Vexen has convinced the Superior to allow me to work exclusively in the lab. My powers haven't fully developed yet, and it is clear that my strength lies in science. Right now, I am studying like mad—something that strikes me as awfully familiar, and thus am very good at. I already absorb information quite quickly, and without a heart to distract me, I'm that much faster; I do nothing but sit in my room and read old reports all day, every day. It only takes me a little over a week to read them all, and less than another week before I'm ready to work in the lab.
There are three main things that comprise life—that is, whole and complete human life: the soul, the heart, and the body. The heart is the main focus of Organization XIII, and our goal the ultimate heart: Kingdom Hearts. At least, an artificial one, made from the hearts of others. The plan to capture hearts is already underway. Apparently, once Kingdom Hearts is complete, we Nobodies will be able to be whole. I'm not sure what exactly the rest of the Organization plans to do with it, as they are no longer Nobodies, but for some odd reason it is of little concern to me. What is of more concern to me is whether or not I truly want a heart.
Either way, science makes me happy. I started studying about Replicas once we got to the lab—it seems to be the ultimate culmination of all the research on the heart. Vexen goes on about how this is one step below creating a heart from nothing—big deal. There are plenty of hearts that already exist. Those are what really interest me. As they are now, Replicas are merely copies—copied memories, copied hearts, copied emotions. Everything about them is borrowed. They are similar to nobodies in that memories are their main component. However, while Nobodies once existed, replicas never did, and never truly can.
I wrote a lot of personal notes down next to several things in the reports, adding my own theories and such. Vexen read them, then shook his head sadly. He said that someone with such a sharp mind shouldn't waste my time on such romantic ideas. Romantic ideas…something about that sounded familiar. But, this was the heart we were talking about; the variables were endless, all outcomes unpredictable at best. I suppose I'll just have to accept this for now. Zexion is a little more supportive; he said that Vexen doesn't understand how hearts work, "how hearts break." I was a little surprised to hear Zexion say that. But then, I remember what we are doing; remember that we are part of Organization XIII. We can't afford to be nice or affectionate all the time, particularly those of us who don't have hearts.
If any of us were ever innocent before, that's certainly changing now.
I realized I was making Zexion a little too nice to Xima. I just rewatched some of CoM. He's an awesome villain. Borderline Larxene. Of course, perhaps with a heart, he's changing...?