Note: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh Gx and Neither the Characters

Warning: Contains Yaoi

Author's Note: This will be the bonus chapter I promise, but I really hope you enjoyed the story. This will be the finale for Jehu, this chapter is only Jehu x Jehu, so don't get mad, if you prefer Johan x Judai. I am hopefully going to start revising my chapter soon, though.

Bonus Chapter - Before Winter, November 29

"Hey Judai?" I looked at him.

The chill in the air made the distance from us feel rather distant. Your pale cinnamon eyes glanced at me with curiosity, as you just made a simple curious face. Yet, I pulled my head back as I slumped onto the rooftop of Duel Academy. The chill was setting in, but we both had a soft expression on our faces. As if, we were satisfied the way we were at the moment, but things change.

"Yeah?" You say.

"Did you ever believe in us?" I asked out of curiosity.

But you just looked away the moment my eyes meet yours. Cold. But with the upcoming winds, it wouldn't be a surprise that it may have been the weather. Yet, I wanted you to look in my face and answer the question honestly. I wanted to see you, especially the expression you had on now would have been painfully honest about us, and I wanted to see it. But I was scared as well; the expression in your eyes would tell me the truth that it was never meant to be us. So playing on a steep hill, you easily get pushed and down you stumble. My finger gently glided down your cheeks, as I gently tugged your chin to face to me to find the truth of my ugliness.

It showed it all. The answer was right in front on me.

Your face wasn't strong enough to say no, but you had a tender look in your eyes. "Judai, I hate you the most," I chuckled, as I could feel a sting in my chest. Dropping my touches on you, the beating of my heart ripped against my chest. It was as if my lips were quivering of silence, yet your eyes kept a steady grip on my face, it was just like you. Everything you did bewilder me, but no matter what you did to me your eyes remain on me because of Johan. It was threatening.

Slowly, my fingers began digging in your hair.

"You love me, don't you? Jehu." His eyes continue to watch me with a firm grip. Slowly, my eyes looked away from you, as I began stroking you hair for comfort. Slowly, my eyes meet your, as I pushed myself forward to you. "Judai, if I said it, would you accept me for who I am?" I looked at him. Each glance we made, surely it would give him chills. He just glanced away.

"Jehu," you whispered my name under your breath. As you were clouded with thought about the two of us, Johan and I. It makes me wonder, have you ever treated us as two different beings? It was unsettling.

Soon, you clashed your fist on my chest. "Give h-him back to me!" As you continued to bang the fist on my chest, all I could do was wait for you to stop.

I wasn't Johan. I couldn't ease his pain.

Yet, as you continued forcibly giving up soon with each punch. I could see the tears building up on your face.

I'm not Johan! I pulled him to my side, as I pulled his face to my shoulder. "Judai, I love you. I love you." I whispered in his ears. My word couldn't get through his head, his need for Johan. I could feel his nudge, as he tried to tell me to get away. But I didn't want to, and to my punishment he forcefully grabbed me by shirt and pushed me away. His face was filled with tears, as his eyes began to puff. "Give him back, Jehu," His eyes watched mine, he was desperately searching for someone I didn't want to be. Sometimes I wonder, did you ever think about me?

But to me, my eyes lowered to take a spare breath. "I'll give him back."

I watch him collapse on the floor; it was pointless to fight with him. Coming up to him, his eyes were filled with tears. "You must have cried for days," I said, as I came up to him and patted him on the head with a gentle smile. "I'll give him back soon," I said to comfort him.

He was beginning to wipe away his tears, as he glanced up to me.

It was pain wrecking.

To know that the person in front of you would only look at another man, it was like stabbing a knife in your own heart. "It will be fine one day, everything would go back to the way it once was," I continue stroking your forehead, as Judai was calming down. His eyes looked at me; the tears were slowly fading away. Slowly, I made a soft chuckle. As I used my own finger to brush away the rest of the tears, Judai continued to wince at every motion. But, at that moment I wanted to cry, I wanted you to look at me, but I was scared. I was scared to be a nobody, again. When I'm with you it felt different, but without you the world felt rather pathetic. I needed you, but once I'm gone you won't remember me, anyways.

"What about you, Jehu?"

I blinked, as I stopped rubbing the face of his dry tears. Gentle as always, I chuckled with just the thought of him in mind. "I'll be fine, Judai," I lied, as my eyes gazed to an opposite direction. But I pushed the voices I wanted to deny in my head, as I spoke words that I would never dare to say. "Don't worry about me; everything will be fixed when Johan is back." I heard my voice cracking, as I tried to speak words that I wanted to deny. It echoes in my mind, the words that I spoke with lies. I wanted to hold the boy in front of him, tell him that I didn't want him to go to Johan. I didn't want to leave him; I wanted to be with him. I wanted to love the boy named, Judai. But god was cruel.

The tint on Judai's face returned, his eyes remained on mine though. As his eyes were puffed and lips swelled, it made me feel vulnerable almost. So formidable under his gazes, it was almost nerve wrecking.

Yet, the smile on his face hurts though.

I was painfully aware that Judai will never pick me. We would never have a chance, and in the end I should have probably never confessed. Because I love you and I've dealt with enough here.

"I was happy to meet you, Judai. Even though you weren't," I thought.

Maybe if we meet earlier, you would have chosen me. Though something told me, that it was lie.

"Forgive Me," I whispered into Judai's ears.

My legs felt heavy, as I pushed myself off from the ground. Until winter is over? I wouldn't even be here at the end of the day. The docks were once again silent, as I need to make my escape. I could see Johan not to far from a distant, but he already approached his lover. He wanted to comfort his lover, but even I knew that this would be the last day for my perfect ending.

My eyes just shut tight, I was scared again.

I had to make things right between the two, this was their last day. I almost felt empty in the pit of my stomach, I wanted comfort, but this was my perfect end. Walking back to the duel academy, I find myself wanting to finish myself off. Bitterly, I bit my lip as I could see the Obelisk dorm not to far ahead. The sun was already setting low, since our day was spent at the dock. It was quite obvious that dawn would be approaching. How funny.

"Hey," I said, as I came into the room, rather cheerful.

Easily I lowered the gloves I was wearing on to the table, but things were uncomfortable the moment I saw him, Johan. His eyes looked at me, as they were narrowed. "So... Since you heard the news, what are you going to do now?"

Moving my head around to lift up aggravating effects on the neck, I just replied honestly. "What choice do I have?"

But things became rather aggressive with the taunting. He pushed his way towards me, and his focus became me. "These last days, you don't have much of a choice, you are just the wall to Judai and I," he said. But lowering my head, I knew he was correct. But what could I do? He was speaking the truth, Johan I am the one who made you this way. A soft sigh appeared from my mouth, as I wanted to say I was sorry. But my eyes watched him closely; I promised Judai I would fix everything and it a promise I was planning to keep.

"Johan, do you love Judai?" I asked him, even though I knew the truth.

But my thoughts only faded to Judai with concern. "Jehu, we are two coins, I love him, you should have felt it," but looking up to him, I was sure that he had an honest eye when it came to Judai. It was as if Johan would have done everything just to be loved by him, just as much as I did. Chuckling was the best response I could offer, but soon after I just stopped to offer a smile. "Yeah, you're right." But my eyes lowered, as I spoke word that I could only tell my other self. "I love him, Judai. Did you know that?"

With that you didn't dare look at me, but we both knew that we were in love with the same Judai.

"He needs you more than me, though," I made a sarcastic laugh.

But his response was rather defensive, "What makes you say that?"

I could see in his eye, the look he had on right now explained it all. "You," I smiled. "He loves you, you should really go chase him tomorrow." Something like a switch turned on in Johan, as he gave an uneasy look. But after all these day, I couldn't help it my heart was a mess right now. I was scared with each ticking moment I had. He grabbed me by the collar and said, "Is this a trick? You better not be kidding me, Jehu."

My eyes softened, as I looked at him. Maybe being dead wasn't that hard. My eyes softened, as I looked him into the eye. "I can't lie to you, remember."

The gleam in his eyes at the moment, were like the ones I would have used to make Judai's mine, possessiveness. But everything about him had reminded me of myself, look at him saddens me. "We are one, Johan." I admitted the truth.

Even though I've denied that I've been different from Johan, but truthfully just like me. We were similar in every aspect. Maybe it would be easier to let go, I smiled, but I could feel my head rummaging with thoughts about the two of us and Judai. It was scary, today was the final day. I could feel my eyes stain with water from my eyes. I could feel Johan's grip loosen. "I love Judai," I reminded him. We both loved Judai.

"You weren't going to like this ending." Johan's voice screamed at me with anger.

I could tell he was having trouble being stable as well. Looking at his face, I could see tears blundering down his face. He was crying, but idiot probably didn't even notice it. He looked horrendous. I couldn't help, but chuckle. Slowly, I closed my eyes as I pressed against his lips.

Maybe this was the ending I deserved.

AN: Okay Guys! This is the end of the story; I've finished the story line. If you guys are unsatisfied, I don't care. It was very depressing for me to write this story already, so please be satisfied with that I wrote. And FAREWELL TO ALL MY READERS! I will just be revising them a bit because of my horrible grammar, though.