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Derek really was a lucky man having friends like Hotch. It was great to have someone who understood about laws, in moments like that.
Hotch had gotten a place in a school of Virginia to Melody, arguing the health of Penelope. But the girl was not too happy with the change.
That was the reason she was idly in the bathroom, while Derek did his best to comb her long thick hair . Though her curls were very wet, it did not facilitate his job.
"Be careful!" Melody said, feeling a slight pain in her scalp "I do not want to be the new bald girl"
"Sorry, baby," he replied, giving her a kiss on her head "I promise to be careful"
"You don't have spray for untangle the hair?"
Derek could not help laughing, "Why could I have this thing?"
Melody rolled her eyes upward in exasperation "Then you wonder why you do not have girlfriend"
"Hey, watch it! Women love me"
"Yeah, right," she said with a laugh, while Derek picked her hair in a tight ponytail, "Honey, sometimes, beauty is not enough"
He turned around to see the results. Probably he was not a great barber, but at least she looked normal.
"Why do not you try to further tighten my ponytail?" she asked sarcastically, "I still feel my temples"
Derek shook his head, loosening her ponytail. "Could you be least demanding? I have no experience in this, I do the best I can"
He felt her hands over his,, and turned his gaze to her face.
"I know," she replied "sorry"
"It's nothing"
Melody hugged him, resting her cheek in his shoulder "I love you, Derek"
His voice was thick with emotion, when he replied "I love too, my little angel" he gently patted her back, his heart molten for her "very much …"
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Derek placed his hand on the doorknob, leaving it there for a few seconds.
A small part of him, did not want go into that room. A big part of him, was dying to see her.
He hesitated for a few seconds, almost a minute before turning the knob. His steps barely were heard . He walked slowly, with something of fear and a lot of grief …
Penelope was lying in that bed, just as the last three days. Motionless, unconscious and injured.
His eyes fell on her body, as he approached her.
He did not know if she could hear him, or if that could be just a monologue with himself. But Derek had so much to say …
"Hey baby girl ..." he sat next to her, in a corner of the bed, without taking his eyes from her face. "I missed you so much"
His voice cracked, tears choking his throat, preventing him from speaking. Did he expect an answer from Penelope? He took a deep breath, trying to get his emotions under control.
"I'm so sorry," Derek whispered "You can not imagine how sorry I am"
He raised his eyes upward, while his jaw trembling. Derek looked down at the floor before looking back at Penelope.
"All this time, I have not stopped thinking about that night, in what would have happened if I ..." He closed his eyes for a moment, "but I did not realize, Pen. I did not realize until you left"
Derek opened his eyes again, now releasing his tears, "I did not realize that I loved you with all my heart, until I lost you" he wiped away tears, furious with himself.
"I would give anything to go back to that night, when you said what you felt for me and ... I never meant to hurt you ... I was pretty convinced that ... you only were my best friend"
He knelt beside her, taking her hands in his
"I thought could survive without you ... what nonsense, right?..."
"Since you left, I've spent my life trying to finding you" his voice was weaker with every word, his despair growing up with each statement
"Every time we had a case outside, I spent hours walking around all those cities, trying to find you.
I looked in parks, in grocery stores, in malls, in bars, in churches and hospitals... God, I will could search all over the Earth, if it had been necessary "
He laughed without humor, while caressed her cheek with his knuckles, "I just want a chance to show you my love for you, baby"
"But I do not know if it's too late for me, for us" Derek again felt the urge to cry hopeless, the pain digging into his heart again.
"I do not know if you still feel something for me, or if even you remember my face ... I do not know if you ..."
Derek did not want to think about that possibility. He did not want to think of Penelope walking away forever, leaving Melody alone in the world, leaving him...
"I love you so much, Pen" he whispered weakly "I love you more than you can imagine ..."
He rested his forehead on her arm, disappointed with himself. "I'm sorry I ruined our chance to be happy together" A tear fell from his eyes, then another and another.
Derek did not need feign that everything was fine, that he was happy with his empty life. He did not need feign with her.
He raised his head, his cheeks wet. His heart beat madly against his chest, as he approached her face. Derek found that she had drop a tear.
With ragged breath, he called the nurse who cared for Penelope.
"Do not worry" she said, still write notes in her notepad "It often happens that patients in coma do that sort of thing. They move a finger or drop a tear ... That means nothing"
"But I was speaking to her, maybe ..."
"No," she interrupted, "Probably it is just a fluid retention"
Derek saw the woman leave the room, before looking back at Penelope.
She had listened to him, or this woman was right? Who was telling the truth? Science or his own feelings?
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