Eeeeeekkkk ok so please don't hate me…

I am leaving the state for 5 days, there will be no updates….

This is a REALLY big chapter and a REALLY terrible place for me to leave you hanging.

I would like to remind everyone that has read both. This is not The Legacy Series.

They are of course meant to be….The ending will be cannon….Promise

And this is it, this is the actual very first thing that brought this story to life!

Sooooo here we go.

Oh and I am not JKR, though that would be nice.

Chapter 21

Nothing

It was a very confused Gryffindor common room that James stepped into that night. The girls all looked at him with bemused smiles and were giggling behind their hands. The guys just looked at him wide eyed, a few of them laughed, a few were muttering under their breath in irritation.

"Uhm, you know you are missing half your uniform right?" Sirius said with a smirk.

"Huh?" James replied, pushing his hair from his eyes roughly, he was distracted, that much was obvious.

"Well, you are missing the entire upper half of your clothes Prongs…And your belt is in your hands and your button is undone. Have you been up to something naughty?" Remus said waggling his eyebrows.

Sirius was laughing and Pete was snickering at their friend's predicament.

"Whatever." James said and walked past them to the staircase.

The three remaining marauders looked at each other with raised eyebrows and darted after him up the tower.

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Remus POV

Remus was very nervous walking side by side with James to the entrance hall. They really should have forced him to stay at the castle today. He didn't know what was going on exactly but he knew it was about Lily, Hogsmede, and James seemed to be a scary combination of devastated and angry.

He walked on anyways, knowing that this was likely the dumbest place they could be going today. He glanced over James' head to Sirius who was on the left. He looked carefree and confident to most but Remus could see the hard look in his eyes, he was nervous about this too.

They walked in silence, mainly because at some point last night, James had stopped speaking and he hadn't started since. But as they cleared the last corridor and the entryway came into sight so did a beautiful Lily Evans.

Seriously, she was stunning.

James POV

She looked incredible. His breath and air caught in his chest as he watched the sunlight gleam off of the couple of blonde highlights in her fiery hair. He had to just walk by her, that was it, just walk by her. He tried, he really really did but then someone grabbed him by the shoulder and gave him a jovial pat on the back.

"Oi, hey Potter, I hear you gave the Gryffindor girls a show last night mate? Do me a favor and remember that my baby sis is a fourth year Gryffindor. Keep your clothes on because I am pretty sure you could take me even without Black and Lupin at your side so I don't wanna have to protect her innocent eyes you know. Thanks Mate. C'mon Lily let's head out."

James' head whipped around and he stared open mouthed at Lily hand in hand with Kai Chang, the Ravenclaw quidditch captain.

James knew he was staring, he knew he was getting ready to do something stupid, apparently so did his friends as Sirius started pulling on his arm and Remus was pushing to move him from the other side. He didn't budge.

"You are going on a date with the Ravenclaw quidditch captain two weeks before the match that I am banned from and that is going to cost your house the cup." He said in astonishment.

Lily looked extremely uncomfortable and pulled her hand from Kai's.

"James…" she said softly. There was so much feeling in her single word that everyone around them turned to see what could have caused Lily Evans to say James Potter's name like that.

James seemed oblivious to the crowd, he took her hands and pulled her to him.

"Lily, please, please don't do this. Don't go with him, go with me. Anywhere, I don't care where. We can go to the Slytherin common room and play cards with Mulciber. I don't care, just come with me. Please." He said.

"James, please don't do this here." She replied, attempting to pull her hand from his. He held on.

"Well where else would you have me do this? Please Lily. Just please. You know that you should be with me. This is stupid."

"Jamie, let's go, not here." Sirius muttered placing his hand on James' shoulder. He shook it off.

"Just come with me."

"I don't want to go with you, I want to go with Kai. I already agreed to go with him." She answered timidly.

"James, mate." Kai started before Sirius cut him off.

"Kai, just back off, you can have her in a minute just shove off for a second ok. You're not helping." He said with a fierce look.

Kai nodded and backed up. Remus took the opportunity to take Lily's arm tugging her from James' grasp.

"Prongs, just go with Sirius."

"I will go if she does." He replied stubbornly.

"James I am not going out with you." Lily said firmly.

"Really? Really?" his voice started to rise, Sirius put his face in his hands and Remus squeezed Lily's shoulder comfortingly. "You aren't going out with me? Then what in the blood yhell have we been doing for the last 6 months?"

"James." Sirius warned.

Lily looked at him shocked, Remus gulped.

"James please don't do this." She said softly, her voice quivering.

"Don't do this? I don't see why it matters. If we aren't dating than it shouldn't bother you at all." He said folding his arms over his chest. "What have you been doing with me if you don't want to date me?"

"I don't have to date you to like you James."

"Lily don't you get it? Everyone in this school knows that I love you, but you. I have told you a thousand times that I love you and it doesn't even seem to phase you. You love me too. I know you do." He implored.

"But I don't. I don't love you. I don't love anyone. I wish I did, I really wish I could tell you that I love you."

"Then tell me damn it."

"But I don't" she said sadly.

He grabbed the front of her fitted purple shirt and pulled her to himself.

"Yes you do. I know you do. You have to feel something."

"But I don't James. You are a friend, one that I have a great time with, one that I want to keep. Please stop this."

"A friend…A friend…Are you effing kidding me? You can look at me and honestly say you feel nothing at all."

"I feel nothing at all but friendship. Nothing." she muttered.

"Then kiss me, kiss me and look me in my eyes and tell me then that there is nothing between us."

"Mr. Potter. I am going to have to ask you to come to my office." McGonagall said gently. She was ignored.

"James. Stop." Sirius said urgently gripping his shoulder again, and this time James jerked his arm out of Sirius' grasp with more anger than before. He was losing control.

He took either side of her face and pulled her to him, crushing his lips to hers. At this point everyone that had planned on going to Hogsmede was watching the show.

It was obvious to everyone that saw that Lily did not just let James kiss her, she fell into the kiss with him. She wrapped an arm around his waist and held his pants at his lower back. Her other hand found his hair and she gripped it tightly. He could taste her tears on his lips. After a few second he pulled away and looked at her in satisfaction.

"Lily I love you with everything that I am. I would do anything for you. I would give anything, I know you feel something for me too."

"Nothing James. Nothing, I feel nothing at all for you. Not in that way. There is nothing." She cried as her tears poured down her cheeks.

"You are lying." He said

"James!" Sirius said forcefully pulling back on his shirt.

Angry at the world James turned and caught Sirius with a right hook, directly in his jaw.

"Shit! Damn it James!" Remus yelled, walking away from Lily and going over to their friend who was sitting on the floor rubbing his face.

"James!" Lily shrieked as did McGonagall.

"Lily please. Please, I would give anything not to want you. Not to love you. It hurts, bad. I don't want to be like this, but it is your fault. At least, it is now. Please, don't do this."

"I am not doing this, you are. You are the one doing this. Why can't we just be friends?" she yelled back, her tears giving way to anger.

"Because I fucking love you. I can't be around you without loving you. So what you are saying is that it is friends or nothing?"

She nodded.

"Yes. I want to be friends, just friends. I want to be your friend James. I want to be around you, I like being around you. But as friends, it's that or nothing. It is your choice." She said forcefully, knowing that James would never choose to not be around her.

"Nothing." He said simply before turning and walking away up the staircase.

And now I am running off to another state….EEEeeeeep don't hate me..