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Leah was sitting in the grass by a stream behind the Cullen house as she tossed pebbles in to the water watching the ripples it caused. She was so lost in thought that she never heard her boyfriend come and sit down next to her. Usually the female shifter would have known he was coming way before he even reached her sight, but today she couldn't really seem to focus on anything, not that anyone could blame her since it was the anniversary of her father's death. Even the Cullen's had been kind enough to give her space. Dean of course had tried to leave her alone when he realized what kind of snappy mood she happened to be in and yet as he watched her out the window the older hunter of all things supernatural he couldn't seem to get his mind off of her. Even working on the Impala had been a bust.
It was strange for Dean considering he never really had cared about another person besides his father, Bobby, and his baby brother. Dean usually tried his best to keep people at a distance because with his lifestyle getting close to someone could only be dangerous for him and them as well. He had learned a long time ago it was better for everyone if he kept emotion off the table, but then he had come to Forks and met Leah Clearwater and all his reasons for pushing people away were thrown out of the window. How could someone get to know her, the real her not the tough bitch she showed off to the world, and not fall for her? It just did not seem possible in his mind.
Once had settled down next to her they sat quickly for a little while simply staring out at the water. Finally Dean knew he should say something, but the problem was he wasn't sure what to say. He and his father had never exactly been close, but in a way he could relate to the she-wolf since he blamed himself for his father's death in the same way she blamed herself for the death of her father. "My dad and I never had the normal father son relationship. He treated me more like a soldier than his kid. I think after he lost my mom it was hard for him to show any kind of emotion for anyone he cared about. For years I thought he was a cold hearted bastard, but he was my father and so I stuck by his side. Then when we were in an accident he gave up his life for mine. I never got the chance to tell him I loved him and how I did not resent him for raising me the way he had. In a way I understood. He was doing what he had to and now I am never going to get the chance to fix all the harsh things I said to him before the accident."
Leah sat frozen in her spot and for a while her boyfriend thought she wouldn't say anything at all, but just when he was about to give up hope she did speak. "My dad and I were always close. He was my best friend growing up and I always thought he would be there. When Sam left me I lashed at him because he took Sam's side. Of course now I understand why he acted the way he did, but at the time I hated him. The last words I ever spoke to him were words of hatred. I screamed out my hate for him and how I wished he wasn't my father before phasing for the first time. Your dad chose to give up his life for you because he loved you and I killed mine because I was selfish and let my pain consume me."
He wrapped his arm around her shoulder and pressed a kiss to the top of her head. He knew that it was hard for her to open up because he had the same problem and so it meant a lot to him that she had tried. "Your father knows that you didn't mean what you said. You were hurting and I bet he hated himself for not being able to tell you the truth about Sam. You can't live your life hating yourself for what happened. You need to keep fighting to ensure his spirit is proud of you. That is what I tell myself every time I am on a hunt."
"The reason I let James do the things to me I did was because I felt as if I deserved it. I was so horrible to so many people because I was angry." She whispered lacing her fingers in his. "I just wanted it to be over I wanted to forget you know? I wanted to forget that my own mother hates me, my brother will grow up without a dad, and my cousin and the ex-love of my life no longer need me in their lives. I just wanted it to be over and done with."
Nodding Dean squeezed her hand in a show of comfort. "I get that I really do. When Sammy left for college I felt as if he was leaving me behind. I resented him for having the courage I didn't and I became reckless on hunts because I was tired of it all. Then one day I was hunting this banshee and it was a really close call. I thought I was going to die, but I couldn't because I didn't want to go without setting things straight with my little brother and so I fought back and I won. You have a lot to live for Leah and people who love you. We just want you to be okay."
"And I will be." She replied truthfully finally tilting her head so she could look at him. "I know that I am going to be fine because I have you."
TBC…
AN: Hey people I know it is short, but I have things I needed to do and yet I wanted to update so I hope that you all like it. In the next chapter we get to see James because he decides to finally come back. I wonder what will happen. *Winks playfully* Let me know what you all thought of this chapter.
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