I'm writing from my new computer. Which came with Microsoft Word 2010. I didn't even know there was a 2010. My school computers only just got 2007. Well, at my old High School, since I'm going to college now…*sniff* I really don't see the difference between this and 2007, but meh, it came free ^^
Also, thanks to my readers. My whole two readers that comment. I haven't really gotten to the "ask people to read this" stage yet because I'm still not completely sure if I'm going to be able to see this whole thing through. I will do my darndest to, but you never know :P I always get scared that one day I will just quit. But you guys always make me want to write more and more just so I can upload something for you guys^^ even if it's not a proper chapter. Which, I'm almost done with the next chapters…sort of.
I worked on one of my first victims today—the first of many. Vexen told me that I should be able to experience the inner workings of a heart first hand. It is interesting, to poke and prod at the heart, to see what makes it tick, and to eventually make it collapse. I've learned a lot studying the collapse of human heart into a heartless. Using the data I gathered, as well as data we discovered inside Sora's heart from Ansem the Wise, I was able to make several improvements to the replica program as well as the Daimons.
The Daimons are new to the Organization—I've been heading operations on that front. For you see, where there is light, there must be darkness…there cannot be just dark hearts released from the heartless. We also need pure hearts, whole and unscathed by the shadows, too create the ultimate Kingdom Hearts. As Nobodies, they all only sought out their other halves in the heartless. Working on a machine to implant said hearts into Kingdom Hearts was a little tricky, but I managed to pull it off. A keyblade is the best weapon for extracting hearts, I've learned—in fact, I believe there is an ultimate link between them and the heartless, but more on that later—but the daimons have proved effective so far. They act similar to heartless, instinctually seeking out hearts wherever they are released, but they also resemble nobodies because they are somewhat sentient. Several of them even have their own personalities, a flaw I'm trying my best to drive out. I'm not sure exactly what causes it yet, but I suppose if heartless have no emotions and are of darkness, then the monsters that steal pure hearts must have some sort of emotion or mind to do so.
Daimon eggs are implanted in random objects, and when they come across one with a pure heart, they activate and steal it. This makes it easier to be discreet, but, sadly, they have many, many flaws to them. Daimons cannot use corridors of darkness themselves—I've tried adding such abilities to them, but in all studies imbuing them with any dark powers corrupts the pure heart within. This means daimons must be spread and collected manually, a very trying task as we currently have so few members that can freely move about in the Realm of Light. Many of our hearts have had to come from Twilight Town or other worlds between the darkness and light. So, for the time being, we've focused on quality rather than quantity when gathering our hearts—the purest of hearts can easily equal several released by heartless, depending on the heartless and the person we're targeting. Many smaller scale heartless come from weak hearts that were simply devoured easily by the heartless. The stronger hearts of heroes and those with the most kindness within them…those are the ones that we've been targeting. The heart of a hero is worth a hundred average ones.
Even so, things are going slow, but no worries. I've just about perfected a weapon for stealing hearts, and something to contain them that won't spoil the heart's purity. It is not even the weapon that concerns us, but the container—no matter how much I try to reverse engineer the daimons, I can't seem to make something that doesn't speak. I suppose we'll just have to continue using daimons as containers for the pure hearts once we steal them. But I am not too worried. Things are still progressing smoothly—dangerously so. We've already gathered many hearts, both dark and pure, though it is only the dark you can notice in Kingdom Hearts so far. But soon, our goals will be realized.
Our goals…funny, I always come up a little fuzzy about what our goals truly are. For us Nobodies, we want to be whole of course, but what of the others? What do they plan to do with Kingdom Hearts? I don't really much care right now. I'm just happy to be in the lab. In fact…I wonder if I wouldn't be better off without a heart altogether sometimes. A heart merely gets in the way of things, clouds judgment, distracts from what needs to be done. Occasionally, something stirs within me while I'm doing my research, and I'll know I was a drastically different person as a Somebody. The person I was…probably wouldn't be happy with who I've become. So, it's probably just as well I avoid having a heart. I was a shy, pathetic fool who was doing nothing with their intelligence—and now I am needed, now I am on the verge of discovering great things.
What is in a heart anyway? I don't think it's so interesting. Nobodies are proof that we can live without one. Emotions have no real value. Then what is it, then, that everyone gets so worked up about? I wish…I wish I could conduct more studies on that third thing that makes up life: the soul. Is not the soul more important than the heart? Even without a heart, we retain some form of life. Certainly, the strength of the heart is vast and largely important to a whole being, for it determines the form of the Nobody left behind, if there is one at all. But is it truly just strength of heart that determines the forms of Nobodies? Does the soul left behind—the soul that actually stays within the nobodies—have anything to do with it? It seems to me that hearts are nothing but guides of the soul, which is the source of life.
So very little is known about the soul, and Vexen, once again, dismisses my theories. "Hearts are the true source of power," he says. Bah! Zexion agrees with me on this front, but he points out that the true reason Vexen dismisses me is that no one has ever been able to pinpoint anything about the soul—not examine it, not find it, not study it, and certainly not extract it. I suppose that since I currently lack the means, I will ignore it for now. But I can always keep writing theories…
Ooh. I've been meaning to do this for a while, and this seemed like the appropriate time. Lots of hints at lots of different things going on. Notice how Ami-chan's starting to sound a little like Viluy here…I wonder if she'll end up coming around though? Who can say…
And I still haven't decided if I actually want romance between Zexion and Ami. I mean, sure Nobody Ami is similar to him, but she won't be a Nobody forever. They may both be smart bookworms, but Ami's so gentle and nice while Zexion/Ienzo is all emotionless and cruel. But maybe that's just what he needs to cut through that emo-ness? (and cut his hair?)
Ugh, re-adding everyone's names to the dictionary is getting annoying…