A/N: First I apologize for not getting this up sooner, I had a busy week last week. And unfortunately I don't think this chapter was worth the wait-I kinda had writers block for it. Sorry! But thank you for the reviews on the last chapter! And in answer to bbmgleek's questions: Blaine's confused I think. And yes, I'm pretty sure Rachel is probably in love with both of them. Poor girl. Anywho, I hope this chapter doesn't disappoint you too badly. Oh, and to get you excited for the next chapter- I think we may finally get some Klaine happening!

Anywho, please review and-Enjoy!
(Oh, so not to get you confused-this whole chapter is Blaine's pov.)

Chapter Seven 'The Puzzle That Is Blaine'

It was love at first sight-For me. From the moment I saw him standing above me talking about tasting fall and it's bitterness back in September. Now it was the third week of November and everything was so messed up.

It was Wednesday and Kurt and I were going to the park after class. I kept hoping it wouldn't be awkward, but I had this gut feeling it would be. As I sat in Music Theory in the back with April I kept my gaze trained on Kurt and tried to think of where it all went wrong.

It probably started with telling him that Rachel was my girlfriend-Mistake. I hadn't meant to tell him that. It was more of a reflex, and...to be truthfully honest I may have been a bit scared.

Getting drunk at the Halloween party allowing Rachel and Kurt alone time-Mistake.

Pretending that I didn't try to kiss him-Mistake.

Getting together with April-Mistake.

I looked sideways at April. She really was a sweet girl, but she was also kind of an airhead at times. She also talked-a lot. The only reason I had asked her out was because she had been flirting with me for a couple weeks and I had just humiliated myself with Kurt. When I tried to kiss him and he ran out on me.

I sighed and reverted my gaze back at Kurt. At least now I know why he ran out on me. Rachel.

However, that's where I was the most confused. I could have sworn that Kurt was into guys. Hadn't he told me that he had dated that guy who was now his step-brother? And didn't he go on and on about how much he loved Ian Somerhalder and Paul Wesley.? And the way he dressed-good grief any straight man I know wouldn't wear half those outfits even if you paid them.

Maybe he liked both-or maybe it was Rachel-exclusively Rachel. On Friday I had told Kurt she and I told each other everything, and that was the truth. However, apparently he was our exception. I talked about Kurt all the time to her, but I was pretty good at acting as if I was just a guy talking about a friend. I just... couldn't let her know.

The only other time I had ever felt this desperately in love my heart broke into so many pieces that it only just started to feel whole again. After four years. I haven't been in a serious relationship since. I can't. Those hurt too much. I thought if I didn't try a relationship with Kurt he couldn't hurt me. But I was wrong and he was killing me.

I wish I could tell Rachel how I felt, she had been there the last time and has been helping me ever since. But now I really couldn't. If only I had said something to her from the beginning. But it was too late.

"Blaine, are you okay? You look sick." April whispered in my ear as she wrapped an arm around me and rubbed circles on my back.

I nodded my head, then thought a moment and shook my head. "I need some air." I whispered back to her. I slid out of my chair discreetly and slipped fairly unnoticed out of the classroom. I walked briskly out of the building and then dropped unceremoniously to the steps.

Right at that exact moment my phone rang. I checked caller I.D. It was Rachel. Speak of the devil.

"Why are you calling? You know I should be in class right now."

"But you're not-are you?"

"Right, and you know this...?"

"Kurt texted me that he saw you leave so I decide to check on you."

The thought of the two of them texting in class made me ill. "Wonderful."

There was no answer on either end for a moment and I thought maybe she had hung up on me. But then she spoke.

"You are a liar."

"Excuse me?"

"You are not okay with Kurt and I dating."

"And you got that out of one word?"

"No, I got that out of the fact you haven't called or texted either of us since Friday."

"Means nothing. I've been busy." She was right, of course- I am such a liar. Well, at least I was a good one, right?

"Maybe so, but now that it's just the two of us-give it to me straight, Blaine."

It was my turn to be quiet. Should I tell her? Here she was, giving me the opportunity. But... I just couldn't-not the whole truth-not now.

"Alright so maybe I'm not okay with it. It's not going to make a difference will it?"

She didn't answer; I rolled my eyes and continued, getting more upset by the moment. "What makes me the most upset is you never said a word about him to me!"

"Blaine, you're not my brother or my father I don't have to tell you every little bit of detail in my life. You sure as hell don't!"

"What's that supposed to mean?!" I cried, trying not to let panic seep into my voice. She knows, how could she know?!

"April! Who... what... I don't even know where to begin."

Oh. April. I calmed down a bit.

"Rachel, I kept April a secret for three days. You kept Kurt a secret for two weeks. Two weeks! What worse is that Kurt didn't say anything either! And seriously-when did you guys even exchange number?!" I hadn't realized I was shouting into the phone until a flock of pigeons flew out of the bushes beside me almost scaring the pants off me.

"When we had to take a drunk you home . That's when."

"Oh." Stupidity fell on me.

"Yeah."

We were both quiet for a beat.

"I have just one more question. The park?"

My face began to grow red even though she couldn't see me. "What about it?"

"Blaine, seriously you hate the park after... well, you know."

My stomach twisted and I almost didn't answer her. "Please, Rachel..."

"Blaine, I am your friend and I know you-or I thought I did. What makes Kurt so special? After...after..."

I winced waiting for her to say it.

"After everything with Sebastian you would never come with me. Do you know how many performances of mine you have missed because you won't go to the stupid park for me! But you'll go for Kurt?!"

"Maybe I've decided to get over it, Rachel. I'll go to the park with you if it makes you happy."

"Maybe."

"I'm fine though, thanks for checking."

"Excuse me?"

"You called to check on me. I'm fine. Just felt a bit light headed. You know how I get when I skip breakfast."

"... okay, fine. I'll leave you alone now." She said resignedly, she seemed to understand that I was done with our conversation.

We said our goodbyes and hung up. I stayed on the steps, staring into space until I felt a hand on my shoulder. I jumped, surprised.

"Hey, it's just me." That voice, so unique. I looked over my shoulder and smiled. He sat beside me and we got a couple complaints from exiting students and professors.

I fixed my bow tie absently; Kurt had that affect on me. Made me feel so nervous that instinct told obnoxious Blaine to come out and protect wimpy puppy Blaine. I nudged his knee with my own.

"So, you ready to go?"

"Um... yeah... are you? I mean, are you okay?"

"Oh, you mean Rachel didn't tell you" Oh man, I was being snarky. Who let snarky Blaine out? I didn't say anything to cover for it, though.

Kurt looked down and nodded his head slightly. "In my defense you've never left class before, I thought you could be- I thought you were... something was wrong." He ended dumbly.

I couldn't help but smile and roll my eyes. "Well thanks for the concern, but I'm fine. Just skipped breakfast. Come on, let's get going. I'm craving streetcar hotdogs."

"That's disgusting." Kurt said, making a face as he stood.

My smile never left my face as I stood as well and followed him off the campus.

"Yep, that hits the spot." I sighed a while later after devouring two hotdogs. The skipping breakfast thing had been a lie, but that didn't mean I wasn't hungry anyway.

Kurt gave me a disgusted side glance as he shoved his hands in his pockets against the brisk November winds. "Blaine, that's really gross."

"Ah, but you love me anyway." The words slipped out offhandedly-I was used to joking around like that with Rachel, but when I said it at that moment, I couldn't help but wonder the answer. Then I began to question whether or not I had rally just said it in a joking tone. Oh please, yes!-I begged.

"Okay now, let's not be so sure of ourselves." He teased back.

I smiled and shrugged self-satisfactory like while inside I admonished myself for thinking like that.

We walked through the park a bit, talking about safe non-awkward topics like school, musicals, and the school musical. I was proud of us for not touching the Rachel topic that was looming over us. Of course that didn't mean I wasn't thinking about it.

I should have told her I was into Kurt right away-even if saying it out loud would have made it all seem to real. If I had told her in the beginning she could have helped me out and I would be the one dating Kurt right now.

I surprised myself when I thought that. Was that what I really wanted? I looked at him as he spoke, animatedly moving his hands about and then sticking them back into his pockets only to bring them out again to illustrate a point. His blue eyes seemed to sparkle under the sun and his cheeks, nose, and the tips of his ears were pink from the cold giving him the look of one of Santa's Elves that had escaped from the North Pole.

"Blaine?"

I shook my head to bring me back to focus and made eye contact. "Yes?"

"You're doing it again."

"Doing what?" I asked, puzzled.

"That thing were you zone out for a while then stare at me with your freaky intense stare."

I wrinkled my nose. "I do that?"

"From time to time."

"Hmm... that's weird."

"Yeah, so what were you thinking about?"

You. When am I not? "April." Okay, that works to.

"Oh." Kurt pulled his collar up a little more and looked around for a moment then pointed ahead. "A bench with our name on it. Hurry, my legs are freezing."

I followed him and for some reason my mouth kept talking. "Yeah, I was just thinking about how April's leaving in a couple days. She's going back home to Florida for Thanksgiving."

"Oh!" Kurt suddenly brightened as he sat down. "That reminds me! I can't believe I almost forgot! What are you doing on Thanksgiving?"

I thought a moment. I was pretty sure my parents were going out of the country and there was no way my brother was going to call so... "Probably watching the parade. In real life or on my tv is undetermined."

"TV. Come spend Thanksgiving with me and my family. Rachel's coming."

I was touched and annoyed at the same time. "You sure it's okay?"

Kurt beamed at me and just like that the annoyed part fell away. "Is that a yes?"

"Is that a yes?"

"Yes."

"Then yes."

"Yay! This is going to be the best Thanksgiving ever!"