RATING WARNING HIGH T at the very least.

FYI this is my favorite Chapter Title EVER!

Chapter 39

Holy Shit She's My Valentine

James woke up on February the 14th excited. He didn't have detention today! He couldn't have been more thrilled. He sat up and looked around , realizing with a pang that Lily was not in bed beside him. She was still punishing him for putting muggle hair dye in her shampoo bottle. It had been the perfect prank, after spending all day getting her filthy and sticky, she would of course take a shower before dinner. He had of course been right. How was he supposed to know it wouldn't wash right out. He was still thanking his lucky stars that Remus had been able to charm her hair back to its original color even if it had taken two days.

He climbed out of bed and ran to the shower. He had things to set up before she woke. Mad or not, she would not refuse him this year, she couldn't, she was his girlfriend, you can't say no to your boyfriend on Valentine's day. He bounced around getting all of the necessities together for his plans.

Lily POV

When she opened her eyes her first feeling was a sinking one, she wasn't with James. She was pretty sure that this was punishing her as much, if not more than him. Without him beside her she had started having nightmares again. They were intense, sometimes featuring a bloodied and dying James or Sirius, sometimes a snarling wolf and most recently the encounter with the death eaters from two years ago. She hadn't really thought much about that horrifying moment in her life until this last week. James' parents had gone back out into the field along with Alice's. This had been prompted by the receipt of a letter that had been sent to James, Sirius and Alice each, again detailing positions of power to purebloods and offering safety and security in exchange.

The problem was that as this was right now only considered a political movement, the ministry was not recongnising it as a full terrorism even with the repeated attacks on James and his family, there was nothing they could do about the threatening mail as it was not overtly a threat. With all this going on it had hit Lily that James was in danger. In all reality everyone was in danger but he was in immediate danger, enough so that his parents had left to stop it, if an auror was worried surely a girlfriend had a right to be worried. As such she had began having nightmares. And without James beside her to keep them at bay she was having a difficult time overcomming them.

She sat up and threw her blanket off, as if on cue hearts that seemed to be cut from rose and lily petals began to drift down from the ceiling. They landed in aromatic piles on her bed and floor and the air around her was filled with the soft music of Kalanie Cornat, singing the song they had danced to at Christmas, Bewitched By You. She smiled brightly and ran to her door, though James was not there at all. What was there was a fluffy purple bath robe and a basket of spa type bath supplies, tied with a glittery pink heart balloon. Laughing at his hint she picked it up and headed to the bathroom, where to her surprise the music from her room was piping through the walls, the huge tub was filled with sweet smelling water upon which floated flower petals and lit candles. She slipped out of her pajama shorts and into the steaming water, feeling the tension seep out of her.

She floated in the water for some time listening to the music, to her immense surprise not only were her favorite wwn songs playing but there were several of her favorite muggle songs playing as well. She finally got out of her bath and headed back to her room, when she opened her door all she could do for a moment was laugh as she clutched the robe to her body. Everywhere in her room was covered with her favorite chocolate, which happened to be a muggle candy, Hershey's kisses.

She walked through the scattered candy that was thrown on top of the piles of flower petal hearts. On her bed lay a pink and white box with a huge bow and a huge bouquet of purple roses laying amidst more candy. She lifted the lid to the box and pulled out a soft light green cashmere sweater and a pair of soft brushed jeans. She lifted the jumper and held it to her turning to look in the mirror, she stopped when she saw the message written there in her lipstick.

Lily Elise Evans

Now that I have kissed the very ground that you walk on

Will you be my Valentine?

Put the outfit on.

Meet me downstairs in 30 minutes.

~James

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James POV

When she opened that door and he saw her in the tight fitting jeans and the clingy shirt his heart jumped into his throat. Her smile practically knocked him off of his feet, her eyes sparkled like a perfectly cut gemstone, her burnt scarlet hair tumbled in waves down her back contrasting beautifully with the green shirt. He had to remember to thank Alice for picking the sweater out. Her hips mesmerized him as they swayed their way down her spiral staircase to him.

"You are amazing." He said in a choked voice as she met him at the base of the stairs.

"Thank you so much James." She replied, kissing him softly on the lips.

"So is that a yes then? Will you finally be my valentine?"

"How could I resist? Of course I will be your Valentine, I am honored to be." She said, grinning shyly.

"Great, we are going to breakfast and then we have a date…An all day date."

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Lily was taken aback when James stepped in front of the familiar blank wall. He turned and smiled at her.

"Alright, I really wanted to do this with you today, and this was the only way I could think of. SO I really need you to just clear your mind and think, my valentine's surprise, alright?"

She nodded trying not to show her nerves at being back here. This room held a lot of memories for them. When the doorway appeared he took her hand and pulled her through, but the sight that met her eyes sucked the very breath from her lungs.

She appeared to have walked outside. Out onto a rolling snow covered landscape, snow drifted softly from the sky and lay in blankets on the ground. Off to the side at the shore of a severely frozen pond was a small log cabin, smoke furling from the flume above. She bent down and picked up the snow, surprised to see that it was not cold, only a bit chilly.

"What is this? She asked in awe.

"Well, I wanted to spend a day away from everything with just you. I love the snow but hate the cold. This is an exact replica of my family's property in Switzerland, only the room temperature controlled it for me. We obviously can't go there, but we can be here. So this is my gift to you, it is Saturday morning, I have special permission to assign this weekend's duties to the prefects, we are off duty and not able to be interrupted. None of our friends expect us back until tomorrow night. Happy Valentine's Day Lily."

That afternoon went by perfectly, Lily had never laughed more in her life as they fought in an epic snow ball fight, which ended in the two of them kissing on top of a snow fort James had erected. They had a picnic by the pond, served by a house elf that James explained had come from his house to help him out.

He delighted in her squeals as they used a sled to slide down the hills and then as Lily showed him how to use an innertube to spin wildly upon the ice slicked mounds. The sun appeared to be falling in their makeshift skyline and James was helping her to lace up ice skates. Her cheeks were pink with excitement and still a bit flushed from their most recent shared kiss. He took her hand and spun her out onto the ice.

Her face betrayed her, showing surprise at how well James skated.

"Are you shocked Miss Evans?"

She nodded.

"I didn't know that wizards skated." She said bashfully.

He held her hands and skated in a large circle.

"Aye, some do. I grew up in Godric's Hollow, it is a half muggle villiage, I had muggle friends, there were no wizards my age living there as I grew up. This is what they do in the winter. I adapted, though my mum did limit my interactions with muggle kids as I have a tendency to say more about the wizarding world than is wise."

He pulled her close into his arms, stopping near the middle of the pond.

"I have a present for you." He whispered softly before kissing her cheek.

"I thought the whole retreat was my present, well and the clothes and flowers this morning." She said, confused.

He shook his head and smiled happily.

"Nope, they were merely part of the plan. This is your gift. I have waited a long time to give this to you."

He waived his wand and held out his hand. In it appeared a flat square box, a bit bigger than his hand. He handed it to her, it was beautifully wrapped in gold paper and bow.

"Jamie, you didn't need to get me a gift." She muttered.

He used his fingers to lift her face to his.

"No, I didn't, but I did because I wanted to. So please accept it."

She nodded and started to pull the paper off. Once the lid was off she stared in shock at the perfect gold necklace and charm bracelet that lay snuggled in the blue velvet. James lifted the Necklace first. It was a thin sparkling chain and on it hung a single charm, a diamond encrusted lily.

"I bought this last year. I never gave it to you. I chickened out five different times, Christmas twice your birthday twice and Valentines last year. I want to give it to you now though."

"It is beautiful." She stuttered, touching the delicate charm.

He smiled and helped her put it on, kissing the lily as it lay in the hollow of her throat, making her shiver. He pulled back and then lifted the sparkling charm bracelet. It was only hung with three charms. James pointed each out, first the Golden heart that was inlaid with emeralds.

"This is for your eyes. When I look in them every single piece of my heart shatters and falls into your hands."

He pointed at the tiny little stag that appeared to have been carved from amber.

"This is because no matter my form, I belong to you. And because you are the only person that knows this side of me other than my brothers."

Lastly he pointed to an onyx dog that hung lightly from the chain. He smiled and said with a chuckle.

"And this is from Snuffles."

She couldn't speak properly so instead she pulled him into her arms putting every bit of emotion she had into it. He lifted her and skated them both over to the cabin. He sat her down and gingerly removed her skates and then his own before leading her inside.

The only word to describe the cabin was warm, the fire, the atmosphere, the piles of pillows and down blankets that were draping the furniture. She smiled as he lifted a cup of cocoa and handed it to her, after stealing one of her marshmallows with his tongue.

"Let's go change, into comfy clothes." He said before kissing her nose and pointing her to a door on the left.

She followed it through into a beautifully proportioned room, laid out with dark cherry furniture and pale purple linens, there was a huge fireplace already lit. She sat on the bed and thought, I didn't bring a change of clothes, and then, reading her needs as only this place would do, a dressing table popped into existence along the back wall. She stood and walked to it, before opening the drawer she thought, I need something to make him speechless.

When she told him to come in after he knocked on the door she realized that the room had achieved her wish. She stood infront of him wearing small shimmery gold shorts and a matching lacy camisole. He mouthed words though nothing came out. She giggled a bit as he stepped slowly to her and ran a finger over the skimpy silk outfit.

"I didn't bring anything, this is what was in the drawer. Will it do?" she asked in a teasing voice.

He nodded dumbly.

"Yes, yes it is, umh, yes."

She giggled.

"Are you sure I can change if you like?"

"No, no, don't. You are, so so beautiful. I feel extremely underdressed now though." He said gesturing at his light blue cotton pajama pants, and shirtless attire.

"I can't think of anything I like you in better." She said with a smile.

He just nodded, and pulled her to him burying her lips in his. He backed up and sat on the bed her standing over his knees. He wanted to give her the control of the situation so he scooted back letting her straddle him as she sat on her knees over him, though he was intense in leveling her with kisses and touches. She shivered as he ran his fingers under her top, over the sensitive skin on the small of her back. Whimpers escaped her lips as his other hand danced up the outside of her thigh, brushing just under the seam of her shorts.

He could feel the heat from her center hovering over him when he nibbled his way to her jaw and began to kiss her collar bone. He used his nails lightly and scraped them up the backs of her legs, sliding her under the shorts and his grip just on her panty line.

He moaned when her quivering knees gave way and she sat fully onto him, rubbing him against her very small, very silky shorts. His moan made her shiver. He spread his fingers across the bottom of her back and the top of her bum pushing her onto him harder. She opened her eyes and whimpered against his lips. His hand moved down her spine to her hip and pressed her against him, pushing the side of her shorts up with every push. Once he felt his hand covering only her panties, completely inside of her shorts and she rocked her hips against him on her own he hissed in pleasure before gripping her hips and flipping her so she was on her back and he was kneeling between her knees.

"Lils, is this what you want?" he asked softly genuinely. "Do you want this? I will give you whatever you want."

She had a look of mingled lust and nervousness on her face. And he understood. Having sex with your girlfriend was very different than shagging a friend for fun. This would be them committing to each other, he knew it and she knew it. This was worlds apart from what they had done last year. He waited for her response.

"I want you." She choked, desire running rampant through her.

"Lily, you already have every piece of me you can have. What do you want right now, tonight?"

"I, I don't know , I want you, all of you, you make me feel incredible, and I want to be yours, not just a friend like before I want to be yours. In ways I wasn't before." She barely whispered.

His smile in that moment was infectious and it was so much more than happiness it was also laced with need and want, he nodded his head firmly and lowered himself to his elbows. He could see the want in her eyes but he could also see the small bit of reserve and fear there too.

"Oh my sweet you will feel incredible either way." He groaned as he allowed himself to grind against her, still fully sheathed in cotton. After working up the nerve he ran his hands over her chest and pulled the silken string top along with the shear lacy bra underneath her breasts and took her nipple into his mouth. She cried out when he took his hips away and replaced them with his hand rubbing her through the barrier of her lacy panties, kissing her the entire time. He allowed his fingers to slip beneeth the lace into the wet folds hidden underneeth. He pushed them into her making her writhe and thrust against his palm. He stilled his hand when she cried out and was panting against him. He smiled against her cheek.

"Lily, I want a relationship with you, a real one, a serious one, preferrably a forever one. I have no problem waiting to make you mine all over again. But, when I do, that is it, no turning back, I won't lose you again, it would be so much harder this time, I have so much more invested in you right now than I ever did in seven years of chasing you, of loving you. When we take that step, just know that there is no other way. No outs, no nerves, no fear. You'll be mine forever." He said huskily.

Her face was flushed and she was trembling, she had not been touched by anyone since her last night with James. Her body was reeling with what it was missing and what he had yet to give back.

"You mean you will be mine forever." She said with a nervous smile.

He shook his head and kissed her nose.

"Either way Lily Evans I am already yours forever."