning woman at that. So he couldn't say he hadn't thought Keegan was attracted to her, he'd noticed the looks, the making of ridiculous reasons to be around her. But had he thought Sam would be interested in Keegan? Never. He was still holding out the hope she loved him. That had been part of the stupid za'tarc testing, hadn't it? The words played out in his head as he admitted to a complete stranger his feeling for his 2IC.

I'd've rather died myself, than lose Carter.

Why?

Because I care about her. A lot more than I'm supposed to.

He felt crushed. Of course he knew she wasn't a virgin, but it hurt to know another man had been inside her nonetheless. As soon as the crushing feeling had come, it was pushed away by rage. What made this man think he could have Sam? What made him think he had the right to look at her? What made him think he could get away with it? And the worst thought yet, why had Sam let him get away with it? Everywhere they went, the were lots of people around, no private buildings. Why hadn't she screamed? Why hadn't she called for help? Used her weapon? Told them- told him- what had happened?

She was waiting for an answer, watching the rage darken his eyes.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked, screwing the idea of her telling Daniel or Teal'c before him.

"I wanted to leave it behind me, not have it hop up all over the base." She muttered.

"I wouldn't have let it get out." Jack said, sitting next to her.

"It gets out. I planned on keeping it a secret, and baby, too, when I realised I had one." She looked down.

"How on Earth were you going to hide a baby bu-" He froze. "Keep your baby?"

Sam flinched. "Yes. Keep."

"Why would you do that?" He asked, and she looked at him.

"My baby is innocent. Just because it came around in not so good a way, doesn't mean it doesn't have a right to it's life."

There was no way he could convince her to give up her baby, he could see it in her eyes. They were fiercely determined and even defiant. And then he realised that he would have to watch it. Her stomach, large, with another man's child, her eyes adoring as she touched her stomach. Knowing that he could never be the one she'd share that joy with.

"And your just going to do that to us? All of us?"

"I'm the pregnant one. You just have to deal with a slower Carter who doesn't go off-world..." She finished slowly, realising for the next 9 months, then even the next 15 years, she couldn't go off-world. Damn.

"Yeah, Carter, it works like that."

She sighed. "I'm still keeping it."

Jack sighed this time. Looking at her with a broken expression, he murmured, "Yeah, I figured you would."