School was almost over. Just one more week and I was going to have maybe the best summer of my life. I had barely seen Matty the past three weeks. We both wanted to do well on our finals and studying together didn't seem to work out as well as we thought it would be. We are still teenagers so we get carried away often and instead of studying we almost every time ended on my bed having heated make out sessions. You can't blame me. Who wouldn't be attracted to Matty? He is really hot so it's hard to control myself every time he touches me or kisses me. I'm sure everyone who is in my situation would feel the same way. His perfect smile and eyes and his sculpted body make it easier to feel tempted. On the other hand, Matty is still a guy so for him it's also very normal to thinks with his body instead of his head. One day things were about to get dirty when my dad walked into my room to make sure we were studying. Things got a little bit weird. Matty was on top of me with his shirt off and I had only my jeans and my bra on when my dad surprised us. It was a very awkward situation. It was obvious that my dad was a little angry so Matty quickly left the house embarrassed without saying a single word. My dad was very serious (and maybe angry?) when he spoke to me.
"Jenna, I want to tell you something and I hope it's the first and last time I say it. I don't want you to act this way. You are my little girl you shouldn't be doing irresponsible things and hurting yourself. You are not mature and old enough to be acting this way". I knew my dad was a little disappointed but I think he was jealous most of all. He didn't want to accept the fact that his little girl was growing and that she didn't need to hold her dad's hand all the time. Until last year, the only man in my life was dad and I knew he wasn't quite ready to let go of her only daughter. But the way he said it caught me the wrong way. I wasn't being irresponsible (well, maybe a little, but not because of my relationship. I was supposed to be studying). I am just only trying to enjoy my high school life after a roller coaster year. I was mad that Matty had to leave so soon that I took it out on my dad. "I am not irresponsible and a little girl anymore dad. And how do you dare say that to me? Do you remember what happened sixteen years ago when you were in high school? I am not going to end the same way as you and mom. I am smarter than that". As soon as I said that I immediately regretted it. I knew my mom and dad made many mistakes when they were young but I am not the one who should judge them. He just looked at me one more time before he left the room.
The next day I went to school and Matty could tell something was wrong with me. I was very sad and the moment I saw him I ran into his arms, hugged him and started crying. I had never had a fight with my dad and everything was my fault. Maybe if it was with my mom, things would've been different. I would've never felt this bad because our relationship was different. With my dad, I knew he was hurt because I never spoke to him like that. Once I was able to calm down I told Matty what happened and he felt very guilty too. He was trying very hard to make me feel better but I knew he was feeling as guilty as I was. After I was done speaking he suggested that we started studying separately because it wasn't working the way we planned. "It would be better for us, and it would make your dad feel much better. We wouldn't want him not to trust us and we have to show him that we can both be responsible". He was right, we were being foolish and not thinking very much, and maybe my fight with my dad was a wake up call. What really surprised me was what Matty said next. "I am going to your hose tonight to talk to your dad though. I feel like I owe him an apology too. I will let him know that he can trust me even when he is not around". That made me feel very happy. I was also going to apologize to my dad. After dad we change the subject and continued with our day.
As I was saying at the beginning, I hadn't seen Matty out of school very often since the incident. Him and I talked to my dad and worked things out and agreed that we would start studying separately. For about three weeks we were seeing each other less often after school. Even though I was able to study more, I still wanted to be around him more(Was I becoming a clingy girlfriend?). On the other hand, I had more time to spend with Tamara. We didn't talk too much about Jake. Him and T were very often hanging out but I knew Tamara wanted him to make the next move or something. She wasn't unhappy with the situation but it was clear that she wanted more. She liked Jake and wanted to be with him but Tamara never liked the idea of being single so being in this undefined relationship with Jake mad her a little uncomfortable. From what Matty told me, Jake was interested in T but wanted to know her a little better before making any kind of move. He was even thinking that maybe he would take her on a date for their trip to Europe but of course I wasn't going to tell Tamara about that and ruin the surprise. The trip was in about two weeks and probably Jake will have made his decision by then. Right know he felt that it wasn't the right moment to start something. School stuff was making him think about many things and he needed vacations to clear his head. We would know when they come back how it all ended. As for me I was just waiting for school to be over. Matty was going to host an end of the year party and after that we would have the whole summer to ourselves.